Tell 'Em How You Feel Thursday

I gotta speak first on the dumb broad in Philly! That was a hot mess to say the least. I just feel like black men should be able to sue her for that mess. I know they can't but seriously I wish they could. I know when every black person heard they were like why did she tell that lie. The first thing I thought was they are going to find that little girl dead and her mom decided the only way to get away with it was say a black man did it. I honestly don't know what that was. So you go to the airport where there are security cameras everywhere. Then you carry your behind to Dis.ney Wor.ld. That is just a hot mess. I am actually mad at the people at the counter--does the woman really look like her co-worker? I am thinking probably not. And did the co-worker say anything to the police once the chick was allegedly abducted. All I can say if you are going to make up a story at least plan better. Make up a description in your head and practice it. I just feel like CPS needs to take all the kids from her. She took the little girl out of school weeks ago and no one found this odd. She left her 15 year old and eight month old. The woman is not playing with a full deck. The 15 year old was asking the men to return her mom and sister safely. What the hell kind of mother are you that you worry your child like that? She took that little girl and didn't inform her dad. There is a special corner in hell for her. She will be sitting next to Su.san Sm.ith and the guy from Boston (I saw the Lif.etime movie).

So I found a dress that cost 80 dollars more than the one I picked out. It is a cute dress but of course I am pissed at the price. The only reason why I am ok with is that it is made out of a very similar material and I am going to laugh on the day of her wedding. I know that is evil but she brought it on herself. She approved the dress and it told what the material it was when I emailed it to her. Lesson learned--pick out your bridesmaids' dresses. But I already knew that so it was no lesson. To answer the question about why she didn't pick the dresses--she told us she wanted us to look glamourous and elegant in a dress that we felt we looked that way in. Uh, let's go with no! When I get married I want my bridal to look nice but we can go to the store and try on dresses and I will make the decision. The real problem is she doesn't want to come back to Georgia and do such things. Half of her party is in Georgia and the other half is in Maryland with her. She didn't want to come back to Georgia until the wedding actually--which I find to be stupid but that is just me. I will be all up and through my planning if I don't trust my planner but then again I am a control freak.

My dad held me hos.tage this past weekend. I did get to spend time with his girlfriend. She is a really cool person now that I am older. She bought me some jewelry as a late birthday present. She also bought me some jeans and shoes. I am supposed to go to a party with her thrown by her sorority.

I think I may have found a new hair stylist. I go to her on Tuesday--keep your fingers crossed for me!

I have been busy this week--I have had 2 closings and will have another one tomorrow. My dad finally gave me the car but I have to take it back to get it worked on some more. He pissed me off about the car though. He said he was giving it to me in its condition b/c my mom was pressuring him. Not the case at all. I didn't even comment b/c nothing nice was going to come out.

Thanks you guys for the words about my degree. I guess my frustration was that I went to law school to practice and never really thought about careers outside of practicing. I have tunnel vision like that. It is pretty bad. I am working on it though.

I haven't seen crush in weeks. I am going through withdrawal :-(

That is all,
Coco, Esq.

Tell 'Em How You Feel Thursday

My granny is going to slowly drive me insane. Do you know that woman sat in this house today and did not eat? She slept most of the day and when she got out of the bed and went to eat something. Then she waits for my mom to call her on the phone to see if she wanted something to eat to tell her that her blood sugar was low. Then she asks me to go to the store to get her a Co.ke. I wanted to shake her. I know she had surgery but the more she stays in the bed the more tired she is. You would think she would attempt to at least sit in a chair but that is just asking for too much.

So you know I have been complaining about a job well I applied for a job and was supposed to receive a phone call. I have yet to receive the phone call. I can't call anyone b/c it is fede.ral gover.nment position and I don't know who to contact. Stuff like this drives me insane. Keep me in your prayers.

My cousin who had the ghe.tto wedding last summer is having a baby shower this weekend. What will I be able to tell you guys about the shower?

I really like the crush but he has somethings he needs to work through. While he does this I am in the background. Trying to meet new people but you saw my last post. My friend told me the next time I meet a guy I need to phone a friend. That was hilarious!

Some people make me want to shake them really hard. Maybe if I shake them they will see where they are going wrong. Not being judgmental at all--my pastor told me it is not judging if you are telling the truth. Love him!

I am proud of myself! I have been drinking 64 ounces of water daily. The funny part is if I don't drink water I don't drink anything. I guess that probably means I was walking around dehydrated.

I talked to the youngin the other day and he was telling me how he was supposed to go on a campus visit to Ya.le B School and he couldn't get off work. Well he emailed someone in admissions and when he finished the email he spelled his name incorrectly. That is hilarious. I got an email yesterday and the lady spelled her own name wrong.

That is all!

