Thursday, March 26, 2009

Time to Say Goodbye to 27

So tomorrow is my birthday! I am so excited. I will be 28 and I wanted to write something deep but I will have to do that at another time. The stuff I see makes me want to talk about it.

Have you ever looked at someone's wedding pictures and wondered what the hell they were thinking when they picked their dress? I was looking at someone's picture and was trying to figure out where they got this 80s prom dress inspired wedding dress from. Also I saw someone's wedding pictures and their bridesmaids looked a hot mess--the dresses looked like garbage bags. And the bride was beautiful. I just don't get it. If I ever get married I promise not to do that to myself or my friends.

My feelings got hurt and I am sure I will get over it but it is going to take awhile.

I have read a couple of blogs in the past few days about men attempting to holla at women out of their league. I was thinking a lot about the subject and then I went to the library. Why did somebody that shouldn't look at me try to holla? And his approach was a mess. He was sitting at a computer and was like come here girl. Do I know you? Is that really how you approach people? Do women actually respond? I know I didn't. I am just glad he didn't leave his spot and follow me to the stacks.

I am lonely. I want to go on a date. Oh well!

I have been reevaluating my friendships. Some people really aren't my friends and I need to recognize that the relationships are one-sided.

I have been doing bad for Lent. I have eaten sweets three times that I wasn't supposed to. My plan was to cheat on my birthday but other than that I was going to be good. I know I shouldn't use my birthday as an excuse but I want sweets. I want cheesecake.

My mommy took me out for my birthday on Sunday and then she bought me a cute shirt and skirt. Can't wait to wear them. I was so excited to go to the store and buy something that fits in the waist. I rarely have that happen.

Why was I looking at a facebook friend's page and one of her favorite movies is a po.rn movie? I was like that name doesn't sound right so of course I googled it and you know what I got. I didn't look at any of the sites that appeared but I could tell from the short blurbs what it was about.

I still have the crush but I want it to go away. It is waste of my energy.

I will be back with something deep later.

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Tell 'Em How You Feel Thursday

My week has been interesting to say the least.

As some of you know--Fac.ebook friends and other friends my regional paper did a story on me b/c of my work with Dem Party of my county. I would post the link but it clearly has my govt. name in it and everybody doesn't need to know that. Well anyway when I posted the link on fac.ebook all the people minus one had truly positive things to say. So minus one had to say I don't know how I feel about a certain statement that I made in the article. Can you say hater? My statement that the hater was looking at was that a lot of young people voted b/c Ob.ama was the candidate and not b/c they knew about the dem platform. That is a true statement and I can also name some people who specifically voted for him b/c he was black. I am not saying that there weren't people who knew what they were voting but what I was saying was the platform itself is not clear. She pissed me off to the nth degree. I was a effin' poli sci major. I pay attention to all elections b/c I have a degree in the isht. When people have questions they ask me b/c they knew I studied that in college. I mean I don't like politics but I know politics. I was one of the few people who graduated with honors in my major. I know political theory. If you didn't get the picture I lived it for a minute there. The hate was so unnecessary.

My birthday is in 8 days. I can't wait to celebrate!

So the crush has officially been placed in the friend category. The situation isn't really working and as much as I like him I must move on.

So there is a guy that I have been talking to but he lives far away--definitely long distance. I have known him for years and I told him a few weeks ago that I had a crush on him back in the day. I haven't seen him since back in the day. So we flirt and send cute messages to each other. So now I am trying to figure out if I am feeling him now or am I feeling the person I remember. I really don't know if he has changed. Our original relationship was nothing like our current relationship. We were cool but not definitely not like we are now. We can talk about anything now.

Did you guys know I hate basketball? I hate March Madness. With football I know that there will be games on Saturday and Sunday but with basketball who really knows. I even like baseball and hockey (even though I would never go to a hockey game).

Have you ever just wondered about someone? I wonder about my dad all the time. That man just isn't all there. So he was talking to my mom about the article in the newspaper. This nut tells my mom that they may try to find some dirt on me and use it against me. He wanted to know where they got all the information in the article from. Ok I have to break that down with a couple of statements--
1. There is no dirt to be found on me. I am pretty squeaky clean.
2. I told him that the men contacted me and interviewed me--everything in the article he got directly from me (except for the error about where I went to law school).
Ok so back to this rambling that he did--he then tells my mom that my grown cousin (almost 50) is being taken to court for back child support b/c he goes to school board meetings and is concerned about his children. Ok I have to break that down with a couple of statements--
1. What does one have to do with the other?
2. He is being taken to court for back child support b/c he didn't pay it when he first owed it.
I could go on but I figure I will be going off for too dang own long! This is why I can't deal with it.

