It sure is! Today I was rejected once again. I cried and cried and I am sure that I will cry some more. I just knew that this was the job for me. I really wanted that job. I am trying to figure out why I am not the best candidate and sometimes not even a candidate to get interviewed. My grades aren't great but I am a hard worker. How can I get experience if I can't get a job? Today I asked myself what was the point of going to college and law school if I can't get a job. I can't even get a minimum wage paying job b/c I am over experienced. I just feel like I am going to be stuck in my hometown for the rest of my life. I feel like I will not be able to pay all my bills ever. Do you know how many times I have deferred my student loans.
All the things I want to say can't even be put into words. My faith is really shaky right now. I have prayed and prayed and nothing. Other people around me pray and get jobs. It's almost like why should I pray if no one is listening to my prayers. I feel bad for saying that but it has been 18 months and I have no job worth speaking of. People keep telling me to pray and keep the faith but if my faith and prayer haven't gotten me a job in 18 months when will I get a job? Will I have to file for bankruptcy--yes times are about to be that bad? I haven't felt this bad in a long time. I mean I truly hurt. I see all these people around me going to work and paying their bills and I can't do it. I make sure I have the minimum for my credit cards but how is that going to help my debt. I can't even buy gas. I want to believe that God is there for me but it has been 18 months. I don't how much more of this I can take. I don't see a light at the end of the tunnel. I don't even know where the end of the tunnel is.