Monday, December 31, 2007

December 31, 2007

It's the end of the year and I have so much to say but don't know how to say it all. I know that I want to say thank you to all my friends who have been there for me this past year. I love you all and I thank God that he has shown me who my true friends are. I know we don't talk often but I think about you all the time and pray for you all the time. Thank you for being my sounding board but comment some more.

New Year's Resolutions
Do I really need any this year? If I did have resolutions they would go something like this:
1. Be nicer.
2. Be calmer.
3. Exercise regularly.
4. Give back more to the community.
5. Let go of the negative people (yes I am talking about you--if you feel guilty after reading this statement then yes it is about you).
6. Leave home for good
7. Help my granny financially.
8. Become debt free (credit card wise).
9. Please myself more!

Saturday, December 29, 2007

I'm Sleepy

As I type this I am yawning but I felt the need to write:

I got some more Christmas presents yesterday--money and a portable GPS-excitement!

Me and him reconciled or something of the sort. He came to visit me and met my family. My mother tried to get him to help my uncle find a job. I had to shut that one down b/c we know that man will complain about a job someway, somehow. We had fun! As long as he has known me he didn't know I had a bad temper (I really think he was ignoring me or something b/c everybody else knows I have a bad temper). We played Scattergories (sp?) and watched the last Bourne movie. There was too much hype about that movie. I sat there waiting for the next scene to happen. It was ok but definitely not as great as the first two.

I must go to sleep before I fall over onto the computer keyboard but I will be back!

Smooches

Wednesday, December 26, 2007

It's Been a Long Time

I'm BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACK! Sorry I disappeared but there is so much going on in this 3 bedroom house with 4 occupants. I have to find a job soon before I do something that is not good for my career or freedom for that matter. So I will catch you up on what is going on:

My new furniture is now in my possession--too bad I don't have anywhere to put it. Right now it is occupying the extra room in my cousin's apartment. Sidestory: My mom mentioned the furniture while she was talking to my dad and he started talking psycho stuff. Why does she need new furniture and why would you buy furniture when you don't know what color the carpet will be? Ok so who really decorates around the color of the carpet in an apartment (at least when it comes to the furniture)? By the way I don't need new furniture but I know when I move where ever I am going next I want a queen size bed and I find some really nice furniture for a really nice price--I basically paid for the bed and got the dresser, mirror and nightstand for free.

My Christmas was uneventful--I loved that. I ate with the family and then I went to my cousin's house and ate at her house. Then I visited my other cousin and just hung out. My mommy gave me a purse, two shirts, a sweater, a giftcard and half of my plane ticket for the Blackout (excited). My uncle gave me a giftcard which will help me get my eyes exam b/c someone threw away my last pair of contacts--didn't plan on going to the eye doctor until February or March (one doctor at a time).

I received a text message from my younger cousin telling me that I could bring my laptop to her house so that I can setup her iPod. Now you know my thinking--haha not really going to happen. I don't put my music on my laptop b/c I am trying to save as much memory as possible. Second of all no one asked me to use my laptop. Third of all if you don't have internet access at your house how do you think I have internet access at your house? So she has an iPod that she can't even use.

What are my New Year's Resolutions? I have been doing some thinking but I haven't really decided. I know I want to be more health conscious and nicer but who knows?

I think I am going to see The Great Debaters sometime this week.

Last Saturday I got dolled up to go to my mother's graduate chapter's Debutante Pageant/Ball. I was a part of the Debutante Reflections. I got paired up with the cutest little Debs in Waiting. They were twins and just beautiful. The kind of little girls you want to play with all day. I regret that I left my camera at home so I have no pictures.

I am ready for the New Year!

If you don't hear from me b/t now and the New Year--Have a Happy and Safe New Year's Eve! Thoroughly enjoy you New Year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

There is something....

There is something about my dad and his girlfriend that disturbs me. I know that I am old enough and intelligent enough to let my anomosity go but I am having difficulty doing it. Honestly I don't dislike her or anything. I think their relationship just really disturbs me. They put on this big happy front when deep down inside I know they don't really like each other. They are just stuck together. Kind of like your favorite old pair of jeans that don't fit you properly and are so out of style but you are so attached to them. I got a Christmas card from "stepmom" and she signed it "Daddy and Stepmom (her name)" and I just threw up in my mouth a little. Please pray for me! No seriously!

I talked to my dad yesterday and he asked me if I had a leather coat. I said no. He then asked me what happened to the one he bought me a long time ago. My response was you never bought me a leather coat. His response was yes I did. To which I said no you didn't but I really wanted to scream at the top of my lungs stop getting me confused with stepmom and stepsister. He really irritates the crap out of me. I love him but I am just not his biggest fan.

It is amazing how I once was a daddy's girl and now you would never know it. I just got tired of all the disappointments.

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

I Knew It!

I knew I got too excited about my flat screen t.v. Every time he gets my hopes up he lets me down.

Monday, December 17, 2007

Anybody Need a Roommate?

Help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Get me outta here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My uncle appears to have moved back home. I just want you all to know that I live in a three bedroom house and there are now four occupants. So back to my question--anybody need a roommate? I am so about to move in with my "stepsister". We may talk to each other once in a blue moon but I cannot handle this. Also he takes over my room when my mom is home--I hate ESPN unless I want to know a score. Help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! If you don't want a roommate do you know anybody who needs to hire an attorney full-time?

Sunday, December 16, 2007

I am Growing

Half the people you’re mad at don’t know and the other half don’t care!

Awhile ago these words would have meant nothing to me but today they do. I am no longer wasting my time being mad at people. Me being mad only hurts me. I actually talked to someone via the internet tonight that I would not have talked to. I will admit that my being nosey got me to talk to them but the point is I did talk to them. Even though I am going with this new outlook on my anger there are some people who I just don't like--has nothing to do with me being mad. It actually is they showed me who they were and I am choosing to believe all that they showed me. With that being said I deleted some numbers from my phone last week. Real estate in my phone is prime and I can't allow everybody to be living there (its a nice gated community). There are certain people who remain there b/c I don't know their numbers and I want to be assured that I won't answer their phone calls. So if you have showed your ass in the past couple of months then your number was deleted.

What's Going On?

I am so ready to leave this house--love the family but their antics drive me crazy.

My uncle brought his girls down for the weekend--I don't know what their mom is doing but whatever it is, it is not good. I know when my mom packed my over night bag to visit anybody she checked the weather. Living in GA you have to check the weather. Last week it was in the 70s and 80s but like I said we are in GA and the weather can change in a matter of minutes. Ex-wife sends one daughter here with no coat and the other one with a jacket. Friday it was in the 70s and yesterday it was in the 50s. Today it is in the 40s. She didn't send them down here with proper shoes either. My little cousin is wearing capris and a short sleeve shirt b/c that is what her mother packed for her. WTF???????????????????

One of these cousins is so damn sensitive--it drives me crazy. I called her nosey and this heffa started crying. If she didn't do anything then I could understand her being upset but this child is hella nosey. She stopped eating her breakfast to go find out what everybody was trying to do in the back of the house. How nosey can you get? She can repeat conversations that go on in other rooms. She is definitely not one of my favorite little children.

I got my Blackout II dress. Pretty cute but I need a backup. I bought a purse also but it will be returned. It look so much cuter on the net.

The writers are going to ruin my 2008--I don't go out--I watch TV!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am trying to figure out what I am doing for NYE--any suggestions?

Friday, December 14, 2007

Am I Wrong?

Am I wrong to be against internet dating? Or what I call internet hollering? I have been on BlackPlanet for forever and I changed my page recently--put up a few cute pics (can't help that they are cute b/c I am cute). Anyway random guys are like I like what I see. I am interested in you. Can you at least say we have something in common? Chances are we don't so leave me alone.

Thursday, December 13, 2007

Update

I talked to the ex. He is willing to be a little more honest but who knows. I am treading lightly on that one and not going to visit him.

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Running Through My Mind

There are 3 men running through my mind! I am feeling each of them in a different way. I know I can have one but he just isn't good for me. Then there is another that I just can't get to. The last one is just too young--he is still trying to live his life and that doesn't include being in a monogamous relationship. It is driving me crazy! I want to call the one who isn't good for me. We have a lot of things that were left unsaid. I am just in one of those places that I can't explain and it drives me crazy. I think I would be ok if I just had something I could devote my time to.

On to happier notes--I have a Make-A-Wish child! My initial meeting is this weekend.

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Gotta Get My Thoughts Out

When are those damn writers and executives going to come to an agreement? Don't they know that my life centers around certain T.V. shows?

So I found the address of this guy I dated in undergrad--should I send him a Christmas card and try to reconnect. I don't know what happened b/t us. Nothing bad--we just lost touch. I really liked him--I considered him the best date I have been on. I think that b/c it was heartfelt and thoughtful. I just don't know how to explain him but I will say he put a smile on my face. Just thinking about him puts a smile on my face :)

My dad is a habitual liar and so is my ex best friend. Where do I find these people? LOL

I love Pandora.

I ordered my dress for the Blackout II. We will see how much I like it when it arrives.

The Job Front

So I finally received "my" rejection letter for the job that I really wanted. My is in quotations b/c the envelope had my name on it but the letter was clearly addressed to someone else. I tell you in the legal profession sometimes professionalism is lacking at least with the the people I have had to deal with.

