New Spot

So Pserendipity fussed at me (I kid) about my blog eating comments. I decided it was time for a change. Check me out at http://cocohassomethingtosay.wordpress.com

New/Old Friend/Acquaintance

So when I went to Mexico for the wedding I reconnected with an old/new friend/acquaintance. We had conversations about the past and she was very insightful about a few things from the past and present. I just want to know why I, a person who is a pretty good judge of character, didn't see that my best friend from college was fcuking psyc.hotic. Why do we let the glaring signs go when it is someone we love? It doesn't matter the love, we just let it ride. She was really close to my best friend but she let her go b/c she saw the psyc.hosis. I hold on to a lot of people who show big a** red flags. I wonder why I do that. Maybe that is an issue I can work out with my next therapist.

Friendship

So the friend that I said I was completely done with is officially no longer a friend. Don't ask me what happened but we are done. If you ask I wouldn't know the answer. The beautiful part about it is that I am ok with it. Maybe she reads the blog. Works for me. I wish her nothing but happiness! It is funny I don't even talk or think about her. I just happened to attempt to look at her facebook page and I was no longer a friend. I don't even know when it happened b/c she commented on my page the day I was stranded on the side of the road. I guess she got mad when I didn't respond but I actually didn't respond to anyone. I just made a few more comments and then came home to sleep. As my bestie said her loss! Dueces!

What I Want

I want my dad to leave me alone. Please love me from afar!

I want a full time job

I want a car that I got on my own

I want to live away from home. I desperately miss my apartment!

I want my own space

I want a love of my own

I want to travel

The Friday from Hell

Friday, July 9, 2010 was pure hell!

I woke up with a sore throat--it is too d*mn cold in this house!

When I went outside to move my car the front passenger side tire was flat.

As I drove to Atlanta Friday afternoon the back tire blew out.

I call the state patrol to help me change the tire and find out the spare has separated tread.

While sitting on the side of the road waiting for the tow truck I run the car hot.

I am towed to P.ep Bo.ys and just break down and get 4 new tires.

I ask the people there to check my radiator. Informed guy who does that is not there so someone will look at it but doesn't necessarily know what he is doing.

I drive away from there and about 4 miles down the road must pull over b/c the car is overheating.

I call my mom and my cousin and while I wait for them it is thundering and lightning but no rain.

My family arrives and it starts to rain (at this point it is dark and a police officer is waiting with me so I am safe).

Cousin checks the car and says it is the radiator. Must call my roadside assistance to get towed for the second time in one day.

That was my HELLISH Friday. I am happy that I made it through b/c as you read you can imagine all the bad stuff that could have really happened.

Sperm donor disappointed me in this situation once again.

Pieces of Me

I think I like my new title for my random ramblings:

So my mom and I had it out about her foolishness. We pseudo kissed and made up. Love that woman but we just aren't meant to live together.

After that mess I am willing to leave Georgia if it guarantees that I can live my life.

I have some very supportive friends.

I am making moves outside of the legal field--hopefully it will all work itself out.

My 4th was pretty nice. I hung out with my friend V and her family. That really makes me wish I had a big family. It also lets me know that I need more than one child. I love being an only child but I definitely missed a lot.

I hate when I ask a yes or no question and the response I get can't even be considered a maybe--ugh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So Crush and I are allegedly going on a date next Saturday. This should be pretty interesting.

So why did the dude who has been trying to go out with me for a minute end up in a relationship? I am not saying he should have been pining away for me but don't try to go out on a date and end up with a girlfriend 2 weeks later.

Ok so I have some business to take care of but I am going to finish the Mexico post and post it very soon.

Smooches,
Coco, Esq.

Frustration

So I started a post about Mexico but most of it got deleted so I am going to finish it eventually. I just couldn't bare to rewrite it at that time.

The point of this post is to vent about my parents, mainly my mom but this isn't just about her.

So how many ways can I tell you to leave me alone and let me handle this. I am applying for jobs regularly and still haven't found another job. Well my mother sits in her bedroom in her spare time and trolls websites to find me a job. The only problem with that is I don't have enough legal experience or the grades to apply for the jobs she keeps throwing at me. I hate to say it like this but my mom is a teacher and finding a teaching job is much easier than finding a law job. In the teaching field they just want you to have a degree and be able to teach. In the law field they want experience and grades. Grades don't guarantee that you will be good at your job but they still want grades. If I had the experience they may be willing to overlook the grades. Well I don't have either so I am stuck between a rock and a hard place. I could go on but I would be rambling so I will move on to the next part of the story.

Yesterday my mother called the head of the dept of poli sci at the local college and pretended to be me to see if they were looking for adjunct professors. They were and she told him that I was willing to teach at any time of the day so expect my info in the mail. That would be fine and dandy if the money was worth it. Can I just say being an adjunct is a rip off to the person. The pay is $3000 or so per semester. If the semester is 14 weeks that is roughly $214 per week. What is that going to help me do and that is before taxes. I was so hot! She didn't even see the wrong in this. What if I am offered a job in a non commutable area like the capital of my lovely state. I would have to turn the job down b/c I signed a contract to teach for the semester. I went off and the only reason she apologized was because I made her feel so guilty. I just don't understand how you are trying to run my life and then think I am going to nut up.

