Wednesday, October 31, 2007

Halloween Funny

Halloween Party

A wife got a terrible headache and told her husband to go to the Halloween party alone. He, being a devoted husband, protested, but she argued and said she was going to take some aspirin and go to bed and there was no need for his good time to be spoiled by not going. So he took his costume and away he went. The wife, after sleeping soundly for about an hour, woke without pain and as it was still early, decided go to the party.

As her husband didn't know what her costume was, she thought she would have some fun by watching her husband to see how he acted when she was not with him. So she joined the party and soon spotted her husband in his costume, cavorting around on the dance floor, dancing with every nice 'chick' he could and copping a little feel here and a little kiss there. His wife went up to him and being a rather seductive babe herself, he left his new partner high and dry and devoted his time to her. She let him go as far as he wished, naturally, since he was her husband.

After more drinks he finally whispered a little proposition in her ear and she agreed, so off they went to one of the cars and made passionate love in the back seat. Just before unmasking at midnight, she slipped away and went home and put the costume away and got into bed, wondering what kind of explanation he would make up for his outrageous behavior.

She was sitting up reading when he came in, so she asked what kind of time he had. 'Oh, the same old thing. You know I never have a good time when you're not there.' Then she asked, 'Did you dance much?' He replied, I'll tell you, I never even danced one dance. When I got there, I met Pete, Bill Brown and some other guys, so we went into the spare room and played poker all evening.' You must have looked really silly wearing that costume playing poker all night!' she said with unashamed sarcasm. To which the husband replied, 'Actually, I gave my costume to your brother, apparently he had the time of his life.

They Tried to Make Me Cry

Ok so I am an evil witch some days of the week but my friends know the "real" Coco. They even told me how great I was. Those heffas almost brought me to tears. Read what they said:

My sistafriend and co-plaintiff, I have really enjoyed being your friend over the past eight years (wow, that is a log time). You can always offer me encouragement and a compliment when I need it most. You are also an extremely loyal friend (and you, like me are currently paying for your loyalty); but your reaching out to a friend in need is still a great testament to how seriously you take friendship and the lengths to which you are willing to go for a friend. You are incredibly honest at all times—I know if I ask you how you are doing you are really going to tell me how you are doing, which I appreciate quite a bit. I am just so blessed to have you as a friend; love you!!!

My snappy, southern, sistafriend! I am so happy that we have begun to touch base more often. Your words of encouragement have been a blessing! I admire your ability to tell it like it is to the folks that need it. You have the ability to cut through the bs and say what everyone else was thinking in the room. I have also observed your ability to wait on God to direct your paths even when the waiting gets tough. Because of your patience and refusal to settle, I know that God is going to bless you in your career big time! Keep your head up and I will continue to pray for your success!

My fellow southern bred aries sister from the second flo! We have so many things in common, from our upbringing to our likes and dislikes, to being our ideals about friendship. Your friends are very important to you which is reflected by your thoughtful and caring actions. The people around you must have the same consideration and you don't tolerate anything less. For this reason, "friends" have come and gone but that has only made the circle tighter. Law school wasn't what you thought it would be but you overcame all that was trying to hold you back and succeeded. I love that you passionately tackle your goals and have refused to settle for less. I know the job search is difficult, especially when you know exactly what you want. Know that God has something great for you; be patient and you will be blessed. we may not talk as often as before, but I am always here if you need me and I read your blog all the time. You have been a great friend. Thanks for all the years and I look forward to many more.
Luv ya

Take equal parts of Sensitive, strong, demure &, lady like mixed with a pinch of sass & a whole heap of intelligence, let that marinate for about 26 years and you will have the quintessential southern belle sistafriend that we all love: Coco.
Coco you have many admirable qualities but the first one that always comes to my mind is your southern sensibility. Frankie Beverly has a song called "southern girl" and whenever I hear it I think of you (now look, I'm not big on lyrics so if the song is about something nasty then I'm sorry. That wouldn't be the part that reminds me of you.)
Much love

For Coco
... ...southern-belle, hospitalitable, nice-sty but-don't-cross-me, georgia peach, strong, roomie...Coco, esquire...
What I admire about you the most is your drive. You are determined and goal-oriented. You are caring and giving, though you don't like to show it. I can honestly say that I would not have made it through freshman year, if you had been selfish with your printer or other items that you generously let me share. I'll never forget all the thoughtful things that you've done for me, including cards and gifts that you gave to me for birthdays and during difficult times. I pray that God grants you the deepest desires of your heart. I love you...