My mother is driving me crazy b/c she keeps sneaking her opinion into conversations. Oh I think you would be a great litigator or so and so said you should litigate. I know my personality the best and I don't do well when it comes to presenting to people which is a big part of litigating. Yesterday she calls me and tells me that she talked to her friend and he said that I should apply to be an asst. district atty. He says that is the best way for me to get experience and that ada don't do any of the courtroom stuff. I proceed to tell her that I don't want that job b/c it is litigation. Then she says well maybe he knows something you don't. Of course that pisses me off. The other issue I have with his advice is that I did apply for a job in the Solicitor's office which is the person who prosecutes misdemeanors and I got turned down--I didn't mean to apply but I did apply(I gave a friend my cover letter and resume and they passed it along without telling me who they gave it to). I got turned down for that job (it sucks to get rejected from a job you didn't even know you applied to). I have friends who have experience in prosecution and they can't even get interviews and I have no experience or interest in prosecution so why would I apply for the job. When I say this my mother says I have an attitude.
The problem with my mother is when I give her facts to go against some random person's opinion I have an attitude. She doesn't like to be wrong so I have to have an attitude when she is wrong. I want a job and I know I will have one but I have to get it in my own way. I realize that my mother wants to run my life and I have known this for a long time. It drives me crazy. She thinks that I am supposed to fall back but you know me--not my style.

I hope this makes sense b/c I don't feel like proofreading or anything. Enjoy my craziness!

Monday, December 10, 2007

Saturday, December 1, 2007

Taking a Break

I am taking a break for a few days--going out of town and what not. Enjoy your weekend.

Stacie--I understand what you are saying but I actually saw the story at least a week before you heard about it. I guess they show all the black stories during the day when poeple are at work and since I don't have a job I saw it.

Friday, November 30, 2007

Why?

Since this is the last post of National blah blah blah Month (that is how I have felt the last couple of days) I thought I would end it with a couple of questions:

Why do I let the same trifling people get to me? I know they aren't going to change but would they leave me alone?

Why do I get mad when people drive slow in front of me but when I am driving slow in front of someone I get mad when they ride my tail? (I actually can answer the question this time--the people who drive slow in front of me are driving too slow to be on the damn road and me on the other hand I am driving above the speed limit almost to the point of a reckless driving ticket and then someone rolls up behind me going too damn fast.)

Why do I procrastinate on the important things?

Why do I know that any chance of me getting my flat screen t.v. went down the drain this week?

Why would I want to be with you if I am still just a movement when we are together? Can we be a force?

Why the hell won't that boy leave me alone? He thought he was important enough for me to be mad at him. About what I don't know--I was just asked if I was mad. Dude my thoughts of you consist of the time I blog about it and the random Facebook messages you send me.

Why do I hold a grudge for so long? It can't be too healthy now can it?

Why is all my stress in my right shoulder?

Why am I afraid to be an adult?

Why do we spoil black boys and act surprised when they become bad black men?

Why are people always saying that the media doesn't talk about things that happen to black people but when the same thing happens to white people there is media attention? I ask this b/c I must be the only person watching the news. I saw the story about the black girl's body being found right after they found it and I don't live in Mississippi (sorry I can't remember her name but may she rest in peace). Not saying that the media is great but not all "black" stories are left out of the news.

Will my shoulder ever stop hurting?

Why am I mad that X-Factor made her blog for invited readers only?

Thanks for reading my daily posts--I only missed one day!

Thursday, November 29, 2007

What Should I Do?

O Phi O XI is have a reunion weekend and I am just wondering should I be over the top or what. Give me some suggestions for the Black Out!!! I found a cute dress and the girls would really be on display--does that sound like too much? It has been so long since I went to a nice event. What are you guys doing for the Black Out? I don't want you to tell me exactly what you are wearing but give me an idea, please with a cherry on top.

Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Do You Find It Weird...

when an older man tries to holla especially when you look much younger than you really are and he definitely looks his age and then some? This kind of disturbs me b/c if you know me you know that on a good day I look 18 and on a bad day 16. What does that say about the old men who try to holla? Are they closet pedophiles or do they think I am young and dumb?

I'm A Movement By Myself...

But can I say we are a force when we are together? I have been doing a lot of thinking about relationships lately. My new take on relationships is quoting Fabolous (I know crazy right). The man got me to thinking. I ask myself and any new man why would I want to be in a relationship if I am still just a movement?

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Ten Best Games

1. Taboo
2. Freeze Tag (yes I took it back b/c I miss the fun of my childhood)
3. Mah Jong Tiles
4. Checkers
5. Hide and Seek (look at the parenthetical on 2)
6. Soduku
7. Football
8. Volleyball
9. The Kissing Game ;)
10. Any Drinking Game ;)

Monday, November 26, 2007

I Remember

So I had planned to tell a story on the blog or at least share something but I couldn't remember what it was. But now I remember!

Saturday night I was sitting at home flipping through the channels and something told me to stop on Cheaters. Can you say craziness. Of course you know someone was cheating on someone (no surprise there right). So the man was trying to talk to his woman to tell her that he loved her and he was so sorry. Mind you the other woman is like I am ready to go b/c she came to the secret place with him in his car. He told her to go back to the car and she was pissed. They were outside and there were little torches. The other woman decided to pick up one of the torches and hit the host in the back with it. She burned his neck. Then she jumped in the boyfriend's car and drove away. Can you say gangsta?! You dumb chick not only did you assault someone you stole the car all while being on camera. Do you know the host was more concerned about the couple than he was about himself? All I can say is sad and hilarious at the same time.

So I have a nice little dent in my driver's side back door. My mom came home and told me the story of what happened. This chick is on her cell phone and just pulls out and hits my mom. She got out saying she didn't see my mom (meaning she was so involved in her conversation). Then her brother gets out of the car and says look at Daddy's Cadillac. WTF? Dude your sister could have hurt someone and you are concerned about the car.

So my mom finally told me about the other end of the conversation (my dad's side). This negro had the nerve to say you can't buy me any pecans after I helped your brother get a job. Hot mess! Why does she do it to herself?

Sunday, November 25, 2007

Running Out of Things to Blog About

Yeah so I am running out of things to blog about. You know I blog on the fly but nothing has come to me.

My mother had an accident in my car today. She is ok but car will need repairs. I was glad she wasn't hurt and my car wasn't jacked up b/c you know I cannot afford a new car right now!

I won't be going to see the youngin in Atlanta b/c he will only be there for five seconds and gas costs too much and I am tired. This holiday wore me out.

I need to make a list of my needs for the next couple of weeks so I can get through the holidays. If Christmas is like Thanksgiving then I will be dead to the world by New Years.

Saturday, November 24, 2007

Happy Day After the Day

My Thanksgiving was great! I missed my mommy but I still enjoyed myself. I got to bond with dad's girlfriend's daughter. Her in-laws are a special set! They were almost just damn rude but didn't quite cross the line. The grandmother has trouble walking so she had to be helped into the house. Well the men in my family and her grandson helped her in. Mother-in-law tried to get crunk with someone b/c grandmother wouldn't let go of his hand when she made it into the house. He couldn't make her let go and not appear rude so he held on. So then she fussed at grandmother. I just politely sat down and moved on. Sister-in-law comes in with a look on her face that I really can't describe (I really wanted to say, "Ho fix your face!"). So I was introduced to everyone and had a smile on my face that I flashed to everyone. Well sister-in-law took that smile off my face! She just sat in a chair and started reading a paper or something like she was a school teacher.

I later found out that she is going through a divorce and a illness but at least return a smile or get some therapy (black people do get therapy). So the in-laws live about 20 minutes from my stepsister and they have never been to her house to visit their grandson (he is almost 3 years old).

So this Thanksgiving I figured out that I actually like my dad's girlfriend and her daughter. The issues that I had with them was really caused by daddy dearest. I figure he likes drama and he feeds my dislike. I keep forgetting that he is a habitual liar.

Anyway the day after Thanksgiving I came home. Friday was tiring which is why I didn't post yesterday. I had to come home from Roswell and drive my mother to her part-time job. She fails to realize that this situation is only convenient for her. I was tired and had a headache. I didn't get home until after she was supposed to be at work. She even fussed at me for not putting gas in her car. I still don't understand how I was supposed to do that since I was rushing home to pick her up. I eventually made it home and ate. Then I took a nap. After my nap I took my cousin to the movies. I love her--she was my worst enemy when I was younger. She is so much like me that it is crazy. She even makes the same faces I make when I am irritated. She is a social butterfly.

This Christmass was a good movie and I just want to say there was no bad acting. I think there was no bad acting b/c there were so many family members' stories to go through so they weren't on the screen for long periods of time. I will say that I was too fond of Laz Alonzo-he just didn't fit to me. Go check it out.

I hope you got to enjoy your families at this special time!

Thursday, November 22, 2007

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

My Plan Failed

So my plan failed--I had to get loud today, oh well, I tried.

Anyway today is my brother's birthday! Happy Birthday, Sr.!

My dad is psycho! I mean this seriously. Ok my mom and dad separated when I was 1 1/2. He has been with his current girlfriend since 1987 or 1988 (yes I said girlfriend). They have lived together the whole time that I have known her but no wedding ring (this is the reason why I will never shack but that is just me). Well you would think that my mother's personal life is her business and if you thought that you would be thinking wrong or at least that is what my dad thinks. So my mom and I went out with some of her friends for lunch (they do this every month and since I came back home I go too). Her and my dad talk all the time and she mentioned that she went to lunch but she didn't mention with who. No big deal right? Wrong! My dad was like you must be seeing someone. Me thinking why the f*ck do you care? She wouldn't tell him and you think that would be the end of the story but he actually called back and tried to have another conversation about it. I wish I could replay the conversation for you all but I don't even remember all of it. He has some serious issues!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I also blame my mother for even entertaining him and his craziness. He has a woman that he lives with so he needs to concern himself with what she does.

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

100

Today is my 100th post and I wanted to have some structure to my post but so much has happened since last night (ok not a whole lot but enough for me to want to write about more than one thing).

