Tuesday, August 19, 2008
I need a break!
So I am sitting in my granny's hospital room ready to go insane! My family doesn't communicate and it is crazy. My mother has people shuttling her around instead of driving her own car which mean that at some point during the day my car has to be driven back to my house without me in it. This is all so my spoiled uncle doesn't have to drive his car. Mind you my car has over 220,000 miles on it and is in need of lots of repairs. Can you tell I am frustrated? I need a break! I have to do stuff at home but I can't because I am at the hospital all day! I need to clean and wash but I don't have time to do it. Anybody want to be a granddaughter for a day? I haven't been able to cook a meal in almost a week. I don't want to eat out anymore!
Thursday, August 14, 2008
Long Week
I have a lot to say and hopefully I will remember all of it.
My granny had her surgery on Wednesday. She is doing well. She is supposed to lie on her back. She was not trying to hear that. She had us propping her up to get her on her side. I left the hospital and my mom said she finally decided that she had to lie on her back. They weren't giving her enough pain medication but now she is very rested.
The man called to check on me and to see how many granny was doing. I mean that is what he is supposed to but it still felt good to hear his voice and the concern.
The other man keeps calling me and I really don't like him on that level. He is so sweet and all that but he is too old for me and I am not physically attracted to him. He also lives in another state. I don't want any parts of that. How do I let him down? And why do I keep attracting these men? I am so not in the market and it has nothing to do with man previously mentioned. I really just want to have some me time to figure out what I want.
I am so excited about my back's wedding this weekend. I know she is going to be a beautiful bride and I know that their marriage will be happy. He is definitely the kind of man that you want to take home to your mom. His family adores her and her family adores him. I can't wait to witness this one. I also can't wait b/c this is my last wedding to attend this year. I am a hostess so hopefully I will have pictures to upload for you all.
I am also excited about this weekend b/c I feel almost like an adult. I know that sounds wierd b/c I am 27 but this is the first time I am going somewhere I have never been to and I am renting a car. I never rent cars unless it is absolutely necessary--that means I have only rented a car once.
Once again I have to give a shout out to DollFace. The girl is supportive and loving. If she is your friend take good care of your relationship. She is also hilarious. Thanks for talking to me yesterday and checking on me. I hope everything is ok with your friend.
Ok you all know that my granny had surgery and before the surgery she couldn't eat or drink for 12 hours. She kept talking about how she wanted fried chicken. It was hilarious. My mom told us that a person she knew had the same surgery and they couldn't eat fried foods afterwards. So then my mom decides that she is going to stop eating fried foods. After they take my granny down to the OR I take my mom to get something to eat b/c she stole my car from me. This is literally five minutes after she says she is not going to eat fried foods. We are driving down the street and I ask her what she wants to eat. We see a Church's Chicken and she is like let's go there. I had to make up a word on that one. I told her that she can't have that because that is the most friedest food there is. Yes I said friedest! Needless to say I didn't stop there.
Ok so I forgot some of it but I am sure it will come back to me when I am on the plane trying to get to my destination and no internet.
My granny had her surgery on Wednesday. She is doing well. She is supposed to lie on her back. She was not trying to hear that. She had us propping her up to get her on her side. I left the hospital and my mom said she finally decided that she had to lie on her back. They weren't giving her enough pain medication but now she is very rested.
The man called to check on me and to see how many granny was doing. I mean that is what he is supposed to but it still felt good to hear his voice and the concern.
The other man keeps calling me and I really don't like him on that level. He is so sweet and all that but he is too old for me and I am not physically attracted to him. He also lives in another state. I don't want any parts of that. How do I let him down? And why do I keep attracting these men? I am so not in the market and it has nothing to do with man previously mentioned. I really just want to have some me time to figure out what I want.
I am so excited about my back's wedding this weekend. I know she is going to be a beautiful bride and I know that their marriage will be happy. He is definitely the kind of man that you want to take home to your mom. His family adores her and her family adores him. I can't wait to witness this one. I also can't wait b/c this is my last wedding to attend this year. I am a hostess so hopefully I will have pictures to upload for you all.