My issue with my dad is his trying to stand up for her. Wrong is wrong! He is like she has never had a daughter so she doesn't know what is good or bad. Yeah that argument would work if I was five and she did something like forget to pack my new medicine that I just got. I am freaking 29 and that is just not cute at all. She was wrong and she knew she was wrong. I have told her in the past to stop doing that stuff and it isn't like this is the first time.

I am still mad but I did get it off my chest >-(

Random

You guys should be used to randoms by now ;-)

I actually had a topic but who actually remembers what it was.

If you haven't done it lately send someone a love note: a friend, family member, or lover. Make someone feel good! I did that the other day and my friend actually said she cried. I have more notes to send out.

If I haven't told you lately I love you!

I know you are tired of hearing this but I really like Crush. The only difference this time is I am not attempting to do anything about it. He doesn't want me or at least doesn't want to act on wanting me so I keep it moving. I am proud of me.

So my weave is coming out for a few days. I go to the dermatologist and want him to see my dry, itchy scalp. This should be pretty interesting since I haven't had a relaxer in 12 weeks. The longest I have gone without is 10 weeks and I swore I would never do that again.

Let's go Celtics!

Congratulations to Mommy KC! Baby ButterBean made his appearance yesterday morning. I am so happy and your mommy care package has been placed in the mail. I pray nothing breaks. I wrapped it up in paper but the mailman was insistent on me not using my bubble wrap.

So yesterday I almost had a meltdown. My meltdown almost came from my mommy being her overly dramatic self. I had a few health issues earlier this year and I tried to get insurance. They turned me down b/c I didn't have a consistent medical history (since I haven't been to the doctor since grad school). I have been relative healthy these past few years minus an infection or two so I am going to claim that the next couple of years won't be any different. Well she kept harassing me about not being able to get insurance. It is what almost caused my mini meltdown. She asked called me three times about it. Too dang dramatic! I was also upset about my unemployment situation. Let's just say I need to find a job immediately!

Friday is Graduation from dance class! I am so excited!

So today my brea.st were on display. I went to get a pedicure and do you know the lady asked me if I just had a baby. o_O They have gotten larger but dang lady that was so unnecessary.

Next week is Mexico! So excited!

That is all I have today!

Smooches,
Coco, Esq.

Randoms of Coco

Tomorrow is my last day of work. I am so ready for it to be over but I will miss my paycheck.

I will tell you all about the job once it is over. The best word to describe it is unorganized.

Congratulations to Babs! Welcome Baby Foxy!

Part-time came to my bestie's bbq and we all had fun. Bestie likes him as a person.

Crush was there but he left before Part-time got there.

Did I ever tell you all how I don't like Ko.be at all? Yeah I am cheering for the Cel.tics all day every day in this series!

It is getting closer to the wedding and I can't find a swimsuit so I can frolic on the Mexican beach.

My sperm donor is full of isht. I don't think I have told you guys that lately.

Married men need to stay away from me and my friends. I don't give you the idea that I won't you so leave me alone.

I sent Mrs. Count an email asking to be placed on her prayer list. Can I just say she is so sweet! Hey girl! She reminds myself of a younger me when it comes to knowing when she wants something. I think she is a lot more set in her faith than I am. Sleep is one of my vices. The only problem is I can't stay asleep in the morning but I could sleep all through the day.

There are a lot of angels looking out for me. Thank you Lord!

My dress for the wedding is way too big but I think it will be lovely once it is altered.

For Mother's Day we got my granny a new vanity for the bathroom. Well my mom thought we should get new accessories for the bathroom. We went shopping last night around 9. Do you know we didn't get home until after 10 and she already started putting it up. Sit down somewhere woman. Did I mention is was way past her bedtime?

I am enjoying my po.le dancing class. It is great exercise! My belly is tight!

I have about 8 books I am supposed to be reading. I guess I should get started huh?

I have really missed you guys and I think it is time I start giving you more substance.

Smooches,
Coco, Esq.

Worried

You know I am worried about our school systems. I don't have children but I do have a vested interest in the school systems. These systems are educating our future. The more I hear about schools the more concerned I become. Don't know what I can do but I am sure I can help create a solution.

This past Friday really got me up in arms. My mom came home with another one of her wild stories about students at her school and then she got even worse news on Saturday.

On Friday one of her co-workers was accused of dragging a student by the shirt and throwing her into the wall or something along those lines. There were other people in the class when the event allegedly happened. The student told this story and had another student repeat the story. The student then went into stealth mode and called her mom and the mom went straight to the board office.

I am all for protecting your child from teachers that abuse but unfortunately the story was all a lie. The student told this lie but there were at least 6 other witnesses in the room can testify that none of this happened. They are trying to put the incident on the teacher's record even though nothing occurred. There was actually another teacher in the class and 5 other students. The principal didn't even bother to get the teacher's account of the events. He automatically assumed that what was told was what occurred. I understand the principal needs to be there for the students before action is taken all accounts of what happened need to be taken into consideration. The teacher now has to get outside counsel involved because of the actions that occurred.

On Saturday morning my mom found out one of the school teachers left her child in the car all day. The mother was so stressed out about the CR.CT that she left the child in the car. She found the child when she came outside to go home Friday. I can't even imagine the thoughts going through her head. The CR.CT has these teachers wildin' out. If your students don't pass that is your job in some places. I understand the idea but it is more than teaching that gets a student a passing grade on an item. There are so many things that determines a student's success. It seems to me teachers had it easier back during my school days and they had better students and parents. What can one do to get people involved to make it better for our collective future?