Wednesday, May 28, 2008

200 (with a picture)

So I haven't posted in a long time b/c I knew this would be my 200th post and I clearly wanted to make it memorable. I have toyed with so many ideas for this post and still not quite sure what I would do to make it memorable at least for me. So I decided to just write. I am going to write about what irritates me, what makes me happy and whatever else I feel like writing.

DollFace two statements to you:
1. I don't think that thing described me at this very moment in my life but some of it was perfect.
2. On your last post were you looking over my shoulder while I was writing in my personal journal? I mean it started out with the exact same sentence.

I absolutely hate when people go to other people's weddings and wear white. I mean I understand if the bride decide that it would be an all white wedding but when I see it happens that is not the case. Why is there always someone wanting to wear white to a wedding. I promise, no matter how tacky it sounds, that I am putting on my invitation that you will be turned away at the door if you wear white, off-white or anything remotely similar at my wedding.

The word is per se not per say. Please if you don't know the word don't use it.

I hate when people say it doesn't bother me. It obviously does bother you when you comment on it. When we are discussing the situation and you are heated about it do not end the conversation with oh it doesn't bother me. I would much rather you say I wish it didn't bother me.

I am so excited that my back is getting married and I am a part of her special day. I am in charge of getting the presents for the bridal shower and I am so excited. This just makes me want to do some event planning. I love to get stuff like that together. Maybe that is what I am passionate about. I also love to decorate. I almost said kcuf law school and went to interior design school. I can't wait to move into my first home and decorate it just like I want it. I have already planned a theme for each room.

Jam his name is Jesse but he is not Jesse the Kappa. You may not have known him b/c he trasferred to Hampton. I promise you it is not Jesse the Kappa.

Speaking of Jesse the Kappa. I remember my last semester at Hampton I had a late class in MLK and I went to class a little early and no one was in the classroom. There was a message on the chalkboard that said Jesse kcufed Mr. HU. I was so in shock b/c it was on the chalkboard. I mean I can't speak on anyone's sexuality so I didn't know what was going on.

Am I the only one who sees high school classmates that look a hot old mess? I mean I know the older we get the more likely we are to gain weight but do you have to look old and trashy.

I went out Sunday night and had a ball. This guy wanted to meet my friend and I introduced them and why do I find out today that he is married. He had no problem mentioning his two kids but forgot to mention his wife. Here is a pic:

Speaking of men not mentioning stuff, the guy I mentioned last week dropped another bomb on me. We were talking on MSN Messenger and he told me that he needed to ask me a legal question about his little girl. So when did he plan on mentioning his wife and daughter. I haven't talked to him via messenger since which means I haven't communicated with him at all. Where do these men come from?

Well now I must go run errands and now that I have reached this milestone I will do a better job at posting.

Thursday, May 22, 2008

Stole it From DollFace

What My Government Name Says About Me

There are 21 letters in your name.
Those 21 letters total to 91
There are 8 vowels and 13 consonants in your name.

What your first name means:French Female Canal; channel. The popular perfume Chanel.

Your number is: 1

The characteristics of #1 are: Initiating action, pioneering, leading, independent, attaining, individual.

The expression or destiny for #1:
A number 1 Expression denotes the skilled executive with keen administrative capabilities. You must develop the capacity to be a fine leader, sales executive, or promoter. You have the tools to become an original person with a creative approach to problem solving, and a penchant for initiating action. Someone may have to follow behind you to handle the details, but you know how to get things going and make things happen. You have a good mind and the ability to use it for your advancement. Because of these factors, you have much potential for achievement and financial rewards. Frequently, this expression belongs to one running a business or striving to achieve a level of accomplishment on ones talents and efforts. You have little need for much supervision, preferring to act on your own with little restraint. You are both ambitious and determined. Self-confident and self-reliant must be yours, as you develop a strong unyielding will and the courage of your convictions.

Although you fear loneliness, you want to be left alone. You fear routine and being in a rut. You often jump the gun because you are afraid of being left behind.

The negative attributes of the 1 Expression are egotism and a self-centered approach to life. This is an aggressive number and if it is over-emphasized it is very hard to live with. You do not have to be overly aggressive to fulfill your destiny. The 1 has a natural instinct to dominate and to be the boss; adhering to the concept of being number One. Again, you do not have to dominate and destroy in order to lead and manage.

Your Soul Urge number is: 5

A Soul Urge number of 5 means:
The 5 soul urge or motivation would like to follow a life of freedom, excitement, adventure and unexpected happening. The idea of travel and freedom to roam intrigues you. You are very much the adventurer at heart. Not particularly concerned about your future or about getting ahead, you can seem superficial and unmotivated.