First let's talk about the craziness--I don't know how long this portion of the post will be up but I gotta tell somebody and why not tell my faithful readers (most of you I don't know about b/c you fail to comment). A girl I went to law school with was fired from her job yesterday. Mind you she passed the bar so she is a licensed to practice. This also means that she passed the Ethics test that you have to take to become a member of most bars. So she got fired b/c she was messing with one of her clients. She was using her privileges as an attorney to go to the jail and see this man. She got caught up and there was no getting out of it. When she was caught at the jail visiting him she tried to lie about her identity. She was putting money on his books. Well she got banned from the jail and after that she was fired. She barely has a license and it could get taken away because she was messing with some man. And from what I heard of the story they hadn't even had sex. She totally f*cked up her livelihood!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Second, I got an email from the youngin. He tells me that he is coming to Atlanta and wants to hang out. Is he trying to mess up my celibacy? The only reason why we haven't slept together is because I was trying to be a good girl and he lives in New York. He is hard to resist. I have known him for almost two years and we are so compatible. We can talk about anything even his women issues and my men issues. What is a girl to do? Also I have to go see him to collect my graduation present. What is a girl to do?

I am going to my dad's house for Thanksgiving and he wants me to spend the night. Can you say I don't want to? I barely want to go for Thanksgiving but I am trying to do better. What is a girl to do? I am not ready to put on my grown woman panties.

I am thankful for my family and friends! I love you guys!

Monday, November 19, 2007

Just For Stacie

Oh Stacie, you are such the devil's advocate and I understand the distance but this man needs to pay his back child support and start paying his own car payment among other things. At least get a week's worth of a check.

To All: Tomorrow will be my 100th post! Don't know what I will write about but I am sure it will be a good one. I may even wrack my brain for this one.

My Plan for the Week

So my plan for this week is to not be mean. It is said that I have to plan this but I know me better than anyone else so I have to plan these things. I am proud to say I have only raised my voice at someone once and that happened today. Had the person I was talking to listened to what I said at first then I wouldn't have had to raise my voice so I blame her. Anyway for me that is really good.

So my dad got my uncle (mom's brother) a job and he started working on Friday. Why did this fool decide that today was going to be his last day? I am tired of hearing about my uncle's antics. Of course he got fussed at for a minute and then my grandmother remembered that he was her baby and she stopped fussing. I just sat there b/c like I said I am not raising my voice this week. All I have to say is he better be glad I am not going to be here for Thanksgiving and I am being quiet this week. He quit the job b/c of the commute--he didn't have any money for gas. So quitting the job is going to get him what kind of money. My only statement about it was you (mom and grandmom) need to stop helping him. I could go on but I won't.

Sunday, November 18, 2007

I am So HOOOOOOT!

As in angry hoooooooot! So Oprah was allegedly going around the country touring the heartland or something of the sort and she decided that Macon, GA would be her first stop. I live about 20 miles from Macon. Something told me to try to get a ticket but I was like I am not that big of an Oprah fan. Damn me!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just happened to be watching the news last night and Oprah decided that her show in Macon would be her "Favorite Things" show. Can you say I was cursing myself out in my head and using words as close to curse words in my house with mommy and granny. Now you understand why I am so angry. I would have been ok if I had tried to get a ticket and just came up short. I didn't even try. The show airs on Tuesday and I think I saw a girl who lives down the street from me in the audience. I guess I will find out on Tuesday.

Saturday, November 17, 2007

What I Am Thinking

So yesterday I had a conversation with my mom and I realize why it is difficult for me to find a job. Truthfully and honestly in the legal field if you don't have the grades it is all about who you know. Law school was the first time I didn't have a nice average. I have always been in the top 10 percent when it came to school and law school just wasn't like that but moving on. I know people but I don't know attorneys. Everybody tells me that I should talk to so and so and I don't ask people for help very easily or at least when I don't know those people. I must know you and trust that you have my best interest at heart when I ask you for help if I decide to ask you for help. Well to get a job I have to step out of that. The problem is when I did ask someone for help they sh*tted on me. Any way I will work it out someway somehow.

Friday, November 16, 2007

One Man, Too Many Tears

I have been talking to one of my friends lately about relationships, mainly because she is older and wiser. I listen but I also take into consideration that I have to make my own decisions. She also talks to me about her man issues. I listen and try not to be judgmental of the man. We all know how we have this intuition that tells us that a friend's man isn't any good but we may not say anything because she has to find out on her own and we don't want to sound like a broken record. This is all to say that when she talked about her boyfriend/significant other it just didn't sound right to me.

We had a conversation a few weeks ago and she told me how she has never met his family. She also said that she has never been to church with him, that wouldn't be that bad if he wasn't the pastor of a church. During their relationship it took her seven months to make it to his house. She eventually told me that she knew a few friends and one of his brothers. These were all signs.

The other day I received an email from her as to why she hasn't contacted anybody lately. She hadn't seen him in a couple of weeks because she decided that they needed space and they needed to work through some things if they were to continue in the relationship. They talked to each other by phone the other day. When she talked to him she said she didn't care one way or the other if they were going to be together. During this heated conversation he proposed. She accepted but said it wouldn't be official until she received her ring.

Well after the conversation she talked to one of her friends and they thought about all the stuff he had said to her. These conversations led her to call his family. She called his father's church and spoke with the church administrator. The lady proceeded to tell her that he was not a doctor as he said he was and he had gotten married three months before. Later his stepmother called and talked to her. The stepmother told her how he has told many lies and has even been locked up for impersonating people.

This is all to say that I saw that something was wrong in the relationship but would have never guessed that the situation was that deep. I can only imagine how she must feel. This does tell me that if something doesn't feel right let it go. Don't hold on to something that doesn't need to be held on to.

Thursday, November 15, 2007

My Mom

Ok so first of all I would have posted yesterday but I was tired. Those real estate closing people have me running ragged.

Ok so back to today's post:
My mom is crazy (love her to death). Last night she finally got her flash drive back that she let her friend borrow months ago. Well she wanted me to put her dissertation on it. She walks into my room and says delete everything from the flashdrive and put my dissertation on this. That sounds simple but I don't have her dissertation.
She is convinced that her dissertation is on my computer b/c I emailed it to her professor the other night. The dissertation is on her computer. She was arguing with me that it was on my computer under "my documents". We have this argument every couple of weeks about how my computer and her computer are not connected. I have to argue her down about it. She really accused me of lying last night. Not exactly one of those things I would lie about if I felt the need to lie.
She drives me crazy but I love her so much!

To all my friends that I sent the email to thank you so much for your response. It is wonderful to know that you guys have my back in this hard time (being jobless and wanting to work). One of you even brought me to tears but they were happy tears.

Tomorrow's post will be about trifling men and for once not mine since I have been single for two months :)

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Obligatory Post

Ok so I had to post something today--here it is! I will feel like sharing tomorrow!

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Rambling Again

So I got rejected for one of the jobs I interviewed for a few weeks ago. I haven't cried about that but I have cried. Why is everybody else getting a job when I can't get one? I just want to be self-sufficient. I am not asking for a six-figure salary yet. Just enough to live off of and save for that house I always wanted.

My mother wants to rub in the fact that I had a job offer that I didn't take. She just doesn't get that first of all I would have been unhappy and second of all I would have been asking her for money. I would have been making $3000 before taxes. After taxes and all the other crap they take out I would have been making maybe $2100. I couldn't live at home b/c the drive is too long to make on a daily basis which means that I would have to rent an apartment. I could go on but to make a long story short I would have needed my mom to pay some of my bills and there was no way I could pay for a new car which I do need.

J won't leave me alone. I just want him to understand that we aren't on that level where we have to talk on a regular basis. How do I say that without being mean? I want to just yell and curse about it but I don't think that will work out well.

Monday, November 12, 2007

Irritation

People irritate me. I would say more but that would require me to care enough to write right now.

Sunday, November 11, 2007

Where Are You?

Where is my friend? I am patiently waiting for a visit but I don't know if that is going to happen.

Saturday, November 10, 2007

Saturday Thoughts

This morning I was watching HGTV (one of my addictions) and I saw this boy I went to college with. He and his wife were getting a basement makeover. I was slightly envious b/c someone I graduated with is married. He and his wife looked so cute together. He also has a nice house. Somebody decorated the rest of the house really nicely. I want to be married and settled. I just have to remember that God has a plan for me and it will come to pass.

My dad is buying me a flat screen tv for Christmas. I can't believe it--I will just have to wait for this to happen.

My mother drives me crazy. My little cousins spend every other weekend at our house. Well when they come see auntee they get whatever they want. Not that big of a deal. The problem I have is that what they normally want is candy. My mother gives them bubble gum at 8 in the morning. So they had some bubble gum this morning and that was supposed to be the last bit of candy. They leave the house and come back with a bag of candy for each of them. We have an argument every time they come here. My problem is the higher than normal occurrence of childhood obesity and diabetes. They eat candy all day and watch tv and lounge. If they were playing all day then the candy may be ok (not really but at least they would be active). The oldest is six and she already has a crown or whatever. She obviously doesn't need the candy but my mother steadily gives it to her. Mind you I wasn't given all this candy when I was younger so I really don't understand it.

Friday, November 9, 2007

I Had to Write Something Else

Ok so since it is National Blogging Month I should probably be saving these ideas but anyone who knows me knows that if I don't get it out right then I will forget (so now you know why I interrupt you during conversations, please forgive for that. I don't want to go all cricket, cricket on you.).

So today I feel like God is testing my faith and patience and I am failing miserably. I am trying to figure out why nothing seems to be going my way. God I love you and right now I am struggling. I just need one break. I don't want any more rejection. The rejection is eating away at my professional self esteem. The more rejection I get the more I feel like an incompetent lawyer. My personal self esteem is still the hotness. I love me more than I can explain.