Channel & Fendi

One of the strongest women I know. I admire your confidence. You love yourself in a way that is truely special. You don't have a phony bone in your body. My fondest memory of you was when you gave the dude at Taco Bell a tongue lashing. You won't allow anyone to even think about playing you. I love that I never have to wonder where I stand with you. You always remind us that the best action in the face of adversity is prayer. My only regret is not getting a chance to kick it with you in the A.

Love you all madly,

Other than my roomate and our RAs you are the only person I remember clearly from freshman move-in. I remember you had on a baby-tee-esque top and some overalls. Your dad told me all about you. I remember thinking...she must be shy or something for her dad to be introducing her to follks. HA!!! You are bold, assertive, loyal, and you demand that the desires of your heart be taken seriously. Overtime we've bonded over many issues--like being from the South and DADDIES! I could always count on you to be honest, sincere, and reasonable. I shared some of my most memorable HU moments with you. Remember when I walked to you room, remembered I left my wallet in my room, and we walked two floors down to my room (all this took less than 5 mins) only to find my room in a certain condition...LOL. You were always there to provides rides, a comfortable space, and even share your mom when she was in town. I know that great things are in store for you. I know it may be taking a while longer for some things to come to pass, but consider it like a stew--it takes a while to get done--but when it is...perfection! I love you dearly and I pray that you continue to strive, perservere, and remain true to yourself and your values. I love you much Coco!


There should be more but the rest of them heffas ain't send me nothing!

Monday, October 29, 2007

Ten Things

Ten Things I Worry About But I Just Hand Over to the Lord!

1. Money
2. Lack of a job
3. Friendships
4. Love relationships
5. The future
6. My family
7. My mother being milked dry by her family
8. Him
9. Forgiveness
10. Those who have done me wrong
This post idea came from a question about parents arguing in front of children. I realize that I hate to argue. I will avoid someone like the plague if we are on the outs but haven't talked about it. I hate to hear other people argue. My mother was never big on arguments so I have always hated to argue. Now there is one person I will argue with and that is probably b/c we are just alike. We will go at it for hours if you let us but oh well.

Saturday, October 27, 2007

What's Going On

Ok so a couple of weeks or days ago (who really remembers) I was upset and I cried a couple of time. Well now I am here to tell you that I am happy. I don't know why and I am not going to question my happiness. I had an interview on Wednesday and it went ok. I am still upset about him but it does take awhile to get over a situation. I gave him more than he gave me and he showed me who he was a long time ago. I tried to move on but I couldn't b/c I always missed him. I knew he wouldn't change b/c who does change but I stuck it out. Still trying to figure out exactly why.

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Why I Love "Will & Grace"

Karen: Would you like to work under my skirt?
Guest Star: Here's some money for a bikini wax. I like my work space to be clean.

My Thoughts

Have you ever just felt left out? I feel like that most of the time. I hear about all the stuff that my friends do together b/c they are closer to each other (in distance) and I just feel left out. Most of my close friends do not live in the South. I have a few linesisters and friends in Atlanta but that is about it. I miss my girls being right around the corner or only a phone call away. I have no money so I am stuck in Fort Valley. I just want my friends to know that I really miss them.

Sitting here remembering undergrad almost brings me to tears. I have some truly wonderful friends and they really make me smile. I miss the laughs--hence the tears!

I had an interview/informational session. I liked the person whose place I could be taking.

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Oh Really Now?

I just had a flashback that I felt I needed to share:

There was this guy that I crushed on for years and he happened to be my friend. He also had a girlfriend so the crush wasn't going too far on my part or his (at least I think). We used to hang out and go to the movies and other stuff. I was cool with his mother and sister too. Well one day I was home from college and felt like going to visit him at his mom's house. So I am sitting in the living room talking to his mom. His dad walks into the living room and says hello to me. That would have been just fine if he hadn't called me by the girlfriend's name. In my head I was thinking Oh really now!!!!!!!!!!!!!! His wife quickly corrected him. I was a little bit flustered b/c even though the girl is cute she ain't got nothing on me. We look nothing alike. She was short and thick (not fat at all) and well you guys know me. I am medium height (in other words tight and just right) and small framed (ok skinny). Needless to say we aren't shaped alike and do not look alike. That was one of the last times I chilled at his house. Also the girlfriend was borderline crazy--he was my friend but I don't do crazy hoes. Mama Sylvia taught me better.