In a positive sense, the energies of the number 5 make you very adaptable and versatile. You have a natural resourcefulness and enthusiasm that may mark you as a progressive with a good mind and active imagination. You seem to have a natural inclination to be a pace-setter. You are attracted to the unusual and the fast paced.

You may be overly restless and impatient at times. You may dislike the routine work that you are engaged in, and tend to jump from activity to activity, without ever finishing anything. You may have difficulty with responsibility. You don't want to be tied down to a relationship, and it may be hard to commit to one person.

Your Inner Dream number is: 5

An Inner Dream number of 5 means:
You dream of being totally free and unrestrained by responsibility. You see yourself conversing and mingling with the natives in many nations, living for adventure and life experiences. You imagine what you might accomplished.

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Last Night

Last night was interesting, at least for me it was. I decided that I wanted to chat with a certain someone on Facebook b/c I was bored and my mother was working my last nerve. Well this person is an ex of a couple of my friends but none of my friends are friends (we all know I have 50-leven friend groups so this is possible). So we are talking and I bring up his relationship with these individuals and he goes off on me. He tells me that those women were liars and even if he was with more than one at a time they didn't have a label so he could do that. I want to know the truth. Were there really no labels? Or was he just trying to game me b/c eventually he was talking about how he likes his women petite and what not. Mind you my friends weren't what I would consider petite or should I say we have nothing in common body wise. They have big asses and small breasts and I am the complete opposite. Was it game?

Also while on Facebook I decided to send a message to my college crush's sister and see if he had graduated from grad school. She promptly responded that she didn't think he had (get back to that later) and I should send him a message via Facebook. Who knew that he was on Facebook? So I should have asked her back in the day when I found her so I could have reconnected sooner.

How do you not know when your brother's graduation is? And I don't mean like the date--I mean you don't know if he has graduated yet. Did I miss something when I hung out with them?

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Random Part 352 (edited)

So there are always things I forget to blog about so I thought I would take the time to do so today.

Favorite Quote from the wedding: "There is a hater living in my house. Her name is Yasmin. Isn't that the name of that birth control?" Hilarious b/c we thought he said Jasmine and we were trying to figure out why some random woman was living in the newlywed's house. My linesister got married a year ago and her husband is already for babies but she is not trying to get pregnant right now.

So the guy I met last week just left out a whole lot of important information. Not only is he still married but he has a daughter. I am not trying to deal with baby momma's and such.

I was sad on Saturday but now I am numb. Don't want to really talk about it but had to put it out there.

I went out Friday night for a friend's friend's birthday party. I came armed with $20 and made sure my meal was much cheaper than that. I accomplished that by getting something for $14. So it is time to pay the bill and the person holding the money was like everybody needs to pay $46--oh hell nawl! I am not paying that much b/c I didn't spend that much. My other issue was I did not get alcohol and I damn sure am not paying for anyone else's. There were people who had 3 and four bottles of beer and shots of Patron and you think I am about to pay for their alcohol. I handed over my $20 and kept on moving. Then we went to the club--could have done without b/c it was the hood club and we all know I am bougie. Who started this whole fitted in the leg but sagging in the waist jeans for men? It just looks wrong to me.

I got another rejection letter from a job. Kinda hurt my feelings but I will get over it. I think it hurt my feelings b/c I convinced myself that I wanted the job when I really didn't.

DollFace--no need to step your social game up. I can't bear the thought of going to another wedding anytime soon. Give me another year and then you can step your game up. Just kidding--hurry up and get married so I can have another happy wedding to go to.

I talked to one of my close friends last night and we were talking about church. She said she went to her sister's church a couple of weeks ago and the pastor offended her by something he said and when she repeated it I was offended as well. He said (paraphrased), "All thes Muslims are going to bust the gates of hell wide open." That was a mess.

On Different World how did Ron become a dumb ho?

Why is the world making it hard for people like me to find clothes that fit? I was talking to the same close friend mentioned above and she was talking about how she had to buy a zero in a jacket. She is not a big girl by any means but she is bigger than me. Last time I purchased a suit jacket I had to get a 2 so you tell me if I go to the store today to buy a suit jacket it is going to have to be taken in. This is why I hate shopping. I know why the stores do it seeing that I was working in retail when this first started happening but can you cut me some slack. (They do it to make regular size women feel real good and bigger women feel good but I feel bad b/c I can't buy anything.) When I worked at Express they cut out size 14 but made their 12 cut like a 14. I am sure that it has gotten much worse since I worked at Express.