Where Do I Find These Men? Part II

So let's talk about my issues with the first post:

1. If I say I don't want to go out with you every time you ask, why don't you just stop asking?

2. Why are you so dramatical? It is life change, wtf?

3. If I say I have issues respect that. I don't want to deal with you and my issues.

4. Why do you think I want to date you if you are dealing with the same thing? I don't want to deal with my issues and your issues. Call me selfish but I know me.

5. Why did I even give him my phone number? At least he has stopped calling so much.

6. How can you nicely say you are not interested? I just want to say I don't like you but I don't think it will come even that nice.

Where Do I Find These Men?

Ok so this is a im conversation I had with the guy who has a relationship that he failed to mention. I will have to give my commentary later but I am sure you can see why I have issues with him. I would also like to add that I just am not attracted to him on any level.

J: hey coco wassup, what are you up too, do you fell like watching some tv with me today?
C: Sorry today is one of my busy days. I have two closings today and they don't seem to be going according to schedule.
J: oh..ok, well maybe another day then..so how have you been?
C: I have been doing ok--i have a sore throat but no other signs of a cold. This makes me a little irritated. How are you?
J: i'm wonderful, cant complain...things are going..i guess..
C: Why do you guess?
J: cause i still havent hung out with you....
C: So that messes up your life?
J: lol...yes.some Jerrick Manns. everything you want in your life should change it some
C: Oh ok
J: you dont think so..
C: Depends on what it is
J:so in your case, a guy that you like and cant be with wouldnt change you life some C: I don't think I would be like life is ok i guess. But then I am the hotness and trying to get myself together with no man around.
J: ok...but naw, i was just kidding with the i guess, its just a way i talk when people ask me that.... but i would like to take you out and hang out with you..
C: oh ok so we get to the truth
J: what is the truth...lol
C: you just wanted me to feel sorry for you and keep asking you what was wrong. you wanted some attention.
J: lol...no..the truth is that i like you and i want to take you out somtime...lol
C: Ok but we could only go out as friends b/c I am dealing with the issues that the last guy helped me create and not wanting to put them off on any other man.
J: what issues did ya'll create..
C:My biggest issue right now is trust but there are lots of other. I still have feelings for him and the last time I decided to date while having feelings for someone else was really ugly.
J: oh...thats ok, you know i'll work with you, cause you know i'm in a similar position....but i hate to have to wonder what could have been cause i was afraid to ask or try..

Thursday, November 8, 2007

Why You Gotta Go and Do That?

So yesterday I had a closing and I see something that no one should see. I was driving away from the closing and see this man crossing the street. The man looks like a pimp with FAMU pride. He was decked out in orange and green. He had on shorts. Even his shoes were orange and green. He had on a green fedora. I was so confused b/c to top all this off he had on a white bubble coat. I almost fell over.

Wednesday, November 7, 2007

Three Things

1. I am stressed. I am breaking out and these people feel like giving me four closings in two days. That is great money wise but a sister's printer is so slow that I have to go buy a new one just to ensure that I can do all the closings.

2. Remember when I said I hate cold and rainy well it is cold and it is supposed to rain. I am so not looking forward to that.

3. This morning it was colder in the South than it was in the North and the Midwest.

Tuesday, November 6, 2007

Talking

I just want to talk about it. I miss him and there is no one to talk to it about or at least I can't talk to him. I mean I could but that would defeat my purpose.

I finally got my much needed pedicure.

The weather just suddenly changed.

I know the state of Georgia needs rain but once it gets cold I hate rain. It is one thing to have something to do in the rain when it is warm but it is so much worse when it is cold.

I got a warm jacket/coat from Target today for only $29.99. It is cute and warm.

Do you know someone who instigates? I do and it just happens to be my mother. Don't ever talk about somebody around her b/c she may tell that person. She will even agree with you about the person's bad qualities and then tell them you said it. She has good intentions--meaning the people you are talking about need to know about their bad qualities but she takes it too far. She did this to me the other day and she did it to my uncle yesterday.

Monday, November 5, 2007

My Job

Ok so I want to tell you what I do most days of the week. I work for this company that finds attorneys to do real estate closings. They send me the information about the closing and I go to the person's home to have them sign the papers. Sometimes they send me the paperwork to print out or they send it to me or the client via mail.

Ok with that being said let's talk about what happened today. Ok the plan was to email the paperwork to me and I would print it out. The closing was at 1:00 this afternoon and the closing was 30 minutes away. To me this means that I need to leave home by 12:15 in case I get lost and just to make sure I arrive in a timely manner.

Ok so here is what happened. I wake up this morning and eventually check my email around 9:15. The paperwork hasn't been emailed to me. I email my company to see where the paperwork was and they say they will check on it. Around 11:30 the paperwork is still not emailed to me. I have a slow printer so I know that I will not be able to print it out in a timely manner. I called the client and let them know I will call when I am on my way. The company finally sends me the paperwork at 12:45. Well I decided that it would be easier to go to my mother's job and print it out. I email it to my mother so she can print it out. As I am driving to my mother's job the finance company calls me and tells me that I need to hurry up (not their exact words but I got the hint). At this point I am hot b/c if it had been up to me the paperwork would have been ready at 9:15 so I could print it out. I want to curse them out b/c clearly I didn't do anything wrong. Then my company calls and asked me where I was. I told them I was on my way but I can't move that quickly b/c no matter what the situation was I had to print out the paperwork that was sent to me late.

I get to my mother's school and go to her classroom thinking that the paper would be waiting for me. Of course she forgot to print it out even though I called her less than an hour ago. So I had to sit there and print it out. It only took about 15 minutes to do it. I think I got another call telling me to hurry up b/c somebody has to go to work. I am thinking to myself that sounds personal b/c somebody was slipping on their pimping--not my problem. I did my best to get there in a timely manner.

I get to the couple's house and pull out the paperwork. I hand it over to the wife to start signing. The husband asked about the interest rate and time of payments. So get this after all this they put me through, the finance company put the wrong interest rate and monthly payments on there. I was so hot you could see the steam rising. I did my best to remain polite when the wife called the finance company but I wanted to curse the finance company out.

A day in my crazy life!

Sunday, November 4, 2007

Today

Ok so today I went to see American Gangster. I am not going to give anything away. I just want to say that the movie was good but spotty. They tried to fit too much into in a short amount of time. The movie was looooooooooooooong but not long enough for me to get the substance of Frank Lucas. I read an article about him last week and I think I learned more in the article than I did in the movie. Anyway I just have one question for anyone who saw the movie: T.I. and Common--was I supposed to believe that?

My cousin's future husband just bought them a house. He is a truck driver so he just signed the papers and bounced. She is so stressed. It is driving me crazy.

National Blog Writing Month

Hey all,
It is national blog writing month and I guess I gotta participate. My girl let me know and since I have already done 3 posts and I might as well continue on.

Smooches,
Coco

Saturday, November 3, 2007

Saturday Ramblings

Ok God I know you are looking out for my best interests but do you have to let them bother me? I know I need to learn patience which is probably one of the reasons I am jobless but why do these people have to bother me?

Why do people feel the need to tell me stories or give me facts that I could care less about?

Me and my grandmother are just alike and which means that I would drive myself crazy.

I miss digital cable. At least when I was bored on the weekends I could watch some movie.

When you were jobless did I ask you how the job search was going every time I talked to you? That is the most irritating question to be asked. When I get a job I will send out an email to all my friends and let you know. Chances are the person this is directed towards stopped reading my blog awhile ago.

CS--I was talking about a girl I went to high school with. I wish I could show you the pictures. She looks older than her mother.

Ok my guilty pleasure is Keyshia Cole's tv show. I would say I watch I love NY but that show is just too ignorant. I tried to watch this season but I can't bring myself to do it. KC's show isn't ignorant though.

Why do I miss "The Game" every week?

I watch Fox News Channel. The journalism is pretty ignorant but they show more news than the other channels on my bootleg cable. Now I really miss MSNBC.

I am addicted to Suze Orman's t.v. show. So last night she was talking to this man whose wife kept jacking up their finances. He would fix something she messed up and then she would mess something else up. So Suze said the wife was dishonest and she didn't understand how their relationship worked. She then said that a real relationship is built on 100% honesty. Is this true? I know you have to be honest about most things but sometimes you just can't tell your mate. And when I say that I am talking about the little things, mostly opinion things. I may only be saying this b/c I have no tact and if I don't like it I will say it. I have hurt my significant others feelings b/c I said what I honestly believed. It got a little ugly when I told the truth. So should you tell your mate the truth 100% of the time? The other problem I had with her advice was that she doesn't have a husband and neither do I. So who are either of us to voice our opinion on how that man's marriage works?

I am going to do better on my blogs b/c I haven't written anything truly substantive lately. I am going to sit down and think about something to blog about other than my random thoughts. Don't get it twisted I love my random thoughts but since I am so impulsive I don't take the time to truly plan a post. I normally have wonderful plans for posts but my short term memory is so bad that if I come up with an idea two hours from now I will forget it by the time I get back to a computer which could be three hours from now.

Peace and Blessings,
Coco

Friday, November 2, 2007

Friday Ramblings

I cut off my hair!

My short term memory is terrible!

Why are hos psycho?

Just so you know feel free to donate to my cause--(the cause is brokeness).

I know we aren't supposed to buy anything today but I have no gas and no food. What is a girl to do?

Why did my friend send me a text message last night saying her 77 year old grandmother had the American Gangster bootleg? All I could do was stare at my phone in disbelief. That was funny.

Btw I will be seeing that on Sunday. Hooray!

I wonder if God blesses me with children will I be a good mom.

So is anyone else disappointed in Jay-Z's Blue Magic? I am not the biggest hip-hop fan but he just didn't do it for me.

Why did you name your child Knowshon? I mean he is a great football player but Knowshon?

Thursday, November 1, 2007

Just Down Right Evil

Disclaimer: I told you I can be an evil witch.

