Sunday, November 30, 2008

Praise the Lord!

I have no complaints b/c I knew it could have been much worse. I was looking for detergent to wash my clothes and I looked everywhere. I decided to go to Target since I couldn't find it at any of the stores around here. I drove back from Target and was minding my own business. I was about 5 minutes from my house and a dog came out of nowhere. I hit the dog and it bounced into my windshield and then went flying to other side of the road. My airbags deployed. Through this all I was not hurt or burned by the airbags. That was nothing but the Lord I tell you! The smoke got me a little but a nice person eventually drove by to check on me and went and got me some water. All I can do is praise the Lord! I refuse to make any complaints b/c I knew it could have been worse. My car is 11 years old so I know I am blessed. I could go on but I won't. Just know that I know I am blessed!

Here is the windshield:

Here is the front:

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Happy Thanksgiving!

Happy Thanksgiving to you all!

I hope you are enjoying your day and know that you all have something to be thankful for! I am truly thankful for my family and friends. I am thankful for all that I have (big and small)!


Monday, November 24, 2008

The Dirty Old Man

Ok before I tell you the story let me just say I set myself up for this and I know that.

Well about six months ago I signed up to work with Prim.erica and I have to get my insurance license. My plan was to take the insurance class on the internet but I just couldn't do it. I couldn't sit at my computer for 40 hours and actually take the quizzes after every unit. I could do the class but just not 40 hours. So I had my trainer sign me up for the class where I would be forced to sit there for the 40 hours--one of my biggest mistakes lately!

The class was the last two weekends. The instructor was a seemingly nice older gentleman and he was the only other black person there. I decided the first weekend that I was going to Rub.y's for lunch and he asked could he meet me there. Cool--you know I pay for my food and you pay for yours. Well we talked during lunch about nothing of importance at least to me. I remember he asked me if I was dating but I didn't think anything of it. He later asked me what were good places to eat in the area (he was from a different part of the state) and I told him about a Japanese place. So I thought he would have gone later that night. Well the next day I saw him he said he didn't get a chance to go but he would go the next weekend and then asked if I wanted to go. I said sure once again not thinking anything of it and not minding another free meal. I learned my lesson no meal is ever free.

So the second weekend rolls around and I go to class Friday night. He says something to me about my nice shape and it made me a little uncomfortable but I thought nothing of it. The next day we go to the Japanese restaurant. We are talking even though I feel a little uncomfortable. He asked me what was the oldest person you have ever dated. I was thinking what the hell. I told him six years. So then he was like hypothetically speaking would you go out with a man who just wanted to take you out for lunch on occasion. I was like that is cool. Then he throws himself into the equation. Can you say nasty? Earlier in the day he told our class that he graduated from high school in 1969. He is older than my parents. This man is 30 years older than me. His youngest child is older than me. Can you say nasty?

The other issue I had with him was he knew it was wrong. If anyone knows me they know that I talk about my family all the time and I especially talk about my mommy and granny. Well anyway I was talking about my mommy and she called me while I was at dinner. At some point during the dinner this man told me that I can't tell my mom about him liking me. He also kept talking about whether or not I thought anything was wrong with us going to dinner. I didn't think anything was wrong until I realized he was a nasty old man.

I was just happy that yesterday was the last day I had to see him. I mean what could we possibly have in common. He has 3 children and 5 grandkids and I have no children. He has retired from his job and I have yet to have my first permanent job. I mean we are just at different points in our lives. I want to get married and have kids. I can't do that with him and even if I could I wouldn't do it b/c it is just nasty.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Tell 'Em How You Feel Thursday

I am feeling some kind of way about a couple of things. My brain is all jumbled up. I can't even think about all the stuff I am thinking about.

So I read Midnight last week. I am returning the book. It cannot be a part of my collection. It served a purpose but d*mn that.

I asked a dumb question today. I feel so stupid.

I miss my honey. I miss him when I am bored. That is so sad. I have also been craving attention lately.

Yesterday I went to my great uncle's funeral. It was interesting. Yesterday it was probably in the 40s. Why did I see someone with capris on? I met my aunts for the first time yesterday. Yes I am 27 years old and have never met my mother's sisters. I actually sat next to one at the funeral.

I thank the Lord that my mom had a job and insurance that covered me. I saw so many jacked up teeth yesterday. I mean missing teeth and rotten teeth--just nasty.

I am also glad that my mother is shaped like her mother's family. If not she would be a big woman. All the women in the family are big and most of them are tall. I took after my mom so I got lucky as well. Most of the women in my dad's family are short and big.