Smooches,
Coco

Tell 'Em How You Feel Thursday

It is Thursday again!

Yesterday I talked to the crush. Swoon! Can I say the conversation was hilarious and entertaining. He is a sweetie. I will actually get to see him on Sunday :)

So yesterday I went to a job fair. It was interesting. No legal jobs but I figure it is time for me to branch out. I met some nice people and got to see some old friends. After the job fair I went to see my friend and her children. Her son is a bre.ast man and grabbed one of mine (he will be one next week). That was quite interesting. About 30 minutes after I left her house one of the people who lived in the area killed his brother and 2 sisters. Can you say scary? It doesn't pay to live in the hood.

One of my younger cousins was diagnosed with schizophrenia. I worry about my mental health. I feel bad for him but at least he was diagnosed and if something happens it can be explained.

So I have decided to give up sweets. My face broke out really bad this week and I couldn't figure out why. Then I was reminded that I went on a sweet binge last week. The sad part about this is I know when I eat fruit I don't even want sweets.

So I talked to my friend about the bridesmaids dresses and she listened. What is funny is I was the only one concerned about looking for a dress. The wedding is in October and I understand that that is 9 months away but I am on a budget and I need to know how much money I need to put away.

Tell 'Em How You Feel Thursday

I must complain and then I will let it go: The slow people get jobs and I am jobless. Ex. Today I went to pay my granny's life insurance and she gave me more than the actual payment. The woman took the payment and needed to subtract using the calculator (the change was $1.70). She steps to the phone and tries to subtract. Do you know it took her four times trying to subtract to realize that she was using the phone instead of the calculator.

Ok so my mother and I kissed and made up. Everytime we argue it is about her being overbearing. I am sticking to my idea that she is a little mental. I need to find her a man to occupy her time but I don't know if he will be up to the challenge.

I am starting to hate my phone--it mistakenly dials someone once a week. Today it decided to take it up a notch and get on the internet. I think I was on the internet for almost 30 minutes before I noticed.

I need to eat more fruits and vegetables b/c I have sugar issues. I bought almost 5 dollars worth of candy today.

I am reading "Writ.e It Do.wn, Ma.ke It Happ.en". There are some good ideas in the book and I am trying to do some of them.

Why is everything black and white for some people? My mom makes everything about black and white. I understand that some issues are black and white but I feel like I need to look at the good of the situation as opposed to the color of the situation. I know there are people out there that don't like my President b/c some of his ancestors are black but that is not going to stop me from supporting him.

I had more but my memory is bad so I will have to get back to you!

Coco, Esq.

Tell 'Em How You Feel Thursday

It has been an ok week--no complaints from me.

I passed my Insurance test--I am one step closer to the job of my dreams at least in my head.

My mommy is so wonderful--just had to tell the world.

Yesterday my alter ego (Coco) decided that she wanted to get a french bikini wax. That was my first time--that damn Coco. It wasn't as painful as I thought it was going to be.

I am going to work it out--there is a plan.

I need to start writing my topics down because I had something to talk about but now I can't remember it. I promise to do better next week.

Tell 'Em How You Feel Thursday

It is official my car is totaled! It is time to buy a new car whether I want to or not. It is kind of difficult to think about then when you have no job.

It hurt to say goodbye to Jellybean--we have been through so much in the past 11 years, 5 months and 11 days. Oh the stories she could tell--especially late night creeping.

The other day I drove my mom to work and had to pick her up. Well when I picked her up she checked her voicemail. There was a message about my car. Let me make sure you know that I was driving So she tells me to write a phone number done. I look at her like she has lost her mind. She gets mad. Mind you she has a school bag with paper and pen in it and she is using one hand to hold the phone. Craziness I tell you!

I tried something new with my hair. It is pulled up and curly. It probably won't last long but I needed something new and I think it is what was breaking out my skin (partially).

I am stepping out on faith and I pray that the decision I make will lead to a new beginning.

I am convinced that people don't mind putting their lives in my hand. That is the only way I can explain people pulling out in front of me. I used to think it was b/c I drove a small older car but that can't be it. I used to think well maybe they just didn't see me but that isn't it either. The reason I know this is b/c the rental place gave me a big cherry red Explorer (2008) and they still do it. I mean really is it that serious. They even get mad when you blow your horn. You were wrong--suck that crap up.

That is all I have to say this week. Wish I had more but I have been dealing with the car.

Tell 'Em How You Feel Thursday

I am feeling some kind of way about a couple of things. My brain is all jumbled up. I can't even think about all the stuff I am thinking about.

So I read Midnight last week. I am returning the book. It cannot be a part of my collection. It served a purpose but d*mn that.

I asked a dumb question today. I feel so stupid.

I miss my honey. I miss him when I am bored. That is so sad. I have also been craving attention lately.

