Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Goodbye 2008

I guess this is the obligatory New Year's Eve post. I can honestly say that 2008 wasn't as bad as I thought when I was going through it. I guess I must admit I am overly dramatic. I am very blessed and I thank God for allowing me to live this life.

Now for the resolutions:

1. Take it one day at a time--stop planning every minute. I like to know exactly what is going to happen so this is my chance to stop being a control freak.

2. Let people go. When people show me who they are let them go. There is already one person on this list.

3. Meet new people on purpose. This means I have to go places and try new things.

4. Continue my quest for health. The fried foods really make me sick. The smell of oil actually makes me sick and my family still eats fried food like we don't have health issues.

5. Follow through with my prayer list. I say I am going to pray for this and that but I don't always follow through with that.

6. Realize that my parents are who they are. They drive me crazy but they have been doing that forever so why would it change.

That is all I have right now but my plan is to continue to progress.

Sunday, December 28, 2008

The Quote that Best Describes Me

I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control, and at times hard to handle, but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.

I am ashamed to say I am quoting Marilyn Monroe but I believe it fits me so well. Me to a tee!

Monday, December 22, 2008

Fun on a Sunday Night

So this weekend I was recovering from some mysterious illness. I recovered and made a trip to the A to support my girl's turn at host for an event. It was the Re,d Tie Soi.ree and most of young black Atlanta was there. Can I say I was entertained? I was looking rather nice if I say so myself. I finally got to meet SunFresh. She is such a sweety and is fly as hell. Can I say those shoes were the hotness. I liked her whole ensemble but the shoes were doing the damn thing.

Well the night started off pretty cold and for a minute I felt overdressed. When we walked in all the people had on jeans and cute tops. I of course had on a cute black and red satiny halter dress (you know I don't own any red clothes that I felt were appropriate so I had to find a new dress). Well it eventually got better. My friends and I split up to mingle. There was truly some specialness going on but I am going to give my highlights/observations of the evening.

A girl I went to law school with was there and the last time I was at an event with her she was rather rude but I chalked it up to her situation (my friend who was host was close friends with her recent ex-boyfriend and she wanted to flaunt her new "man" in friend's face so it would get back to the ex). I was wrong, the chick has an issue with me. You know I don't care but I have to tell you all what happened. My friend and I are standing next to each other conversing and she walks right past me and tells my friend hello and gives her a hug. She took the time and energy to ignore me. That was truly entertaining. What is even more entertaining is that her ex is a cutie and you know the rest.

Part two of that observation is that I was talking to another UGA law school grad and she walks by us. He says I know that girl. She is crazy right? When I say I almost passed out. It was hilarious. She has a fatal attraction reputation.

Another observation is I must learn to fix my face. This guy comes up to me and says I know you, I have met you before. I was like I don't know you. He was like I met you before and you used to tutor. I was like sorry you have the wrong person. He was like I know I have met you before. So he said something that I don't remember and then he was like I remember those expressions. As soon as he said that I made one of my faces and he was like there it is right there. So I am remembered for my facial expressions. Need to work on that.

Then there was this guy who was drunk and just telling me more than I needed to know. He was getting a little too personal. Then he decided he wanted to meet SunFresh so I go find her and introduce her. He then realizes that he had already met her when she calls him by name. That right there was hilarious. All I can say SunFresh if he is your type he said he is going to settle down January 1st--but you didn't hear that from me.

Then there were women there that I knew and I also knew that they came there specifically to meet men. So as soon as they walk in they are like where are the cute men. So one was in her late thirties but dressed like she was in her late 40s. She was like are they just looking younger. I was thinking to myself no they are actually just the age they should be for this event. You are just at the wrong event if you want to meet a man your age. It was a hot mess. They complained the whole night about the lack of men but no man is going to approach you if you have the look of desperation on your face. Needless to say they were never approached.

Some people are just rude. There was this guy who just walked in between my friend and me and just started talking to her like we were not having a conversation. Then he hands me his camera to take a picture of the people they graduated with. I almost pulled out my angry black woman but I didn't want to embarass my friend who was the host.

That is all for now but there may be an addendum to this post involving a cutie.

Coco Esq.

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Tell 'Em How You Feel Thursday

Did you really make that phone call to get your way? I mean was it really necessary? Once the majority has spoken shut the kcuf up. That was tacky, insensitive and inappropriate.

After my pity party I feel better. I still am going to pursue the career but I also think I need to sit back and just make an assessment of how my life (careerwise) is going. Speaking of that I have been offered one interview since Tuesday--at least my resume is tempting people.

I normally don't eat breakfast but today I did. I got so sick. I was supposed to do some volunteer work and I had to call the woman and tell her I couldn't make it. That wouldn't be so bad if I hadn't plan to do this work over 2 weeks ago. I believe that I will be better tomorrow though.

So this morning I was driving home from taking my mom to work and I see a pretty ignorant bumper sticker. It says Republican Because everybody can't be on welfare. Do you know I wanted to curse the driver out. I really wanted to say if that was the case please return your stimulus check to the treasury among other things. I won't go on but I will say I am pissed.

I did nothing today but lie in the bed so I don't have much to tell.