Have you ever looked at someone's wedding pictures and just wished they would start over? I have. I have a former friend who recently got married and I saw the pictures. All I could say is she looks old. Mind you we graduated together on time so she is not old. She just looks like an old woman--not the vibrant 26 year old that I know she is. I looked at the pictures and was like why are your bridemaids looking better than you. That should never happen for real. I mean the whole bridal party looks your age but you don't. She had on a pretty dress though.

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

Halloween Funny

Halloween Party

A wife got a terrible headache and told her husband to go to the Halloween party alone. He, being a devoted husband, protested, but she argued and said she was going to take some aspirin and go to bed and there was no need for his good time to be spoiled by not going. So he took his costume and away he went. The wife, after sleeping soundly for about an hour, woke without pain and as it was still early, decided go to the party.

As her husband didn't know what her costume was, she thought she would have some fun by watching her husband to see how he acted when she was not with him. So she joined the party and soon spotted her husband in his costume, cavorting around on the dance floor, dancing with every nice 'chick' he could and copping a little feel here and a little kiss there. His wife went up to him and being a rather seductive babe herself, he left his new partner high and dry and devoted his time to her. She let him go as far as he wished, naturally, since he was her husband.

After more drinks he finally whispered a little proposition in her ear and she agreed, so off they went to one of the cars and made passionate love in the back seat. Just before unmasking at midnight, she slipped away and went home and put the costume away and got into bed, wondering what kind of explanation he would make up for his outrageous behavior.

She was sitting up reading when he came in, so she asked what kind of time he had. 'Oh, the same old thing. You know I never have a good time when you're not there.' Then she asked, 'Did you dance much?' He replied, I'll tell you, I never even danced one dance. When I got there, I met Pete, Bill Brown and some other guys, so we went into the spare room and played poker all evening.' You must have looked really silly wearing that costume playing poker all night!' she said with unashamed sarcasm. To which the husband replied, 'Actually, I gave my costume to your brother, apparently he had the time of his life.

They Tried to Make Me Cry

Ok so I am an evil witch some days of the week but my friends know the "real" Coco. They even told me how great I was. Those heffas almost brought me to tears. Read what they said:

My sistafriend and co-plaintiff, I have really enjoyed being your friend over the past eight years (wow, that is a log time). You can always offer me encouragement and a compliment when I need it most. You are also an extremely loyal friend (and you, like me are currently paying for your loyalty); but your reaching out to a friend in need is still a great testament to how seriously you take friendship and the lengths to which you are willing to go for a friend. You are incredibly honest at all times—I know if I ask you how you are doing you are really going to tell me how you are doing, which I appreciate quite a bit. I am just so blessed to have you as a friend; love you!!!
M.Y.

My snappy, southern, sistafriend! I am so happy that we have begun to touch base more often. Your words of encouragement have been a blessing! I admire your ability to tell it like it is to the folks that need it. You have the ability to cut through the bs and say what everyone else was thinking in the room. I have also observed your ability to wait on God to direct your paths even when the waiting gets tough. Because of your patience and refusal to settle, I know that God is going to bless you in your career big time! Keep your head up and I will continue to pray for your success!
S.B.

My fellow southern bred aries sister from the second flo! We have so many things in common, from our upbringing to our likes and dislikes, to being our ideals about friendship. Your friends are very important to you which is reflected by your thoughtful and caring actions. The people around you must have the same consideration and you don't tolerate anything less. For this reason, "friends" have come and gone but that has only made the circle tighter. Law school wasn't what you thought it would be but you overcame all that was trying to hold you back and succeeded. I love that you passionately tackle your goals and have refused to settle for less. I know the job search is difficult, especially when you know exactly what you want. Know that God has something great for you; be patient and you will be blessed. we may not talk as often as before, but I am always here if you need me and I read your blog all the time. You have been a great friend. Thanks for all the years and I look forward to many more.
Luv ya
~I

Take equal parts of Sensitive, strong, demure &, lady like mixed with a pinch of sass & a whole heap of intelligence, let that marinate for about 26 years and you will have the quintessential southern belle sistafriend that we all love: Coco.
Coco you have many admirable qualities but the first one that always comes to my mind is your southern sensibility. Frankie Beverly has a song called "southern girl" and whenever I hear it I think of you (now look, I'm not big on lyrics so if the song is about something nasty then I'm sorry. That wouldn't be the part that reminds me of you.)
Much love
P.

For Coco
... ...southern-belle, hospitalitable, nice-sty but-don't-cross-me, georgia peach, strong, goal-oriented...my roomie...Coco, esquire...
What I admire about you the most is your drive. You are determined and goal-oriented. You are caring and giving, though you don't like to show it. I can honestly say that I would not have made it through freshman year, if you had been selfish with your printer or other items that you generously let me share. I'll never forget all the thoughtful things that you've done for me, including cards and gifts that you gave to me for birthdays and during difficult times. I pray that God grants you the deepest desires of your heart. I love you...
Always...
A.

Channel & Fendi

One of the strongest women I know. I admire your confidence. You love yourself in a way that is truely special. You don't have a phony bone in your body. My fondest memory of you was when you gave the dude at Taco Bell a tongue lashing. You won't allow anyone to even think about playing you. I love that I never have to wonder where I stand with you. You always remind us that the best action in the face of adversity is prayer. My only regret is not getting a chance to kick it with you in the A.

Love you all madly,
-La-Leezy


Other than my roomate and our RAs you are the only person I remember clearly from freshman move-in. I remember you had on a baby-tee-esque top and some overalls. Your dad told me all about you. I remember thinking...she must be shy or something for her dad to be introducing her to follks. HA!!! You are bold, assertive, loyal, and you demand that the desires of your heart be taken seriously. Overtime we've bonded over many issues--like being from the South and DADDIES! I could always count on you to be honest, sincere, and reasonable. I shared some of my most memorable HU moments with you. Remember when I walked to you room, remembered I left my wallet in my room, and we walked two floors down to my room (all this took less than 5 mins) only to find my room in a certain condition...LOL. You were always there to provides rides, a comfortable space, and even share your mom when she was in town. I know that great things are in store for you. I know it may be taking a while longer for some things to come to pass, but consider it like a stew--it takes a while to get done--but when it is...perfection! I love you dearly and I pray that you continue to strive, perservere, and remain true to yourself and your values. I love you much Coco!

mj

There should be more but the rest of them heffas ain't send me nothing!

Monday, October 29, 2007

Ten Things

Ten Things I Worry About But I Just Hand Over to the Lord!

1. Money
2. Lack of a job
3. Friendships
4. Love relationships
5. The future
6. My family
7. My mother being milked dry by her family
8. Him
9. Forgiveness
10. Those who have done me wrong
This post idea came from a question about parents arguing in front of children. I realize that I hate to argue. I will avoid someone like the plague if we are on the outs but haven't talked about it. I hate to hear other people argue. My mother was never big on arguments so I have always hated to argue. Now there is one person I will argue with and that is probably b/c we are just alike. We will go at it for hours if you let us but oh well.

Saturday, October 27, 2007

What's Going On

Ok so a couple of weeks or days ago (who really remembers) I was upset and I cried a couple of time. Well now I am here to tell you that I am happy. I don't know why and I am not going to question my happiness. I had an interview on Wednesday and it went ok. I am still upset about him but it does take awhile to get over a situation. I gave him more than he gave me and he showed me who he was a long time ago. I tried to move on but I couldn't b/c I always missed him. I knew he wouldn't change b/c who does change but I stuck it out. Still trying to figure out exactly why.

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Why I Love "Will & Grace"

Karen: Would you like to work under my skirt?
Guest Star: Here's some money for a bikini wax. I like my work space to be clean.

My Thoughts

Have you ever just felt left out? I feel like that most of the time. I hear about all the stuff that my friends do together b/c they are closer to each other (in distance) and I just feel left out. Most of my close friends do not live in the South. I have a few linesisters and friends in Atlanta but that is about it. I miss my girls being right around the corner or only a phone call away. I have no money so I am stuck in Fort Valley. I just want my friends to know that I really miss them.

Sitting here remembering undergrad almost brings me to tears. I have some truly wonderful friends and they really make me smile. I miss the laughs--hence the tears!

I had an interview/informational session. I liked the person whose place I could be taking.

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Oh Really Now?

I just had a flashback that I felt I needed to share:

There was this guy that I crushed on for years and he happened to be my friend. He also had a girlfriend so the crush wasn't going too far on my part or his (at least I think). We used to hang out and go to the movies and other stuff. I was cool with his mother and sister too. Well one day I was home from college and felt like going to visit him at his mom's house. So I am sitting in the living room talking to his mom. His dad walks into the living room and says hello to me. That would have been just fine if he hadn't called me by the girlfriend's name. In my head I was thinking Oh really now!!!!!!!!!!!!!! His wife quickly corrected him. I was a little bit flustered b/c even though the girl is cute she ain't got nothing on me. We look nothing alike. She was short and thick (not fat at all) and well you guys know me. I am medium height (in other words tight and just right) and small framed (ok skinny). Needless to say we aren't shaped alike and do not look alike. That was one of the last times I chilled at his house. Also the girlfriend was borderline crazy--he was my friend but I don't do crazy hoes. Mama Sylvia taught me better.

Divorce

When is it ok to start dating after your marriage is over? Should you wait until the divorce is over? Or just when you and the future ex are no longer together?

I ask this question because I know this girl who just got her divorce finalized in the past month. When I met her this summer she was with her new boyfriend. He seemed very nice. The reason for the divorce was that she cheated on her husband and it wasn't with the new boyfriend. My biggest issue with the situation is it just seems likes she likes to jump into relationships. New boyfriend acts like he really likes her but who knows. If he does will he get hurt? Does she like him for him or for his money? That is allegedly why she married the husband. The boyfriend has money too. What is your take on it.
Lurkers please respond too :)

Monday, October 22, 2007

Why?