I am also excited about this weekend b/c I feel almost like an adult. I know that sounds wierd b/c I am 27 but this is the first time I am going somewhere I have never been to and I am renting a car. I never rent cars unless it is absolutely necessary--that means I have only rented a car once.
Once again I have to give a shout out to DollFace. The girl is supportive and loving. If she is your friend take good care of your relationship. She is also hilarious. Thanks for talking to me yesterday and checking on me. I hope everything is ok with your friend.
Ok you all know that my granny had surgery and before the surgery she couldn't eat or drink for 12 hours. She kept talking about how she wanted fried chicken. It was hilarious. My mom told us that a person she knew had the same surgery and they couldn't eat fried foods afterwards. So then my mom decides that she is going to stop eating fried foods. After they take my granny down to the OR I take my mom to get something to eat b/c she stole my car from me. This is literally five minutes after she says she is not going to eat fried foods. We are driving down the street and I ask her what she wants to eat. We see a Church's Chicken and she is like let's go there. I had to make up a word on that one. I told her that she can't have that because that is the most friedest food there is. Yes I said friedest! Needless to say I didn't stop there.
Ok so I forgot some of it but I am sure it will come back to me when I am on the plane trying to get to my destination and no internet.
Monday, August 11, 2008
Vulnerable
I don't know how to be vulnerable unless you push me up against the wall. I am not going to let you know all the thoughts running through my head. I want to but in the past when I did share I was told that wasn't how I felt. That impacted me greatly. I keep it all bottled up sometimes. I want to let you in. I want you to love me unconditionally. I want you to hold me. I want to be able to cry in your arms or beam at you brightly but I just can't. Honestly it is not your fault but sometimes our situation doesn't help me let it all out. It really is time for me to move on. To let you go. To let me go. I need to let the real Coco out. The Coco that no one really knows. I don't even know this Coco because I hold in too much.
Friday, August 8, 2008
Randomness for 08/08/08
Happy 08/08/08 to all my lovely sorors!
Did you really think I was going to take the bait and have a conversation about that? HAHAHAHA!
Dude I know how you have done your friends in the past so I am dealing with you at arm's length. You probably didn't like what I said but it was the truth. I try to speak the truth regularly but sometimes I slip up and lie. That was not one of those times.
Did she really look like a movie star? I mean she was pretty already. You just didn't realize it.
So am I wrong for wanting to walk myself down the aisle if someone ever proposes? I mean I would love for my mom to do it but then I want her to have her mother of the bride moment. I figure I don't belong to daddy so can he really give me away.
How are you going to tell me how it works in the legal field when it comes to applying for a job. Last I checked you were engineer with no job. Yeah I will definitely take your advice. HAHAHAHA!
Dollface is cool as heck. We don't talk on the phone often but she always come through. I think she knows when I need a little attention and then I have a text message. That is why we are friends. We can give each other space and come around when there is a need. I love you so much! Can't wait to sip margaritas on the beach. Just don't be inviting randoms--there must be approval first. There are some people I expect to join in and then there are others.
If someone ever proposes can I have 50 hostesses or 50 honorary bride's maids? I mean I just don't want to have a big bridal party. I am exaggerating with the 50 but only by about 5 or 10 (just kidding).
Jam, thanks for all the words of encouragement in the past. I have been doing a better job with the bible and I am doing better with my faith. Keep passing on the word and I will do the same.
Did you really think I was going to take the bait and have a conversation about that? HAHAHAHA!
Dude I know how you have done your friends in the past so I am dealing with you at arm's length. You probably didn't like what I said but it was the truth. I try to speak the truth regularly but sometimes I slip up and lie. That was not one of those times.
Did she really look like a movie star? I mean she was pretty already. You just didn't realize it.
So am I wrong for wanting to walk myself down the aisle if someone ever proposes? I mean I would love for my mom to do it but then I want her to have her mother of the bride moment. I figure I don't belong to daddy so can he really give me away.
How are you going to tell me how it works in the legal field when it comes to applying for a job. Last I checked you were engineer with no job. Yeah I will definitely take your advice. HAHAHAHA!
