Vulnerable

I don't know how to be vulnerable unless you push me up against the wall. I am not going to let you know all the thoughts running through my head. I want to but in the past when I did share I was told that wasn't how I felt. That impacted me greatly. I keep it all bottled up sometimes. I want to let you in. I want you to love me unconditionally. I want you to hold me. I want to be able to cry in your arms or beam at you brightly but I just can't. Honestly it is not your fault but sometimes our situation doesn't help me let it all out. It really is time for me to move on. To let you go. To let me go. I need to let the real Coco out. The Coco that no one really knows. I don't even know this Coco because I hold in too much.