People why do we do this to our children?
Candida
Female
Orangello
Lemonjello
Miami

Pray for us please!!!!

Saturday, October 20, 2007

More Thoughts

Hey CS, remember this statement or variation of the statement: If you can't respect the season at least respect the month. Well anyway that is how I prepare to get dressed in the morning. It was warm but I fought the urge to rock my flip flops. Those three and a half years at UGA got me thinking it is ok to wear flip flops. I had a come to Jesus meeting about the shoes.

My cousin is getting married and there is a lot of planning going on so that we don't have to have a big rush around the time of the wedding. Anyway my cousin is much more crunk than I am when it comes to people doing stuff they aren't supposed to. With that being said my cousin has a friend who has designated herself as a maid of honor and thinks that she should be running things. She keeps trying to change the dresses for the wedding. Then today she had the nerve to tell the bridal party that they had to donate money to the bridal shower. I can understand you asking for money but telling me I have to give money. She must not know 'bout me. Last I checked the maid of honor pays for the bridal shower. I have no problem donating money but you need not ever tell me I have to do something.

I had more to talk about but lost my train of thought so consider this post to be continued...

Thursday, October 18, 2007

Back in the Day

So back in the day I remember my uncle's ex-wife having a conversation about some women are just going to be the mistress and how men see them. Looking back on that conversation I think that some men think that I am supposed to be the other woman. I have been placed in some crazy predicaments by men. I know a few men who have made a move on me when they were with their women. One guy who was not in a "relationship" with this girl had the nerve to lick me somewhere above the neck (don't remember exactly where b/c I was slightly inebriated) and his girl was sitting right next to me. She was oblivious to what was going on. Needless to say the kid was kept her distance around this man. There have also been men who told me one thing but clearly their girlfriends that I knew nothing about were told something completely different. I realize that some of these men were trifling but I contributed to the idiocy of these situations. Since I don't want to be anybody's mistress I am taking a big break from the dating scene. I am a little sad but I will get over it. I realize that I want a man in my life but I am not going to have a great man in my life if I don't get my sh*t together.

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Ok so I feel a little prolific

I keep getting ideas to write about!

Ok so I am reading the blog of a woman who says we should be ashamed for having a baby out of wedlock. I understand her sentiment. It is hard out here for the child of a single parent. Us single parent children truly have it hard. People say harsh stuff to us and take out something we have no control over on us. But the purpose of this post is to talk about a statement that the blogger made. When your child doesn't take his/her father's name we are allowing the father to get off the hook. Bullshit! No matter what a woman does a man is his own person. He is going to do whatever he wants whether the child has his name or not. Trust and believe I walk around with my daddy's name and it ain't got me much of anything since I was nine. He had his good moments but on a whole mommy dearest did all the damn work. My biggest fear is that when he dies I am going be left with a mess. He ain't got nothing but debt. My mother was never one for forcing a man to take care of his responsibilities but damn all that. When you lay down and do the stuff to make a baby you better get up and take care of a baby.

I know why my dad wasn't the best of taking care of his responsibilities--the man didn't have to get a job until he graduated from a college. He graduated at 25. He always had somebody to take care of him. He was the baby boy of a large family.

Letting It Go

So I just needed to get a few things off my chest:
Just like it is rude to tell a fat person they are fat the same is true about skinny people. I am not saying that I want to be a fat or anything but why do people feel the need to state the obvious. Last time I checked I walked around in this body 24/7 and I know for a fact I am skinny. I don't need to discuss my weight or size with you. Nor do you need to discuss my weight or size in my presence with someone else. I am comfortable with my size but I don't need to discuss it with you.

I almost cried today a few times. It is officially over. I do believe we had our last conversation today via email. My friend made me feel better about the situation--he wasn't all bad. He had his good qualities so I have the right to be sad that we are over. I mean I did give him 2 years, 11 months and 5 days of my life. Yes it was that serious. We had our ups and downs and we just couldn't overcome our downs or rather I couldn't overcome our downs. Honestly I don't think he cares one way or the other right now.

I have finally embraced the fact that I will not be getting my 2007 Honda Accord EX-L with navigation in alabaster silver. We just weren't meant to be. I didn't even shed a tear which is big for me. I have been planning that purchase since forever (ok maybe not forever). We all know I am a control freak and I want what I want and nothing else will do.

So like I said the friend list is growing shorter and I don't mind. I realized earlier today that I don't even like people right now.

My scalp itches so bad and it is time for a touch-up.

If you are in "ivy stance" and your hands don't hurt guess what, you are not in "ivy stance". That mess ain't cute!

Thoughts

I am so excited b/c I am going to volunteer for Make A Wish!

Spaghetti for dinner tonight!

Does the real world ever feel easy?

Why do people lie? What do you get out of it? I try not to lie. For the most part I will ignore your question before I lie to you. When you lie you have to keep building on it and I don't have time for that.

My list of friends is growing shorter--weeding people out daily.

Was looking at another person's blog and they talked about why children are so unhealthy these days. I don't even think it is about the whole t.v. and video game playing. I think a lot of it has to do with caregivers. When I was younger my granny would kick me out of the house and say don't return to my house until you get all the playing out (ok maybe she didn't say that but she did kick me out of the house) but this same woman will not let my little cousins go outside and play. I am sure their mother doesn't make them go outside.

So I saw "Why Did I Get Married?" last night. I don't know how I feel. Let me know what you think when you see it. Also keep in mind that I have dated a few men who swear they are movie critics and I learned a lot about movies. There are days where we have sat in the bed and picked apart movies. Maybe I am just picky.

Ok so I miss him but it isn't that bad.

To get me through the day without cursing somebody out I carry bible verses in my purse and pull them out when I have a "Come to Jesus" moment.

Why can't people drive? If I am in the slow lane why do you feel the need to ride my bumper? There is a nice empty lane next to me. And if there isn't a nice empty lane next to me I am still in the slow lane. Don't these people know I am itching to buy a new car? It won't be my fault if you hit me from behind. Considering how fast these people are going I probably will get injured (God forbid).

I wish I could do all the things I wanted to do (within reason).

There will be no TMI Tuesdays this week

Ok so no TMI Tuesdays for me b/c my dating life sucks. But I will tell you about the best date I have ever been on. It was the best date b/c he was such a great man--I miss him :(

Anyway it was a rainy day Senior year at Hampton. It was actually a blind date so I really didn't know what to expect. So he decided dinner and a movie would be a good date. He drove to my apartment and picked me up. He walked me to the car and opened the door for me. (You know that stuff that a man is supposed to do.) Well dinner is a home cooked meal at his apartment. It was so sweet. He cooked chicken alfredo and baked me some cookies. We talked and talked. Then we went to the movies. I think we saw the worst movie ever but I just couldn't bear the thought of going to see a Harry Potter movie so we went to see Paid In Full or State Property. I got over the fact that the was the only thing showing at the time we got to the movies. We then left the movies. He took me back to my apartment. He walked me to the door and gave me a hug. Then he asked could he call me the next day. It was the most spectacular date but he was such a gentleman. I wonder what he is doing nowadays.

CS--oh HELL TO THE NAW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Btw, I won't tell if you won't tell. How was "The Game"? I missed it b/c I was at the movies. (My comments stop there b/c I know you haven't seen the movie.)

Monday, October 15, 2007

Why You Gotta Try Me?

So explain to me why I think I am being nice by sending out information about the birthday celebration 6 months in advance especially for my out of town people. One of these individuals who I know for a fact lives check to check was like why you sending it out so early? When I say I am trying to help you save up money ahead of time you get an attitude. Last time I checked the weekend I was planning was not cheap and you gotta buy a plane ticket. Why chicks be trying me? I am about to go on a six month hiatus on "friends" as well.

Sunday, October 14, 2007

Yeah!

Yeah so I had this profound post that I wanted to write the other day but of course I was out and had nothing to write on. Now I can't even remember the topic--I just know it was going to be related to a song or a saying. Boo!

So this weekend was FVSU's Homecoming and FVSU is a very community oriented school which means that everybody in Fort Valley celebrates homecoming. With that being said you see people who have never seen the inside of a high school classroom much less a college classroom. This means you get to see any and everything at Homecoming. I saw an old crackhead/drunk (still don't know which one he was) beat up a little boy. I shouldn't say beat up but I don't know exactly what else to call it. Some kind strangers finally helped the boy. The police eventually showed up--nobody actually called them over and they were too far away to see exactly what happened.

I walked "the strip" which is equivalent to Hampton's Bazaar (FV likes to shut down the street right before the school and let vendors set up there, hence a strip of the street but unfortunately there are only two ways to get to the campus and that is one of them.). I eventually had to leave because I was surrounded by little children. This would have been ok but it was Saturday night and they should have been home where their parents were.

CS to answer your question about my first closing it was kind of scary b/c I had never done one. The people who hired me to do the closing did not give me any instructions except for how to return the papers to them. I adapted though. I made one mistake and had to return to the person's house to have them sign something else. It made the closing longer than it needed to be but I did it.

Ok so I have no money! I don't know how I am surviving and I am not exaggerating--dead broke. Working it out right now though (the closings won't pay me until the beginning of November). I got a little hustle left in me but I am accepting donations.

I found the perfect dress for the Blackout! I am crunk.

Thursday, October 11, 2007

Still Not Ready

So I am still not ready to talk about anything personal. Lots of thoughts running through my head but I feel the need to run from those thoughts.

My third grandmother died yesterday. Obviously she is not my real grandmother but she was my first best friend's grandmother and I used to stay at her house all the time when I was younger. I haven't seen her in ages but I knew she had been having a hard time lately. She had a stroke maybe a year ago and never really recovered. I feel bad b/c I haven't seen her in about two years.