Midori suggested a book to me. It was wonderful. I feel more prepared for the whole finding a job process.

I just want to scream sometimes.

I found my future home and now I just need a job to pay the mortgage.

I have insurance class this weekend. My instructor is taking me to get hibachi Saturday night. I hope he doesn't want me b/c I am just going along for free food (his suggestion not mine).

Ok so most of the people who know me know that I am not the nicest person (I have never been one to fake it) so why can't I be mean to this guy that likes me? I don't like him at all.

There is this nice guy who seems to like me but I don't like him like that b/c he is out there. I mean I know people have pasts but I just can't get down with him like that.

One day in the near future I am going to write a post about one thing but right now I am not there.

Monday, November 17, 2008

Just Haven't Been Feeling It

Lately I haven't been feeling the whole blogging thing which is why I haven't posted. I have thoughts but I just haven't wanted to share them with anyone. Well I think I am back now. My goal is to do better by my loyal readers--you know all 3 of you.

After that statement I have to wonder why people don't get my sarcasm. Anyone who knows me knows that I am queen of sarcasm. But there are some people who just don't get it. If it didn't sound right chances are I was being sarcastic.

I want to know why you tell me stuff and then a couple of days later everything is perfect. I don't know how to approach that situation any more. I am about to start pulling the "oh, ok" on you.

I don't think I will be in D.C. for the inaguaration. Just not in my budget and I can't do all those people.

I am studying to get my insurance license. That should be interesting.

Oh yeah my boo (not really) from college is in a relationship according to bacefook. I was so crushed when I saw that today. I mean we don't even communicate but I still had hopes. (I don't know why since he never even responded to my message.) That is what happens when a guy acts like a complete gentleman--you think about him years later.

Yeah right now I have nothing. Sorry to disappoint.

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Random Thoughts

I miss my best friend and I miss my best friend runner up. I think within a couple of months of each other I lost them both. I mean obviously we weren't compatible. My best friend was a habitual liar and I knew it but I ignored it. The runner up was overly sensitive. If I told you what we had a falling out about you would tell me to move on. Either way I miss the friendships we had (at least what I thought we had). I did try to reconnect with the runner up but to no avail. I will never try to contact the other one. That relationship was truly unhealthy.

I haven't blogged since before Barack Obama became President-Elect. I just couldn't put my feelings into words and I am still struggling with those words. I am grateful that the other side will n ot be in the White House but that is all I can put in words.

I learned a lot from you just by listening. You probably don't know it now but I have learned. I am keeping my mouth shut on whole lot more than I used to. Partially from what I learned and partially from the fact you didn't listen anyway. I am doing it to save my sanity and our friendship.

I have to admit that I watch Desperate Housewives. This admission comes from the fact that I was watching the show and they were showing the Pole Party. The chick in the pink boots taught the one pole dancing class I took.

Monday, November 3, 2008

Thoughts Running Through My Head

Ok there is so much going on in my head and I am about to lose my mind.

I wanted to cry a little while ago. The older I get the worse PMS gets. I need to have a baby or something to make this worthwhile. I was sad about nothing but I just wanted to cry.

I talked to him today and I just wanted to be through. I don't even know how to explain that one. I am so not feeling men right now. I feel asexual.

Why do these men who like me not get the memo? I actually told one dude I wasn't feeling him like that and he just keeps randomly popping up. Dude I am not going to change my mind. One reason I won't change my mind is you are the most inconsistent negro I know. Yeah like I need one more of those in my life.

Ok so tomorrow is the day that history will be made. I am taking part in this election. I haven't volunteered for an election since undergrad when my major professors forced us to do so. I enjoyed the work but it is so irritating to be surrounded by uninformed individuals.

Speaking of which why was I hanging out with some people who just found out about Obama. You know his history and all that. I was just so disturbed that this is the man you plan on voting for and you know nothing about him. Then you are an educator and you don't know his plan on education. Your paycheck depends on the education system and you are asking two days before the education what the candidate's stance on education. There is so much information out there and you just can't look it up.

Barack's granny died. I can almost feel his pain and the reason why I say almost is b/c his granny helped raise him. My granny that just died was the not so close granny. That is another story when I can just let loose. I loved her though. It is just me and Granny G have this bond that is so crazy. Like I know when something isn't right with her before others. We are seriously two peas in a pod. We should be our birthdays are 7 days apart. But this was supposed to be about Barack. I just can't imagine how bittersweet tomorrow will be. I am going to claim this victory for the man.

I have been very apprehensive about tomorrow b/c I know that something fishy could happen.