Wednesday, December 17, 2008


I have some truly special friends. They brighten up my day. I can be down and they don't know it but they call and it just puts a smile on my face. I try to remember to thank God for them regularly but sometimes I don't. Well this post is to let them know how special they are. They listen to my ramblings and they give me sound advice. They say stuff that I sometimes don't want to hear but they tell me anyway. They say it nicely so as not to hurt my feelings b/c we all know I am sensitive about my sh*t. With that said I love you all and I thank you for being my rocks in my time of need.

Coco Esq

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Pity Party

Why does it always feel like I am having a pity party for myself when it comes to my career or the lack thereof? So my dream career has something to do with estate planning or financial planning. Well trust and estates is not the hotness when it comes to the legal field. I decided to try my luck at the financial planning side of the field. Once again I get my feelings hurt.

Last Friday I went to an Open House for a financial planning firm and was greatly impressed by what I saw. It was definitely something I could see myself doing. Well I started the ball rolling yesterday and today got quickly shut down. I filled out the 7 page application and disclosed all my financial information--you know that debt that I am ashamed to admit to having. I had to take an assessment to see if sales was my thing. Well according to the assessment I can't sale and I am not worth investing in. Sales aren't my first choice of job duties but I can sell my butt off if I know the product. I can actually start the job but I would only be paid on commission which isn't that big of a problem in the future. The problem is the present. You know Jellybean is gone so I need a new car. I can't get a car if I have no income. Also I won't be selling anything anytime soon b/c I actually have to be licensed to sell the products. That takes about 2 months which means 2 months no income. You also know that no one is really hiring for part time jobs b/c of the economy.

I also wanted the job b/c it gave me the opportunity to help people who wouldn't necessarily get this type of help. I already know people who want help with their finances b/c I have been discussing this career path for a minute even before the Open House presented itself.

Ok so my next thing is what do I do when I know it is something I want. I was actually studying for the GRE so I could be competitive for the Certificate of Financial Planning at GS.U. but I found a program that wasn't as competitive and would teach me the same things. The only problem with that was money. I don't have a full time job so I can't pay for something that isn't a necessity. I really want the job and I even started my list of people who may need my services. Trust and believe you are probably on the list. What do I do?

Monday, December 15, 2008


Can I just tell you that I have some characters in my family? Every time I talk to my dad I get a new story and today was no different. I was talking to him about one thing and he put me on hold. When he comes back he proceeds to tell me that my brother is a "missing person". Can you say hot mess on fire? Well anyway my brother lefts his home on Saturday morning (the home he shares with his wife and children) and hasn't been back or heard from. So eventually wife figures out that he has gone to meet some woman and he is with her. Yeah she checked his email and found the woman's information. She called the woman and spoke to her sister. The sister then tells her that her sister is with some dark skinned man with braids (matches my brother's description). I honestly can't deal with these people. My father tells me that this is not the first time he has been a missing person. Can you say hot mess again?

I was going to blog about something else but I will have to do that later--this took the life out of me.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Tell 'Em How You Feel Thursday

It has been an ok week--no complaints from me.

I passed my Insurance test--I am one step closer to the job of my dreams at least in my head.

My mommy is so wonderful--just had to tell the world.

Yesterday my alter ego (Coco) decided that she wanted to get a french bikini wax. That was my first time--that damn Coco. It wasn't as painful as I thought it was going to be.

I am going to work it out--there is a plan.

I need to start writing my topics down because I had something to talk about but now I can't remember it. I promise to do better next week.

Monday, December 8, 2008


I kind of reconnected with a guy I had a crush on in undergrad. I will never tell who it was. He was so nice to me and that is enough to make me crush.

Ok so we know it has be a little abnormally cold in this area but it is still late fall. Well why did my uncle's ex-wife send the children down her with capris? It is late fall in Georgia--no one should be wearing capris especially children that stay sick.

I had more but the heck if I can remember it. I will update!

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Tell 'Em How You Feel Thursday

It is official my car is totaled! It is time to buy a new car whether I want to or not. It is kind of difficult to think about then when you have no job.

It hurt to say goodbye to Jellybean--we have been through so much in the past 11 years, 5 months and 11 days. Oh the stories she could tell--especially late night creeping.

The other day I drove my mom to work and had to pick her up. Well when I picked her up she checked her voicemail. There was a message about my car. Let me make sure you know that I was driving So she tells me to write a phone number done. I look at her like she has lost her mind. She gets mad. Mind you she has a school bag with paper and pen in it and she is using one hand to hold the phone. Craziness I tell you!

I tried something new with my hair. It is pulled up and curly. It probably won't last long but I needed something new and I think it is what was breaking out my skin (partially).

I am stepping out on faith and I pray that the decision I make will lead to a new beginning.

I am convinced that people don't mind putting their lives in my hand. That is the only way I can explain people pulling out in front of me. I used to think it was b/c I drove a small older car but that can't be it. I used to think well maybe they just didn't see me but that isn't it either. The reason I know this is b/c the rental place gave me a big cherry red Explorer (2008) and they still do it. I mean really is it that serious. They even get mad when you blow your horn. You were wrong--suck that crap up.

That is all I have to say this week. Wish I had more but I have been dealing with the car.