Excited about meeting my back's boyfriend on Sunday--no complaints about him so he must be a winner.

Why did your boy feel the need to ask me if I was going to the GA National Fair or the Homecoming Stepshow? When I said I couldn't afford those things (meaning I didn't want to really go anyway b/c a sista will find a way) he said oh I got you if you want to go. Does your girlfriend know you got me?

Bethlehem--is that really your child's name?

CS--Thanks for sharing such personal moments. I don't know what to say exactly which is why I haven't commented in a minute. I hope you are feeling better.

You home school your child--the same child who is allegedly planning another Colombine. What the hell are you doing that you appear to not notice that he is stockpiling weapons?

I miss him but I know it is for the best.

I did my first closing on Tuesday. I was so nervous!

I am thinking about getting my hair cut.

I need a pedicure desperately!

Have you checked your breasts this month? If not, handle that situation right now! Step away from the computer and do your business!

Have you had your yearly exam? If not make an appointment and handle that!

So I am ready for "Why Did I Get Married?"

I saw this guy today that tried to holla maybe in April (I was still living in Athens but I came home for some reason and met him). He was like don't I know you. Of course I had to say no b/c clearly it wasn't going down like that. I am good at the ignore--completely shut him down with the ignore. He will not be someone worthy of me even thinking about breaking the six month hiatus.

Tuesday, October 9, 2007

Thoughts

So these past two days I have been doing a lot of thinking.
Yesterday I decided it was time to get back to my wonderful relationship with the Lord. In this quest to get that relationship back I made a "promise" to not date any men for six months. This is a hard one for me b/c "he" always finds his way back to me. I always go back and forget the past. I get hurt and then I remember the past.
Speaking of "him" he sent me a text message today. Conversation goes like this:
Him: U dnt talk 2 me nemore
Me: I cant handle u right now
Him: What does tht mean
Me: I need u to be full time and u r not. I cant make u something u r not
This exchange nearly brought me to tears. I am just tired of being caught up with him. I want it to be over but I don't want to talk to him. When I talk to him I get caught up and then my feelings continue to get hurt.
Ok so I had more to say but I am tired of thinking my thoughts. Let's just say to be continued...

TMI Tuesday

1. Wash up, cuddle or fall asleep?
If it is that good fall asleep but normally shower then cuddle.
2. Have you ever fake orgasms?
With my first yes--didn't know the sex was that bad until my second.
3. In any 24 hour period, what is the most number of time you have ever had sex?
2
4. Have you ever had sex or give/received oral sex while you were driving a car?
No
5. What do you think the average number of sexual partners your sex has in their lifetime? Do you think most people lie when asked?
I don't know but my guess is 10-15. I think most people lie usually to make themselves look good.
Bonus (as in optional):Can men and women be "just friends?" (Explain)
I would like to think they could but if a person sees something they want they may go after it under the pretense of friendship (you know you been there).

Friday, October 5, 2007

Is It Just Me?

So I sit at home and watch t.v. every night and get disturbed and feel the need to comment on it:

Is anyone noticing how VH1 is taking this "celebreality" thing a bit too far? The Salt and Pepa Show. hmmmmmm

I am very disappointed with ANTM this season. I spend most of the show playing some game on the net or computer. What was this past week's bottom 2? Btw I am beginning to not like Saliesha or Bianca but especially Bianca. The editing of this show is off the chain--they set us up for that one.

I was disappointed in the premiere of Girlfriends. Can we get Toni back? That was just boring.

I was disappointed in the premiere of The Game but I can't wait for the rest of the season. That little teaser was too much.

Ok so I spend my 12:30-1:30 p.m. watching the Young and the Restless--I am tired of Gloria trying to take somebody down when she killed somebody. Jack is dirty but so is she. I am tired of Brad trying to jack up Sharon's marriage. Does he not realize that he is also hurting Noah (even though I don't like the spoiled child). Didn't Noah just get in a fight about Jack--why do you want to create more news when news is what started the fight?

I am mad that NBC did not hold onto Law & Order: CI but at least I still get to see original episodes. I hope the season isn't like the other USA shows. You know that whole show half a season then take a break and then show the other half of the season. That really irks me.

Thursday, October 4, 2007

TMI Tuesdays on Thursday

1. Early bird or night owl?
I am usually an early bird but since I am jobless I have become a night owl.
2. If you could only be one, would you rather be smart or good looking?
That is a hard one especially since now I am both--I would probably say smart only b/c I could at least (prayerfully) get a well-paying job and keep myself company with a book and I have seen ugly women with men so it is possible.
3. Do you gossip?
Of course I do but I am slowing down b/c sometimes I think I am the only one sharing information.
4. On a scale of 1-10, how adventurous are you? (1 is lowest, 10 is highest)
4
5. On a scale of 1-10, how good a kisser do you think you are? ( ditto )
Since the ex-ho liked to kiss me I will go with at least an 8.

Bonus (as in optional):What do you consider the biggest turn on out of the following? a) lingerie b) movies c) toys d) role playing e) leather f) none of this does anything for me
Lingerie--I think a man staring at me with lingerie on is the best feeling in the world before the foreplay.

Heaven

Ok so the other day I went to "The Cheesecake Bistro" and I found heaven. I found heaven in a cheesecake. The fudge brownie cheesecake was to die for. I don't even eat chocolate like that but that was the best dessert I have ever had in life.

I am in a happy place right now. I thought leaving "him" alone would be hard but really it isn't. I am enjoying the single life. I realize that there are things that I am still learning about myself that I definitely need to know before being in a relationship. I also see the mistakes my friends are making that they won't admit to themselves.

Speaking of their mistakes--how can you jump into a relationship five seconds after you jumped out of another. Even if the problems of the previous relationship were caused by the other party you are affected by the things this person does. I would be foolish to think about being with someone else in the very near future. I know there is no timeline but I know that it has only been 4 weeks since I talked to "him". I know I need not be messing with anyone.

Wednesday, October 3, 2007

What's Happening

Yesterday was great! I went to Atlanta to see my linesisters. Ok so I am notorious for always being hella early and yesterday was no exception. I left home around 2:00 b/c I wanted to stop by BB&B to get a job application (will I really get a job in retail with a J.D. behind my name?). I also left early b/c the last time I went to Atlanta I was stuck in traffic for almost an hour. Of course it didn't happen that way this time. Since I was very early I stopped at the outlets. I went to Coach, Nine West, Gap, Charlotte Russe and Old Navy. It is a terrible feeling to window shop and you have no money.
I finally leave the outlets and make my way to downtown Atlanta. So I clearly was an hour early but that is how I do. I picked up my linesister/former roommate and her boyfriend. I really like the new/old boyfriend (it was my first time meeting him but they have been together for two years--damn law school-can't afford a plane ticket to save my life and we know I don't drive too far). It was just like old times. We drove around Atlanta--me getting lost. I know my way around downtown but I always get lost. I finally made it to Atlantic Station. We parked and walked around. My ls hasn't changed at all and I love her so much. We went shopping and she bought me some pants (you know I already planned my ensemble for FVSU's Homecoming).
We went to The Cheesecake Bistro. The food was wonderful. My other linesisters showed up late but we still had a ball. It was wonderful sitting there with everybody just talking. I really enjoyed hearing their perspectives on relationships. I just sat there b/c I have no comment on relationships, at least good ones.

So I had to stop in the middle of my post to go to the store. I am hot!!!! Fire-breathing dragon hot. Set the scene: My grandmother retired in 1995 and has been on social security ever since i.e. living on a fixed income. My uncle is a grown ass man. Why is he calling her to wire him some money? Why did she say yes? Who had to go to the store and make this long ass transaction? My grandma offered me some gas money and I couldn't say yes to that. I know she struggles. Hell half of her check goes to my uncle's bills. I don't understand what is his damn problem. I think my ls's boyfriend said it best--the problem with these men running around here today is that they were spoiled. Pray for my family!

Monday, October 1, 2007

Today

Today is the 3 year anniversary of me meeting "him". I haven't talked to him since early last month. I am happy with my alone time. It feels great. Now I just have to get rid of Mr. I Got a Girlfriend that I will tell Facebook about but not you. He wants me to call him--why? I don't disrespect relationships.

So today my friend tells me she got tickets to the Jill Scott concert which is great. Then she says my boyfriend is coming. I said I didn't want to go b/c I don't want to be a third wheel at a Jill Scott concert. She got mad b/c I didn't want to go. Am I wrong? Who wants to be a thid wheel at a Jill Scott concert. When "he" and I had sex for the first time Jill Scott was in the background.

Was anyone else disappointed in the "Girlfriends" season premiere?

I get to see my ls/roommate from college tomorrow. So exciting!

Confessions

So I have been doing some thinking and I figure if the whole blogging thing is going to work I have to make some confessions. It is not really a confession b/c some people know and some don't.

My first year of law school was terrible. I wasn't ready for law school. I needed to take a break from anything school related. Looking back on that time I realized that I had been in school for forever. My mother pushed and I didn't try to stop her. When I was a senior in high school my mother made me go to college. I didn't really want to do it but she said I had to so I did it. I was always in school and it was frustrating. I wasn't getting enough rest and eventually it took its toll. I got physically sick and never wanted to feel that way again. Anyway the point of this paragraph is to let the world know that I messed up really bad my first year and had to repeat first year of law school. Anyone who has been to law school knows that this is a nightmare. I almost didn't do it b/c I knew that there were other career fields that would make me just as happy. The only thing that got me through this tough time was a therapist. My university had a counseling program and it was great. I did individual therapy and group therapy. My individual therapist helped me rebuild my confidence. He talked to me and most of all he listened. I was able to tell him any and everything. He listened to me talk about my daddy issues and my men issues. He eventually moved on to another school and to this day I miss him. He was that person who didn't pass judgment and made me feel good. He didn't condone all my actions but he didn't make me feel like I was going to hell for doing something I had no business doing.