Dollface is cool as heck. We don't talk on the phone often but she always come through. I think she knows when I need a little attention and then I have a text message. That is why we are friends. We can give each other space and come around when there is a need. I love you so much! Can't wait to sip margaritas on the beach. Just don't be inviting randoms--there must be approval first. There are some people I expect to join in and then there are others.
If someone ever proposes can I have 50 hostesses or 50 honorary bride's maids? I mean I just don't want to have a big bridal party. I am exaggerating with the 50 but only by about 5 or 10 (just kidding).
Jam, thanks for all the words of encouragement in the past. I have been doing a better job with the bible and I am doing better with my faith. Keep passing on the word and I will do the same.
Thursday, August 7, 2008
Confession is good for the soul
or so they say!
My confession is I am a shameless flirt! That is why I keep attracting these men. As long as I am in a comfortable environment I will flirt. I will make you think you have a chance. Most of the time I am not comfortable around men I find truly attractive. I am quiet and not my outgoing self. If you have met me and you think I am quiet chances are I was uncomfortable or trying to get my bearings. I absolutely love to be the center of attention so quiet I don't do. If you don't seem threatening I am going to make sure I am the center of attention.
My name is Coco and I am a shameless flirt!
Maybe after thinking about this I will stop doing it and attracting these men. Food for thought?
My confession is I am a shameless flirt! That is why I keep attracting these men. As long as I am in a comfortable environment I will flirt. I will make you think you have a chance. Most of the time I am not comfortable around men I find truly attractive. I am quiet and not my outgoing self. If you have met me and you think I am quiet chances are I was uncomfortable or trying to get my bearings. I absolutely love to be the center of attention so quiet I don't do. If you don't seem threatening I am going to make sure I am the center of attention.
My name is Coco and I am a shameless flirt!
Maybe after thinking about this I will stop doing it and attracting these men. Food for thought?
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
Why Me?
Why do I keep attracting men that I have no interest in like that? I mean they are sweet guys but they honestly don't do anything for me. Can at least one man I am attracted to be attracted to me?
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
So...
this was not supposed to be my first blog after the wedding weekend but it just happened so I had to blog about it.
I just came from grocery shopping with my mother. I set myself up for this one and didn't even know it until we got in the car. I must first say that my mother has never gone grocery shopping by herself since I was a toddler. When we moved back in with my granny my granny did it all. So we get in the car and my mom asked me about how much I think groceries would be. That is when I knew there would be problems. She wanted me to spend $50. Mind you these groceries are to feed 4 adults, one of whom is a 6'4", 230 pound man (give or take a few pounds). Let's just say I brought no vegetables. She picked up 3 apples. Who picks up 3 apples for a house of more than 1? I have meat but no sides. Remind me to never go grocery shopping with my mom. I want sides to my meals--that is meal with an s. I got a side for one meal. Do you know how frustrating that is? Especially since it is supposed to keep my granny from going to the grocery story. Granny Coco along with Coco needs vegetables.
If you want to know exactly how I feel think of Michael and Janet's "Scream" video. That is where I am.
I just came from grocery shopping with my mother. I set myself up for this one and didn't even know it until we got in the car. I must first say that my mother has never gone grocery shopping by herself since I was a toddler. When we moved back in with my granny my granny did it all. So we get in the car and my mom asked me about how much I think groceries would be. That is when I knew there would be problems. She wanted me to spend $50. Mind you these groceries are to feed 4 adults, one of whom is a 6'4", 230 pound man (give or take a few pounds). Let's just say I brought no vegetables. She picked up 3 apples. Who picks up 3 apples for a house of more than 1? I have meat but no sides. Remind me to never go grocery shopping with my mom. I want sides to my meals--that is meal with an s. I got a side for one meal. Do you know how frustrating that is? Especially since it is supposed to keep my granny from going to the grocery story. Granny Coco along with Coco needs vegetables.
If you want to know exactly how I feel think of Michael and Janet's "Scream" video. That is where I am.