When is it ok to start dating after your marriage is over? Should you wait until the divorce is over? Or just when you and the future ex are no longer together?

I ask this question because I know this girl who just got her divorce finalized in the past month. When I met her this summer she was with her new boyfriend. He seemed very nice. The reason for the divorce was that she cheated on her husband and it wasn't with the new boyfriend. My biggest issue with the situation is it just seems likes she likes to jump into relationships. New boyfriend acts like he really likes her but who knows. If he does will he get hurt? Does she like him for him or for his money? That is allegedly why she married the husband. The boyfriend has money too. What is your take on it.
Lurkers please respond too :)

Monday, October 22, 2007


People why do we do this to our children?

Pray for us please!!!!

Saturday, October 20, 2007

More Thoughts

Hey CS, remember this statement or variation of the statement: If you can't respect the season at least respect the month. Well anyway that is how I prepare to get dressed in the morning. It was warm but I fought the urge to rock my flip flops. Those three and a half years at UGA got me thinking it is ok to wear flip flops. I had a come to Jesus meeting about the shoes.

My cousin is getting married and there is a lot of planning going on so that we don't have to have a big rush around the time of the wedding. Anyway my cousin is much more crunk than I am when it comes to people doing stuff they aren't supposed to. With that being said my cousin has a friend who has designated herself as a maid of honor and thinks that she should be running things. She keeps trying to change the dresses for the wedding. Then today she had the nerve to tell the bridal party that they had to donate money to the bridal shower. I can understand you asking for money but telling me I have to give money. She must not know 'bout me. Last I checked the maid of honor pays for the bridal shower. I have no problem donating money but you need not ever tell me I have to do something.

I had more to talk about but lost my train of thought so consider this post to be continued...

Thursday, October 18, 2007

Back in the Day

So back in the day I remember my uncle's ex-wife having a conversation about some women are just going to be the mistress and how men see them. Looking back on that conversation I think that some men think that I am supposed to be the other woman. I have been placed in some crazy predicaments by men. I know a few men who have made a move on me when they were with their women. One guy who was not in a "relationship" with this girl had the nerve to lick me somewhere above the neck (don't remember exactly where b/c I was slightly inebriated) and his girl was sitting right next to me. She was oblivious to what was going on. Needless to say the kid was kept her distance around this man. There have also been men who told me one thing but clearly their girlfriends that I knew nothing about were told something completely different. I realize that some of these men were trifling but I contributed to the idiocy of these situations. Since I don't want to be anybody's mistress I am taking a big break from the dating scene. I am a little sad but I will get over it. I realize that I want a man in my life but I am not going to have a great man in my life if I don't get my sh*t together.

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Ok so I feel a little prolific

I keep getting ideas to write about!

Ok so I am reading the blog of a woman who says we should be ashamed for having a baby out of wedlock. I understand her sentiment. It is hard out here for the child of a single parent. Us single parent children truly have it hard. People say harsh stuff to us and take out something we have no control over on us. But the purpose of this post is to talk about a statement that the blogger made. When your child doesn't take his/her father's name we are allowing the father to get off the hook. Bullshit! No matter what a woman does a man is his own person. He is going to do whatever he wants whether the child has his name or not. Trust and believe I walk around with my daddy's name and it ain't got me much of anything since I was nine. He had his good moments but on a whole mommy dearest did all the damn work. My biggest fear is that when he dies I am going be left with a mess. He ain't got nothing but debt. My mother was never one for forcing a man to take care of his responsibilities but damn all that. When you lay down and do the stuff to make a baby you better get up and take care of a baby.

I know why my dad wasn't the best of taking care of his responsibilities--the man didn't have to get a job until he graduated from a college. He graduated at 25. He always had somebody to take care of him. He was the baby boy of a large family.