Why did my last law school roommate just disappear off the face of the earth in regards to me? I haven't talked to her since July of last year. Not my fault though--I called her but she hasn't called me back. I eventually deleted her from my phone. Then she randomly sent me a message via facebook b/c I said that I was numb but I think the tears and anger will come later. Go away--you clearly don't consider me a friend. Especially since you have been to Georgia at least twice since you moved away and didn't think to pick up a phone and say hello. It's all good though. I am angry but this too shall pass!

Thursday, May 15, 2008

There is always randomness in my life

Why didn't anyone tell me that Khia was on "Miss Rap Supreme"? Clearly she didn't make it far but why didn't I get the memo?

Also I noticed when I take pictures that I need a new digital camera.

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Just Talking

Ok so the wedding was beautiful--I may go far enough to say it was the most beautiful wedding I have been to. I truly felt the love and God was definitely there for that union. It was an outdoor wedding and we all know I hate the outdoors. I remembered to take some benadryl before so my allergies were in check. We got there just in time for the wedding to start. Someone actually shouted at us to move quickly so we could sit down and make sure we weren't in the pictures. Anyway the bride picked the perfect dress for her. It was similar to the dresses that Tisha Campbell and her girls wore in the homecoming singing scene in School Daze. It fit the bride beautifully. The pastor asked us to say amen during parts of the wedding so that we could be in agreeance with the union. The reception was beautiful. There was a live band that was playing their behinds off and the lead singer was wonderful. She even sang the words to the cupid shuffle b/c you know you can't have a black wedding nowadays without the cupid shuffle. I don't have pictures only b/c my linesister was the photographer for the weekend. I have to harass her about those. We really had a photo shoot before the wedding which is probably why we just made it to the wedding. You know how AKAs can be when it comes to pictures.

Ok so I was on Black Planet yesterday for no reason and about 2 minutes after I got on this guy sent me an instant message. He didn't say hey shawty or anything so I was like hi. We talked for awhile. He seemed nice enough but you know me and internet dating aren't best friends. Well we continued talking on MSN messenger and he dropped a bomb on me. This man tells me he is still married--he claims his wife doesn't want to file for divorce. Dude, I don't have time to deal with such. I go out with you and this chick hunts me down. I know that is extreme but when you have been harassed by someone's ex you just don't set yourself up in that situation again (the ex in the first case was a girlfriend not a wife).

My mother and I kissed and made up. Or should I say she pretended like nothing happened so I had to keep it moving.

After all these weddings I really think if I ever get married I want to have a wedding. Before I wanted to elope but these weddings that I have been to have been so beautiful.

Friday, May 9, 2008


This morning I cried. I haven't cried in a long time but I am just tired. I am tired of people telling me to keep the faith or it must be frustrating to not have a full time job and you graduated over a year ago. I am tired of running around for other people. I am just tired. I need a break. The pressure is getting to me. Believe me I am keeping the faith. I don't think I would be here right now if I didn't keep the faith. It is hard knowing that I work hard and the only thing I have to show for it is thress pieces of paper (undergrad degree, law degree and certificate from the courts of GA saying I can practice) and no real paycheck. This all started b/c my mother is always sending me on errands for her at the last minute.

Yesterday I had to drive to her to give her money that she didn't have b/c she doesn't trust people with her check card. Mind you she had just left the house where she could have gotten the money from me then. What made it that much worse was I had no gas in my car and I was driving somewhere that I had already been that day (it wasn't a short distance and gas cost at the cheapest $3.63). She has to get her car service but she should have done this weeks ago b/c I told her about 3 weeks ago that her car cut off on me. She also needs to get her windshield fixed. This is fine but I have to do all the work. She wanted me to wake up this morning to take her to work. That would be fine if my body didn't hate being late--I can't oversleep when I have something to do so my body wakes up at least an hour before it is time to go. This morning my body decided to wake up around four. I have been awake for about 4 hours and I have to wake up early tomorrow morning to drive to NC. I can't take a nap or go back to sleep b/c I have to get ready for the trip to NC and I have a closing. So I was supposed to drive her to work which is a 45 minute drive, then drive back home, take her car to get checked. Then I had a hair appointment which had to be moved up b/c I have a closing. After I rush through the closing I was going to have to drive to pick her up from work, rush home and get everything notarized, then rush to FedEx to make sure the package got out on time. I also have to find someone to scan my transcript so I can apply to a job that closes today. I would have had the transcript sooner but of course the school has yet to send the transcript. I am tired of doing all her errands b/c she waits to the last minute.