I am ready to find a job so I can go find a new therapist. When I had an individual therapist I was so much happier. I am not saying that I am unhappy now but I remember knowing that I could walk into someone's office and just let it all out. There is only so much I can tell my friends. Sometimes I don't even understand what I am feeling and a therapist is a trained professional and knows how to get it out.

Sunday, September 30, 2007

Can't Stop Thinking

So "he" sent me a text message and of course I ignored it (at least I think it was him--thanks for the "Don't Answer" suggestion, CS). So Saturday morning I turn on my phone b/c I went to sleep at 9:30 p.m. Friday night and knew that there was a chance that someone could have called after I turned the phone off. I am just lying in bed and the phone lets me know I have a voice mail and a text message. The text message was very random--I think it was drunk texting from a friend. Then I check the voice mail. I was in shock b/c "he" called me at 2:43 a.m.--wtf? The message wasn't that deep but I was like go far away. Don't get it twisted I like the attention but I can't go down that road anymore. There are so many reasons that that relationship is not worth it. I care about him but I can do much better. Being by myself is great. I wish there was more here to do so I wouldn't think about being alone.

Next subject: Why do I have friends that kick me to the curb when they get a man? Do I just have poor excuses for friends?

Why do I get phone calls when you want something? Can you just call to say hello?

Saturday, September 29, 2007

Just So You Know

Ok some of you knew I had an interview on Friday and I think it went ok but who really knows. I really want the job and I prayed about it. Now that I have prayed about it I am leaving it alone. I won't find out if I got a second interview until the end of October but good things come to those who wait.

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

Didn't Happen

Ok so the post about daddy issues didn't happen today. Whenever I plan to write it doesn't go as it should.

Lately I haven't been feeling well. I caught a cold awhile ago and since then I haven't had an appetite and haven't been sleeping well. I might go to sleep at 1:30 a.m. and wake up at 6:30 a.m. I am so drained. I think the sleep part comes from the dependency on Nyquil. Pray for me to get some sleep and eat a real meal soon.

My mother and I had a good conversation today. We discussed so many topics in such a short conversation and she didn't act like she didn't hear me. Whenever I say something she doesn't like to hear she pretends like she doesn't hear me and moves on to the next conversation.

We talked about my dad and how he mooches off his girlfriend and didn't take care of me. We talked about the problems in the black community. My theory is that a lot of the issues come from the fact that some parents just don't care. I pointed out to her that I may be one of the only people in my neighborhood that I grew up who went to college and grad school. I grew up with some smart people but you can't tell by what goes on in my neighborhood. We also talked about how she uses money to show people she cares. I love her to death but she spends money that she doesn't have to make people happy--myself included. We also talked about how I don't truly appreciate the value of a dollar. If you knew me you would know I like to spend money. Saving money is hard for me to do but I am doing much better especially since I have no money. All of this was talked about in about a 15 minute period of time. I love my mommy!

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

The Things I Hear

I never really thought about whether the world is round or not. I have been too busy trying to take care of my kids. Maybe not those exact words but she said it. This came from a grown ass woman. Sherry Shephard needs to be ashamed. Don't they teach you that in elementary school? What the hell and why?

Disclaimer: I am addicted to the stupid Maury shows (you know the lie detector and my teenager is out of control). "I sold my body for a double cheeseburger." "Cheeseburgers taste good!"

"I sold my body for a can of soda."

"I only care about me! I am not selfish!"

"Did you hear about Michael Vick and he may have to serve 40 years on state charges. That is so sad."
Ok so I know 40 years is a lot time to serve but I know Michael Vick knew that what he was doing was wrong. I know how people feel about the treatment of dogs--those people who get more upset about a hurt dog than a starving child. He set himself up for the okie doke.

Ok so tomorrow I am going to give a serious blog--gotta vent about the daddy issues again.

No More Compromising

So this morning I woke up early as usual but I decided to use this time to think (of course I eventually went back to sleep). While thinking I decided I am not compromising myself any further. This applies to all aspects of my life.

1. I am no longer going to take whatever "he" has to offer. I hate when people ask me if I am single b/c I can't honestly answer the question b/c I don't know the answer. I am giving an ultimatum. My ultimatum is to help make sure that my needs are met. I care about him but I love me to death. I haven't been treating myself like that in the past. I guess he doesn't understand that I can get sex anywhere. I choose to be faithful b/c that is what I expect but damn all that. I will always be faithful but I don't have to be in a relationship with him to be faithful. I will let God/fate take course and be faithful to the one who wants only me.

2. I am tired of "friends" playing with my emotions. Stop asking me my business if you are not willing to share yours. Don't talk in double speak so I don't understand. (Complex Simplicity this is not directed at you--double talk is what you do best and I enjoy trying to decipher. Plus you don't come and ask me every detail of my day then shut down.) Don't ask me to help you and then when I ask for something similar you start stuttering. Better yet don't call me your friend.

Monday, September 24, 2007

Why?

Why am I so addicted to reading other people's blogs? I even get mad when my friends don't update. I probably want updates b/c I don't have a real job and I am tired of watching t.v. and cruising the internet.

I read a friend's blog today and I feel much closer to her. We have so much in common but we just aren't as close as we used to be. I miss her. I want to do better but I don't know what is wrong. I feel guilty about letting our relationship lapse. I think it is mostly my fault. I went through some things that I didn't want my friends to know about and she was one of those friends.

I have so many different friend groups. I wish I could consolidate these groups. I just don't feel comfortable with some friends about certain things. There are some friends that I have never even told about this blog.

I have another friend that I miss but I am too proud to pick up the phone and call. Actually it is more than pride--I personally think she is too sensitive and I have seen her kick a best friend to the curb for a reason that she doesn't even understand. I think all her friendships have an expiration date and ours happened to be March 26, 2007 (yes the day before my birthday). I am just pissed at her b/c I think of all the things we did for each other and she can kick our friendship to the curb. She was going to be in my wedding if I ever got married which is a special thing considering that I am eloping.

Why when I ask you what time rush is you tell me that only committee members can go to rush? Now if I haven't been to a chapter meeting since April and we just had a chapter meeting two weeks ago why would you assume that I was trying to go to rush? I could understand if I had been back to Athens regularly then I could understand this response. We obviously were never friends. I just wanted to know what time rush was. Chicks are so simple. I have figured I need to find some male friends so when they do stupid isht I can blame it on the fact that they are men.

Ok so this is no longer why--I got to reconnect with one of my linesisters this weekend. I enjoyed our 5 hour long conversation. When I went to law school I fell off the scene. I have only been back to Hampton twice since I graduated so it was great to talk to her since she is so busy and so was I. It was so great to talk to her since she was one of my closest friends on my line. I love her! She is truly my sister.

My Life (at least this weekend)

Complex Simplicity--I honestly can't figure out what song belongs to me. Could my song be Cut Friends b/c you know I love that song? Oh and you misspelled my name :(

This weekend I hung out with one of my former law school buddies. It was very interesting. You thought I had road rage well she is far worse than me. I love her to death and she knows this but she can no longer drive when we go out.

She took me to see a rock band--definitely not my cup of tea but I enjoyed myself. I can honestly say that the band was good but my issue with rock bands are they fact that most of the time I can't understand what they say. That is a big issue for me b/c it seems that sometimes I just don't understand what any artist is saying. Now why would I want to listen to someone who I can barely understand? I could listen to this band but it definitely won't be a genre a music for me.

After that we went to Luckie Lounge. I had a wonderful time and thoroughly enjoyed my sushi. If you knew me in law school you know I craved sushi. I would have sushi at least once a week. Oh how I miss RuSan's.

I got put in the corner for five minutes on Saturday night. Thanks Raven!

"Nikki on the front row!" Lol

That girl was a prostitute and that is her pimp. I personally thought the girl just had no rhythm but now I know more about her than I could have had it not been for my friend.

There is no need to be uptight. Breathe, stretch, let it go!

Pole dancing does take a lot of strength but it will still be fun to get some pointers.

Why don't I do what I am supposed to do?

Why are you calling me? Does your "girlfriend" know I exist? Better yet I didn't know she existed until you let me and the general public know on Facebook. Better yet we had a conversation about relationships and you said you had a friend. Next time put girl in front of friend.

Why won't the car salesman leave me alone? I will buy a car when I can afford it.

I need a job so I can get my stuff out of storage and have winter clothes. Am I going to have to go shopping for winter clothes? I know you are probably thinking just find the boxes that have the clothes in them. That would be simple if the people who packed my storage hadn't put my clothing boxes at the back of the storage unit.

Friday, September 21, 2007

Why oh why?

Why is September 27th, Marry Your Baby Daddy Day? The concept is great but do we have to use the term Baby Daddy?
This all started in 2005 when a woman decided that she was tired of seeing people with children unmarried. She got together with wedding vendors and got them to cover all costs of a mass wedding for 10 couples.

The Jena 6 disturbs me on so many different levels. I don't think the District Attorney should have held a press conference to talk about the issue. If he felt the need to hold a press conference he should have been prepared for some of the obvious questions.
I hate to be that black person but today I am going to be. I don't think the boys should be facing the charges they are facing but maybe on a certain level they should be facing some charges. The boy got his ass handed to him by a group of people (not saying it was 6 b/c one of the 6 denies even being a part of the fight). I don't think a suspension would have done the job but aggravated battery is way too much. I understand that Michael Bell had a record but at the time he was just 16 and that is an adult crime. I think the biggest issue is the justice system and how they pick and choose who to prosecute. It should be fair and just for everyone.