Letting It Go

So I just needed to get a few things off my chest:
Just like it is rude to tell a fat person they are fat the same is true about skinny people. I am not saying that I want to be a fat or anything but why do people feel the need to state the obvious. Last time I checked I walked around in this body 24/7 and I know for a fact I am skinny. I don't need to discuss my weight or size with you. Nor do you need to discuss my weight or size in my presence with someone else. I am comfortable with my size but I don't need to discuss it with you.

I almost cried today a few times. It is officially over. I do believe we had our last conversation today via email. My friend made me feel better about the situation--he wasn't all bad. He had his good qualities so I have the right to be sad that we are over. I mean I did give him 2 years, 11 months and 5 days of my life. Yes it was that serious. We had our ups and downs and we just couldn't overcome our downs or rather I couldn't overcome our downs. Honestly I don't think he cares one way or the other right now.

I have finally embraced the fact that I will not be getting my 2007 Honda Accord EX-L with navigation in alabaster silver. We just weren't meant to be. I didn't even shed a tear which is big for me. I have been planning that purchase since forever (ok maybe not forever). We all know I am a control freak and I want what I want and nothing else will do.

So like I said the friend list is growing shorter and I don't mind. I realized earlier today that I don't even like people right now.

My scalp itches so bad and it is time for a touch-up.

If you are in "ivy stance" and your hands don't hurt guess what, you are not in "ivy stance". That mess ain't cute!


I am so excited b/c I am going to volunteer for Make A Wish!

Spaghetti for dinner tonight!

Does the real world ever feel easy?

Why do people lie? What do you get out of it? I try not to lie. For the most part I will ignore your question before I lie to you. When you lie you have to keep building on it and I don't have time for that.

My list of friends is growing shorter--weeding people out daily.

Was looking at another person's blog and they talked about why children are so unhealthy these days. I don't even think it is about the whole t.v. and video game playing. I think a lot of it has to do with caregivers. When I was younger my granny would kick me out of the house and say don't return to my house until you get all the playing out (ok maybe she didn't say that but she did kick me out of the house) but this same woman will not let my little cousins go outside and play. I am sure their mother doesn't make them go outside.

So I saw "Why Did I Get Married?" last night. I don't know how I feel. Let me know what you think when you see it. Also keep in mind that I have dated a few men who swear they are movie critics and I learned a lot about movies. There are days where we have sat in the bed and picked apart movies. Maybe I am just picky.

Ok so I miss him but it isn't that bad.

To get me through the day without cursing somebody out I carry bible verses in my purse and pull them out when I have a "Come to Jesus" moment.

Why can't people drive? If I am in the slow lane why do you feel the need to ride my bumper? There is a nice empty lane next to me. And if there isn't a nice empty lane next to me I am still in the slow lane. Don't these people know I am itching to buy a new car? It won't be my fault if you hit me from behind. Considering how fast these people are going I probably will get injured (God forbid).

I wish I could do all the things I wanted to do (within reason).

There will be no TMI Tuesdays this week

Ok so no TMI Tuesdays for me b/c my dating life sucks. But I will tell you about the best date I have ever been on. It was the best date b/c he was such a great man--I miss him :(

Anyway it was a rainy day Senior year at Hampton. It was actually a blind date so I really didn't know what to expect. So he decided dinner and a movie would be a good date. He drove to my apartment and picked me up. He walked me to the car and opened the door for me. (You know that stuff that a man is supposed to do.) Well dinner is a home cooked meal at his apartment. It was so sweet. He cooked chicken alfredo and baked me some cookies. We talked and talked. Then we went to the movies. I think we saw the worst movie ever but I just couldn't bear the thought of going to see a Harry Potter movie so we went to see Paid In Full or State Property. I got over the fact that the was the only thing showing at the time we got to the movies. We then left the movies. He took me back to my apartment. He walked me to the door and gave me a hug. Then he asked could he call me the next day. It was the most spectacular date but he was such a gentleman. I wonder what he is doing nowadays.

CS--oh HELL TO THE NAW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Btw, I won't tell if you won't tell. How was "The Game"? I missed it b/c I was at the movies. (My comments stop there b/c I know you haven't seen the movie.)

Monday, October 15, 2007

Why You Gotta Try Me?