I decided a long time ago that I wasn't going to my family reunion so yesterday I finally told my dad. He was mad at me but I honestly don't care. I don't do family reunions b/c I refused to pay to see people I can see for free. The family members that I wouldn't normally see don't speak to me so why subject myself to that. This all started b/c he wanted me to speak at the family reunion. That would be ok if I hadn't told him about two months ago that I don't do public speaking. There is a reason why I don't want to do litigation. I hate public speaking. The one thing I hated most about law school was the socratic method. The first time I was called on I completely froze up and the teacher had to call on someone else. I hate to speak in front of people and I think I always have.

I am frustrated. Thanks for listening--I needed to get that out. I hope it made sense.

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

Do You Know the Answer?

Do white people get beat up by the police like black people? I mean people love to say that we make things a race issue but I have not seen a white man get shot 50 times by the police. Just wondering.

There is this girl I know who lives with her boyfriend of forever but she has another boyfriend that she has been with for about 2 1/2 years. Yes she has two boyfriends. Well boyfriend number 2 has given her an ultimatum--move out of boyfriend number 1's apartment or we are through. What does she have that he wants that bad?

This weekend I am going to a wedding and I am wearing black and white with green accessories (I will be sure to take better pictures this time). I found a green purse to match the green shoes I bought for my birthday but the purse is a little brighter than the shoes. So I am a matchy, matchy girl--what can I carry my green purse with? I mean what do I wear after the wedding is over and I want to carry my purse b/c I love it and I don't always want to wear the green shoes.

Monday, May 5, 2008

I Know I Have Been M.I.A.

Last week was rough and this time of year gets me. My allergies have completely lost their minds and thrown me for a loop.

It all went downhill on Tuesday. I had a closing in the middle of nowhere on the road to nowhere. The closing went ok and it didn't take very long. I get up to leave and get in the car. The car will not crank up at all. The battery is dead. I am in my mother's car and just so you know BMW's don't have batteries in the hood. The people were nice enough to help us out and after 5 tries the battery comes back to life. We get home (my mom always comes with me when my closings are late and far away) and my mother says she will drive my car and I can go get her a new battery. That is fine with me but the next question is does Sears sell the battery for your car. She says yes I am almost positive they do. I get up the next day and go to get the battery. Get to Sears and drumroll please...of course they don't sell the battery for her car. I call her and she is so frantic like she is doing all the work. I then have to remind her that she is at working chilling on her break while I am hunting down a battery for her car. (By the way if you think I am dramatic my mother is 5 times worse.) The guy at Sears helps me find a battery for the car and I make it to the parts store and the manager installs the battery which is in the trunk. It was a very tiring day but I handled my business and my mother's business.

Later on that night I try to install my new printer and of course the installation didn't work. Daddy dearest was of no help even though he purchased the printer. He kept trying to get me to work on the printer but I had a killer headache. All I could do was pray that God let me go to sleep.

I don't remember much of Thursday except that I was irritable from the fact that I couldn't install the printer.

Friday, Granny has a bank issue. Some company has taken money out of her account. She claims she didn't give out her bank information. She was adamant about it. Well today she said she did give the information. I was pissed b/c I went off on those people I mean I was professional at first but it sounded like a scam and they wouldn't give me the number to corporate so I could file a complaint.

Saturday was much better but that was probably because I left the house. I actually went to Atlanta. I got to hang out with one of my law school friends. She took me to lunch. We met these two guys and it was quite entertaining. The guy who did all the talking would be mad if he knew that I called him entertaining. He said fools entertain. I didn't have the heart to tell him he was a fool. After that I went back to my other friend's house and read a book. Then the man took me to the movies (I don't know what to call him so for now he is the man). We saw Street Kings. It was an interesting movie. I say that because I realize that I look for the good in all people and I was just shocked by all the "bad people" in the movie. I thought about that after the movie too. I always look for the good people and I think that is why I get hurt a lot by so called friends.

I spent the night at the man's house unintentionally. We watched a movie when we got back to his house. By the time the movie was over it was 3 a.m. I owed him a stunt and no it is not what you think. I had to do the walk of shame Sunday morning. I didn't even have a scarf for my hair so that was interesting. I never go to sleep without my scarf. I left my Tiff.any's ring at his house too. I didn't appreciate that so I had to go back and get that one. You never know when I decide I might not want to speak to him again so I need to get my jewelry.

I hung out with my firl and her daughters. They are so special. I tell you they are kidnappable. I am babysitting for them in two weeks. We went to a sports bar and watch the Hawks get beat. She is starting a new business to make some extra cash. She will be a wholeseller of s.e.x goods. Rather interesting.

So as you can tell my life is interesting and so much goes on that it is hard to blog regularly. Damn that sounded like an excuse--I need to do better. Anyway I miss you guys and I promise to do better.