Yesterday I went to my great uncle's funeral. It was interesting. Yesterday it was probably in the 40s. Why did I see someone with capris on? I met my aunts for the first time yesterday. Yes I am 27 years old and have never met my mother's sisters. I actually sat next to one at the funeral.

I thank the Lord that my mom had a job and insurance that covered me. I saw so many jacked up teeth yesterday. I mean missing teeth and rotten teeth--just nasty.

I am also glad that my mother is shaped like her mother's family. If not she would be a big woman. All the women in the family are big and most of them are tall. I took after my mom so I got lucky as well. Most of the women in my dad's family are short and big.

Midori suggested a book to me. It was wonderful. I feel more prepared for the whole finding a job process.

I just want to scream sometimes.

I found my future home and now I just need a job to pay the mortgage.

I have insurance class this weekend. My instructor is taking me to get hibachi Saturday night. I hope he doesn't want me b/c I am just going along for free food (his suggestion not mine).

Ok so most of the people who know me know that I am not the nicest person (I have never been one to fake it) so why can't I be mean to this guy that likes me? I don't like him at all.

There is this nice guy who seems to like me but I don't like him like that b/c he is out there. I mean I know people have pasts but I just can't get down with him like that.

One day in the near future I am going to write a post about one thing but right now I am not there.

Tell 'Em How You Feel Thursday

It has been a long couple of weeks so if I can remember it all I will tell you exactly how I feel about it.

I am very concerned about my mental health/competence. I have two aunts and an uncle who just aren't there. I can't explain it all but it just concerns me. One of my aunts has completely stopped talking.

My family is dramatic so why shouldn't I be. I hate being a lawyer especially when people keep using my legal expertise for their benefit. I am jobless so unless you are paying I am no longer answering questions.

I am starting a new blog with a friend about what you should know about before deciding on whether to attend law school. You get different perspectives b/c we are opposites. We just want people to know things they never knew before taking such a big step.

My dad is slowly driving me crazy. Since my granny died my mother told him that since he and I have bonded over her death he has no need to call her. That means he calls me multiple times a day. Yesterday he called me on some bullshyt. I almost lost it. He hasn't called me today but it is only the afternoon.

I volunteered for the Ob.ama campaign but I really don't want to work. I am just tired of not having a set schedule. Ok I am going to stop now before I make myself cry.

I live in the boonies--proof of this is the truck I drove past. Some woman had painted on the back of her car that she was a "Proud Gun Toting Christian Mom Supporting Mc.Cain". That keeps me on my volunteering duties.
You know I applied for a position over two months ago and got interviewed and I have heard nothing. I didn't even want the job. Why can't you just say I didn't get it.

I am really sad and I don't know exactly why. I just feel like something isn't right in my life. I don't sleep well and I am just not myself. I feel myself spiraling but I don't what to do.

Why is my granny insistent upon me going to a dermatologist? She told me yesterday that I made enough money to go. When I told her that I have bills she told me that they are cheap b/c my mom told her so. I then told her that my mom pays a copay, not the whole bill. She then told me that I could get something at the drug store. Can I just say that that woman is bad for your self esteem? I have spots on my face but not bad enough that I should get grilled. I left the room and she walked down the hall and continued the conversation with me.

Tell 'Em How You Feel Thursday

I really think I have an anxiety disorder. I just get extra nervous when I have to talk to people I don't know.

My little cousin was in a pageant last night for Homecoming Court (something new they came up with) and she won. I am proud of her and I hope she goes far. Some of the commentary was crazy. I heard it all second hand b/c I was handling some business. Her mother was mad that she put her brother's name in her bio--her brother is her father's oldest child (can you say hot mess on the part of her mother). The contestants were asked if they could go anywhere on earth where would they go and one of the contestants responded I would go to Rome b/c that is where romantic people go. All the black girls in the pageant decided to sing and I heard they were a hot mess. Also in her bio she didn't put any goals or aspirations--what is going on with the future?

Thanks for the cds and my purse thanks you too.

Are you serious? I told you so! Yeah I said it.

I am scared to try because I am afraid to fail at least at some stuff.

I feel like I am not a good friend b/c I honestly don't know how to comfort people. When my friends are upset I feel helpless.

Did you really say you won't come visit your family and friends b/c your future husband can't travel with you. You won't visit for a year b/c of him. I have issues with that. I understand you love him but if you have business to take care of you need to travel by yourself if he can't come.

Should I go to the doctor about my short term memory? If I don't write it down or do it right when I think about it I will completely forget.

Why do you only call when you want something?

Why have I not sent your thank you card? I feel so bad b/c I look at the card that is addressed to you at least 2 times a day.

I want to make a move but that is just not my style. My cousin told me to go for it.

I had more but that whole short term memory thing is serious.