So explain to me why I think I am being nice by sending out information about the birthday celebration 6 months in advance especially for my out of town people. One of these individuals who I know for a fact lives check to check was like why you sending it out so early? When I say I am trying to help you save up money ahead of time you get an attitude. Last time I checked the weekend I was planning was not cheap and you gotta buy a plane ticket. Why chicks be trying me? I am about to go on a six month hiatus on "friends" as well.

Sunday, October 14, 2007


Yeah so I had this profound post that I wanted to write the other day but of course I was out and had nothing to write on. Now I can't even remember the topic--I just know it was going to be related to a song or a saying. Boo!

So this weekend was FVSU's Homecoming and FVSU is a very community oriented school which means that everybody in Fort Valley celebrates homecoming. With that being said you see people who have never seen the inside of a high school classroom much less a college classroom. This means you get to see any and everything at Homecoming. I saw an old crackhead/drunk (still don't know which one he was) beat up a little boy. I shouldn't say beat up but I don't know exactly what else to call it. Some kind strangers finally helped the boy. The police eventually showed up--nobody actually called them over and they were too far away to see exactly what happened.

I walked "the strip" which is equivalent to Hampton's Bazaar (FV likes to shut down the street right before the school and let vendors set up there, hence a strip of the street but unfortunately there are only two ways to get to the campus and that is one of them.). I eventually had to leave because I was surrounded by little children. This would have been ok but it was Saturday night and they should have been home where their parents were.

CS to answer your question about my first closing it was kind of scary b/c I had never done one. The people who hired me to do the closing did not give me any instructions except for how to return the papers to them. I adapted though. I made one mistake and had to return to the person's house to have them sign something else. It made the closing longer than it needed to be but I did it.

Ok so I have no money! I don't know how I am surviving and I am not exaggerating--dead broke. Working it out right now though (the closings won't pay me until the beginning of November). I got a little hustle left in me but I am accepting donations.

I found the perfect dress for the Blackout! I am crunk.

Thursday, October 11, 2007

Still Not Ready

So I am still not ready to talk about anything personal. Lots of thoughts running through my head but I feel the need to run from those thoughts.

My third grandmother died yesterday. Obviously she is not my real grandmother but she was my first best friend's grandmother and I used to stay at her house all the time when I was younger. I haven't seen her in ages but I knew she had been having a hard time lately. She had a stroke maybe a year ago and never really recovered. I feel bad b/c I haven't seen her in about two years.

Excited about meeting my back's boyfriend on Sunday--no complaints about him so he must be a winner.

Why did your boy feel the need to ask me if I was going to the GA National Fair or the Homecoming Stepshow? When I said I couldn't afford those things (meaning I didn't want to really go anyway b/c a sista will find a way) he said oh I got you if you want to go. Does your girlfriend know you got me?

Bethlehem--is that really your child's name?

CS--Thanks for sharing such personal moments. I don't know what to say exactly which is why I haven't commented in a minute. I hope you are feeling better.

You home school your child--the same child who is allegedly planning another Colombine. What the hell are you doing that you appear to not notice that he is stockpiling weapons?

I miss him but I know it is for the best.

I did my first closing on Tuesday. I was so nervous!

I am thinking about getting my hair cut.

I need a pedicure desperately!

Have you checked your breasts this month? If not, handle that situation right now! Step away from the computer and do your business!

Have you had your yearly exam? If not make an appointment and handle that!

So I am ready for "Why Did I Get Married?"

I saw this guy today that tried to holla maybe in April (I was still living in Athens but I came home for some reason and met him). He was like don't I know you. Of course I had to say no b/c clearly it wasn't going down like that. I am good at the ignore--completely shut him down with the ignore. He will not be someone worthy of me even thinking about breaking the six month hiatus.

Tuesday, October 9, 2007


So these past two days I have been doing a lot of thinking.
Yesterday I decided it was time to get back to my wonderful relationship with the Lord. In this quest to get that relationship back I made a "promise" to not date any men for six months. This is a hard one for me b/c "he" always finds his way back to me. I always go back and forget the past. I get hurt and then I remember the past.
Speaking of "him" he sent me a text message today. Conversation goes like this:
Him: U dnt talk 2 me nemore
Me: I cant handle u right now
Him: What does tht mean
Me: I need u to be full time and u r not. I cant make u something u r not
This exchange nearly brought me to tears. I am just tired of being caught up with him. I want it to be over but I don't want to talk to him. When I talk to him I get caught up and then my feelings continue to get hurt.
Ok so I had more to say but I am tired of thinking my thoughts. Let's just say to be continued...

