Friday, July 11, 2008

It's Been Too Long...

Since the last time I was on here but so much has happened that I just haven't had the time to blog.

Well since my last heartfelt blog I have been going back and forth on the whole faith thing. I have been having a hard time praying because I feel like when I pray the Lord is not listening. I know he answers prayers and he has done so in the past but these past 18 months I feel like my prayers are going unanswered. Then I go through the whole thing with the prayer and think well maybe I am not praying for the right thing. With that being said when I pray now I just don't ask for anything for myself.

Yesterday my cousin's sister-in-law's husband killed himself in the backyard. He was about to be arrested for taking money for jobs he performed and not doing the job. He had been gambling and it caught up to him. He apologized to his wife b/c he knew that she was borrowing money to pay bills b/c he was gambling. He had just got finished talking to her and she walked in the house. She heard the gunshot and ran back outside to find him dead. Gambling is an addiction and needs to be treated as such.

I have talked to a couple of people about jobs and they are going to help me network. Did I ever tell you how much I hate networking? I really hate networking!

There is more but I am having a brainfreeze and maybe when I come back I will tell you all about the 4th!


jameil1922 said...

i don't think there's anyone who will tell you it's easy to stay faithful in the face of adversity. b/c it's not. i'm going to stop procrastinating and put my faith story up, too. maybe it will help you. i'm sorry abt your fam's suicide. i know that was awful for her to find. networking sucks.

Babs said...

I'm so sorry to hear that. Suicide is such a terrible thing. He'll never know how bad that will affect her for the rest of her life.

DollFace said... is she doing?

Changing how you pray sounds like a good idea. I remember it being a hard transition from praying for what I want to praying for patience.

I'm ready to hear about the 4th. I have a bottle of water on hand...I heard someone was thirsty;-)

Adei von K said...

whoa. that is serious.