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
For real
Ok so Monday my mother and I went out to late lunch/early dinner with another mother and daughter. The mother is my mother's friend from us living in Florida (my dad's linebrother's wife) and the daughter is my friend. We were born a month apart. She is married with a kid and I am the exact opposite. Well anyway we were all talking and they were thinking about the "old" days. We were talking about my godparents. Well I have never never met my godparents. Isn't that some craziness? These are the people who are supposed to take care of me if something happened to my parents and I have never met them. I guess we know who wasn't going to be scooped up by the godparents ever. Well anyway my mother just figured out their first names and is like I can't remember their last names. Can I say they have the most common first names! I guess I will never meet these people.
Vacation
Ok so I am not going on vacation but I thought the title was appropriate. I feel like I am an island. Like there is no one around me most of the time. I feel like there is no one I can give full disclosure to but that is only b/c I am really critical of myself. If I don't like the way it sounds do I really expect someone else to like the way it sounds. Like I will be sitting with a friend wanting to blurt somthing out but I keep it to myself b/c I either don't want someone to think I am stupid or crazy or whatever adjective you want to use. That is something I really miss about my first therapist. I could tell that man anything and he was so supportive even when I just knew it was crazy.
I also think this is a problem for me because I am an only child. I am accustomed to be alone but sometimes I just want to be around people. Nothing can be done about that now b/c Mama Coco is not having any more children and Daddy Coco better not even think about it.
I also think this is a problem for me because I am an only child. I am accustomed to be alone but sometimes I just want to be around people. Nothing can be done about that now b/c Mama Coco is not having any more children and Daddy Coco better not even think about it.
Sunday, July 27, 2008
Craziness
Ok so I need this is like my 15th post today but I had to share this one.
Wednesday I received an email from one of my sorors. She asked me about some girl who claimed to have crossed my undergrad chapter around the time I was at Hampton. The girl said she attempted Hampton from 2001-2004. When she mentioned the girls name I was like all I can say is she isn't my linesister and I don't think she crossed the line after mine. She showed me a picture of the girl and I was like I have never seen her in my life. Well I said let me make sure because I had only been to Hampton twice since I graduated and one time was before Spring '04 crossed and the other time I was drunk most of the time (it was Homecoming and I lost my mind that year--may be why I haven't been back). I contacted my little sister and she was like she isn't my linesister. I then told my little sister what the girl claimed her line name was. The story gets better. The girl is using another girl's line name. But it gets better. She is using the line name of a girl who lives in the same city as her.
That might not seem like a great story but the girl she is pretending to be just moved to her city and joined the grad chapter that is over the chapter that advises the undergrad chapter in that city. She actually went up to one of the people in the grad chapter and pretended she crossed AK.A. She said she hadn't gotten around to joining the undergrad chapter but she wanted to do stuff in the name of the sorority.
My biggest issue is why in the heck are you concerning yourself with sorority business when your behind started undergrad 7 years ago. Even if you were a member of the organization school should be you top priority. She is 26 years old trying to be all up and through undergrad business.
Wednesday I received an email from one of my sorors. She asked me about some girl who claimed to have crossed my undergrad chapter around the time I was at Hampton. The girl said she attempted Hampton from 2001-2004. When she mentioned the girls name I was like all I can say is she isn't my linesister and I don't think she crossed the line after mine. She showed me a picture of the girl and I was like I have never seen her in my life. Well I said let me make sure because I had only been to Hampton twice since I graduated and one time was before Spring '04 crossed and the other time I was drunk most of the time (it was Homecoming and I lost my mind that year--may be why I haven't been back). I contacted my little sister and she was like she isn't my linesister. I then told my little sister what the girl claimed her line name was. The story gets better. The girl is using another girl's line name. But it gets better. She is using the line name of a girl who lives in the same city as her.
That might not seem like a great story but the girl she is pretending to be just moved to her city and joined the grad chapter that is over the chapter that advises the undergrad chapter in that city. She actually went up to one of the people in the grad chapter and pretended she crossed AK.A. She said she hadn't gotten around to joining the undergrad chapter but she wanted to do stuff in the name of the sorority.
My biggest issue is why in the heck are you concerning yourself with sorority business when your behind started undergrad 7 years ago. Even if you were a member of the organization school should be you top priority. She is 26 years old trying to be all up and through undergrad business.
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