TMI Tuesday

1. Wash up, cuddle or fall asleep?
If it is that good fall asleep but normally shower then cuddle.
2. Have you ever fake orgasms?
With my first yes--didn't know the sex was that bad until my second.
3. In any 24 hour period, what is the most number of time you have ever had sex?
4. Have you ever had sex or give/received oral sex while you were driving a car?
5. What do you think the average number of sexual partners your sex has in their lifetime? Do you think most people lie when asked?
I don't know but my guess is 10-15. I think most people lie usually to make themselves look good.
Bonus (as in optional):Can men and women be "just friends?" (Explain)
I would like to think they could but if a person sees something they want they may go after it under the pretense of friendship (you know you been there).

Friday, October 5, 2007

Is It Just Me?

So I sit at home and watch t.v. every night and get disturbed and feel the need to comment on it:

Is anyone noticing how VH1 is taking this "celebreality" thing a bit too far? The Salt and Pepa Show. hmmmmmm

I am very disappointed with ANTM this season. I spend most of the show playing some game on the net or computer. What was this past week's bottom 2? Btw I am beginning to not like Saliesha or Bianca but especially Bianca. The editing of this show is off the chain--they set us up for that one.

I was disappointed in the premiere of Girlfriends. Can we get Toni back? That was just boring.

I was disappointed in the premiere of The Game but I can't wait for the rest of the season. That little teaser was too much.

Ok so I spend my 12:30-1:30 p.m. watching the Young and the Restless--I am tired of Gloria trying to take somebody down when she killed somebody. Jack is dirty but so is she. I am tired of Brad trying to jack up Sharon's marriage. Does he not realize that he is also hurting Noah (even though I don't like the spoiled child). Didn't Noah just get in a fight about Jack--why do you want to create more news when news is what started the fight?

I am mad that NBC did not hold onto Law & Order: CI but at least I still get to see original episodes. I hope the season isn't like the other USA shows. You know that whole show half a season then take a break and then show the other half of the season. That really irks me.

Thursday, October 4, 2007

TMI Tuesdays on Thursday

1. Early bird or night owl?
I am usually an early bird but since I am jobless I have become a night owl.
2. If you could only be one, would you rather be smart or good looking?
That is a hard one especially since now I am both--I would probably say smart only b/c I could at least (prayerfully) get a well-paying job and keep myself company with a book and I have seen ugly women with men so it is possible.
3. Do you gossip?
Of course I do but I am slowing down b/c sometimes I think I am the only one sharing information.
4. On a scale of 1-10, how adventurous are you? (1 is lowest, 10 is highest)
5. On a scale of 1-10, how good a kisser do you think you are? ( ditto )
Since the ex-ho liked to kiss me I will go with at least an 8.

Bonus (as in optional):What do you consider the biggest turn on out of the following? a) lingerie b) movies c) toys d) role playing e) leather f) none of this does anything for me
Lingerie--I think a man staring at me with lingerie on is the best feeling in the world before the foreplay.


Ok so the other day I went to "The Cheesecake Bistro" and I found heaven. I found heaven in a cheesecake. The fudge brownie cheesecake was to die for. I don't even eat chocolate like that but that was the best dessert I have ever had in life.

I am in a happy place right now. I thought leaving "him" alone would be hard but really it isn't. I am enjoying the single life. I realize that there are things that I am still learning about myself that I definitely need to know before being in a relationship. I also see the mistakes my friends are making that they won't admit to themselves.

Speaking of their mistakes--how can you jump into a relationship five seconds after you jumped out of another. Even if the problems of the previous relationship were caused by the other party you are affected by the things this person does. I would be foolish to think about being with someone else in the very near future. I know there is no timeline but I know that it has only been 4 weeks since I talked to "him". I know I need not be messing with anyone.