That is all I have for this week but I did enjoy giving it to you!


Thursday, March 12, 2009

LOL (not really)

Ok so did I ever tell you that my mother is overbearing and almost stalkerish--well she is. I love her but she could drive you to an early grave. I try to tell her only what I want her to know but she tries to get a little special with you and she will figure stuff out on her own. I had to share all of this with you before I told the story.

Ok well you know I have been unemployed for quite some time. I apply for jobs but no response (I finally got some real help and some great career advice). Well when I first graduated from law school I applied for a position with this psycho individual. Said individual is from my hometown and my mother actually contacted said individual before I knew the position was available (it would have been better had I just applied for the position and she looked at my resume). I interviewed and everything. This individual never sent me a rejection letter but reposted the job. I got the message but clearly my mother didn't. My mother said I should reapply since it may be a different time or something like that--once you reject me I keep it moving. Well since the time that I first applied the position has been reposted about 3 or 4 times. That tells me that something is wrong in that office b/c it is about a 2 year position and I applied 2 years ago. That means that said individual has gone through 3 or 4 individuals (one of the reasons I call her psycho).

Well anyway the position was reposted last week. My mom said I should apply and I am looking like that mofo rejected me once and not much has changed since then except my age and bra size so why would the mofo look at my stuff now. Well Momma Coco decided that she would inform individuals that I wanted the job even though I was adamant as they come about not wasting my energy on said individual. Well one of these individuals is an associate of said individual and he called her. Basically said individual made it clear that I would not get the position. But he didn't tell me that. He told me to apply to the position and he cc'd said individual in the email. So of course I felt obligated to apply even though I felt I was wasting resume paper and ink. I refused to waste postage so I made Momma Coco pay.

I shared all of this with Momma Coco to let her know that I knew said individual was psycho and Momma Coco needs to trust my judge of character. I am hoping that she lets go of her stalker tendencies. I am used to the overbearing but the stalker tendencies don't affect me--she doesn't stalk me, she stalks the employers. I go off on her about it but I guess she forgets or something like that. I guess that is what happens when you have an overbearing mommy.

Monday, March 9, 2009

Adults Being Adults

Ok so I have been thinking about this for quite some time and finally realized I needed to discuss it.

What I have seen in the past couple of years is adults depending on others to take care of them. It irks the hell out of me. Especially when the adults are able-bodied. I will give an example:

This guy that I was feeling a couple of years ago got a nice job after graduating from college. He paid his way through college. He eventually got scholarship money but most of his education was paid for with loans in his name. He was younger than me but that isn't the point. His mother is probably in her early to mid 40s. Well he was helping his mom pay the bills. I find no problem with this because I understand if you want to help please help your family. What really bothers me is that he feels compelled to pay her bills. Like he must pay her bills. He also paid his sister's tuition to school. I really have no problem with that b/c she doesn't have to graduate college or whatever kind of school she was in with debt. I am just trying to figure out how was his mom paying bills before he started working and why can't she pay them now. She has the same job and all of that. Why is an adult parent depending on their child (adult or not)? He works in the financial world and he will probably get laid off soon and he was talking about how he can't just randomly not be working b/c he has to pay his mom's bill. What the hell is that? Can someone please tell me why? He is not really concerned about his situation but he is concerned about others. I mean is she creating more bills b/c he has been helping her for the past 2 1/2 years? Something should be paid off or she should be to the point of leaving well below her means since he has been helping her in the past.

Another example is Q on th.e Ba.nd--why the hell did his mom quit her job? Why does he have to pay the family bills? Once again I can understand wanting to help but should this all be placed on the shoulders of someone else. The other issue I have with that situation is where were they throughout the careers of any Ba.dB.oy artist? Did they miss these artists being broke and contract negotiations and what not? You will not quit your job b/c your son signed to anybody's record label especially that one. I need him and his bandmates to be putting money to the side considering who they are working with.

Am I selfish? Should I be happy that these men want to take care of their families? Or should I be more concerned about the fact that they may be struggling to take care of themselves because they are trying to help someone else?

I feel like when I am financially able I am going to help my family but I must first be able to take care of myself.

What do you think?

Friday, March 6, 2009

It's Back

My computer is back! I am so excited but now I need to purchase some more memory b/c my computer is moving uber slow. (I like the word uber.)

Anywho it is time for me to be random.

The crush is a sweetie even though we rarely talk. I like him.

He isn't my only crush though. There's this guy that I talk to regularly. He is such a sweetie too. He is also good for a girl's self-esteem.

