Monday, June 16, 2008
So today I was supposed to do a post about my weekend and I kept putting it off. Well I had to take this time to blog and explore my feelings. About 30 minutes ago my father called me to let me know that they were putting my grandmother on hospice care. I am numb. I feel sad but I don't want to feel sad because my grandmother has been trapped inside her head for some time. She has Alzheimer's and she was diagnosed when I was a freshman or sophomore in high school. I haven't gone to see her in a long time b/c I just haven't. I hate her nursing home and I just hate the idea of anyone being there. It is not an excuse but it is how I feel. I felt so bad when my dad was telling me about it b/c I could tell he was upset but I had nothing to say to comfort him. She has lived a long life. She is in her 80s and knocking on 90's door. I just have to pray and know that God does everything for a reason. Please pray for me and my family!