Wednesday, October 3, 2007

What's Happening

Yesterday was great! I went to Atlanta to see my linesisters. Ok so I am notorious for always being hella early and yesterday was no exception. I left home around 2:00 b/c I wanted to stop by BB&B to get a job application (will I really get a job in retail with a J.D. behind my name?). I also left early b/c the last time I went to Atlanta I was stuck in traffic for almost an hour. Of course it didn't happen that way this time. Since I was very early I stopped at the outlets. I went to Coach, Nine West, Gap, Charlotte Russe and Old Navy. It is a terrible feeling to window shop and you have no money.
I finally leave the outlets and make my way to downtown Atlanta. So I clearly was an hour early but that is how I do. I picked up my linesister/former roommate and her boyfriend. I really like the new/old boyfriend (it was my first time meeting him but they have been together for two years--damn law school-can't afford a plane ticket to save my life and we know I don't drive too far). It was just like old times. We drove around Atlanta--me getting lost. I know my way around downtown but I always get lost. I finally made it to Atlantic Station. We parked and walked around. My ls hasn't changed at all and I love her so much. We went shopping and she bought me some pants (you know I already planned my ensemble for FVSU's Homecoming).
We went to The Cheesecake Bistro. The food was wonderful. My other linesisters showed up late but we still had a ball. It was wonderful sitting there with everybody just talking. I really enjoyed hearing their perspectives on relationships. I just sat there b/c I have no comment on relationships, at least good ones.

So I had to stop in the middle of my post to go to the store. I am hot!!!! Fire-breathing dragon hot. Set the scene: My grandmother retired in 1995 and has been on social security ever since i.e. living on a fixed income. My uncle is a grown ass man. Why is he calling her to wire him some money? Why did she say yes? Who had to go to the store and make this long ass transaction? My grandma offered me some gas money and I couldn't say yes to that. I know she struggles. Hell half of her check goes to my uncle's bills. I don't understand what is his damn problem. I think my ls's boyfriend said it best--the problem with these men running around here today is that they were spoiled. Pray for my family!

Monday, October 1, 2007


Today is the 3 year anniversary of me meeting "him". I haven't talked to him since early last month. I am happy with my alone time. It feels great. Now I just have to get rid of Mr. I Got a Girlfriend that I will tell Facebook about but not you. He wants me to call him--why? I don't disrespect relationships.

So today my friend tells me she got tickets to the Jill Scott concert which is great. Then she says my boyfriend is coming. I said I didn't want to go b/c I don't want to be a third wheel at a Jill Scott concert. She got mad b/c I didn't want to go. Am I wrong? Who wants to be a thid wheel at a Jill Scott concert. When "he" and I had sex for the first time Jill Scott was in the background.

Was anyone else disappointed in the "Girlfriends" season premiere?

I get to see my ls/roommate from college tomorrow. So exciting!


So I have been doing some thinking and I figure if the whole blogging thing is going to work I have to make some confessions. It is not really a confession b/c some people know and some don't.

My first year of law school was terrible. I wasn't ready for law school. I needed to take a break from anything school related. Looking back on that time I realized that I had been in school for forever. My mother pushed and I didn't try to stop her. When I was a senior in high school my mother made me go to college. I didn't really want to do it but she said I had to so I did it. I was always in school and it was frustrating. I wasn't getting enough rest and eventually it took its toll. I got physically sick and never wanted to feel that way again. Anyway the point of this paragraph is to let the world know that I messed up really bad my first year and had to repeat first year of law school. Anyone who has been to law school knows that this is a nightmare. I almost didn't do it b/c I knew that there were other career fields that would make me just as happy. The only thing that got me through this tough time was a therapist. My university had a counseling program and it was great. I did individual therapy and group therapy. My individual therapist helped me rebuild my confidence. He talked to me and most of all he listened. I was able to tell him any and everything. He listened to me talk about my daddy issues and my men issues. He eventually moved on to another school and to this day I miss him. He was that person who didn't pass judgment and made me feel good. He didn't condone all my actions but he didn't make me feel like I was going to hell for doing something I had no business doing.

I am ready to find a job so I can go find a new therapist. When I had an individual therapist I was so much happier. I am not saying that I am unhappy now but I remember knowing that I could walk into someone's office and just let it all out. There is only so much I can tell my friends. Sometimes I don't even understand what I am feeling and a therapist is a trained professional and knows how to get it out.