With that being said I need to find a man in my area code.

I hate the Lil' Kim Dancing with the Stars commercial. It bothers me and she bothers me.

I hate when people pretend like they know somebody when they really don't. When I ask you a basic question about that person you should be able to give me some kind of answer. Oh well!

My feelings were hurt but I will get over it. Hopefully I won't hold a grudge but I can't promise that I won't. We shall see in the coming months and years.

I feel so bad that I won't be able to go to her graduation. I need to tell her. I figure I can send a nice present and not go instead of going and being broke for too damn long.

I can't believe what you told me. That ain't it. Get yourself together. I didn't even know how to ask the question to get more information b/c it was shocking. Normally I am quick on my feet but I was just silent.

You know men are interesting. I can't say I don't understand them b/c sometimes I do but they are so interesting. The stories I hear make me wonder.

Tomorrow I am going to speak to students at Upward Bound. I am so excited. You know I love touching the children. It makes me feel even better b/c these are students who want to succeed and excel.

Speaking of students--why did my cousin who is in the 9th grade call me and ask me how to spell socialism? And then she asked me to give her a sentence. Can I say WTF? What happened to looking isht up for yourself and figuring out your own sentence? I hope her teacher doesn't look up the sentence b/c I clearly got it from Encarta. (I actually hope the teacher does look up the sentence which is why I was evil and didn't make up my own sentence. You already know I am evil.)

I am so mad at myself. Instead of watching my favorite tv show (C.SI) I watched that mess that is the Ban.d. Why are they surprised that they have no money? Where were they when every other Ba.dB.oy artist was broke and complaining about the way they were treated.

One day soon I am going to have an actual post instead of just random information.

Wednesday, March 4, 2009


Yeah I feel like giving my randoms today especially since I have my mother's computer to play with right now.

Dell finally received my computer! One step closer to getting it back.

So when did it become cool not to let someone know they didn't get the job. I could understand if you didn't interview me but dude you interviewed me. You couldn't send an email saying we went in another direction. Where is the business etiquette?

So you lied to me. I am not surprised but damn every time I think about it, it hurts a little.

Is Tyra sucking me in this year with ANTM? Last cycle I was disappointed.

I am now excited about my birthday! I don't know what brought it on but I am excited.

Steele got punked by the RNC and Rush.

So my uncle's ex-wife has no damn common sense. Ok she may have some but not on a regular basis. She has made some questionable decisions in the past but she is special. Anyway the latest stupid thing I have heard from her was her wanting a Mini Cooper. That would be nice if she didn't have two children. Do you know it didn't don on her until she got in her friend's today that she couldn't fit her two kids and all their stuff in the car. Ok when you see a Mini Cooper do you think of a car for a mom? I mean I personally couldn't drive one b/c I don't travel lightly but a mom even looking at one. I mean you can get one if you plan on driving something else and the economy was better (you know you need some money to be driving around in two cars with just your money). Unfortunately that is not the case. This was to be the main car.

I have been doing well on my quest to give up sweets for Lent!

I am thinking about giving up intimacy as well but I don't see how you can give up something you aren't doing. Oh well!

I believe that is all for the day.

Sunday, March 1, 2009


Yeah so I was supposed to do this ages ago but we all know my attention span is extremely short and I forgot. So sue me!

1. If the you now could go back in time and give advice to you 10 years ago, what would you say?
I would tell myself to truly enjoy Senior year and actually put some thought into the future. Do you really want a degree in Poli Sci or does your mother want you to have a degree in Poli Sci? Speak up for yourself--you haven't gone wrong yet so why do you think you will now. And leave that college boy alone--he has some psycho tendencies.

2. On a scale of 1 to 10, how happy are you with your life?
I would say a 6.5.

3. If you are unhappy with your life, are you actively taking steps towards happiness?
I am--looking for a job and becoming more involved in my community if I must be stuck in this particular community.

4. If you were guaranteed lifelong financial stability in your dream career, would you leave your current job? What is your dream career? (I was asked this question too and am always curious to know what people's answer would be)
That is too easy--since I don't have a current job of course I would go into my dream career. My dream career would be educating people on financial freedom. I would have to come up with my own plan on how that should occur b/c all of the people I know who do this rub me the wrong way. I would also love to have a job where I was helping children make better decisions for their future and show them how important an education is. I want to be that person who makes this world better.

5. How long have you been blogging? What prompted you to start in the first place?
I have been blogging regularly since the Spring of 2007 but I would randomly blog on every so often. What prompted me to blog was the need to tell the world about who I am or at least who I think I am. I get to see how I evolve regularly and I hope for growth.