I am so sorry I haven't blogged in forever.
Before I start I just want to say Jameil he was the owner! Just trifling--don't know how to be businessman.
Have you ever been depressed? I have and it is not a fun feeling. I wasn't in need of drugs or anything but I definitely needed someone to talk to. My first year of law school I was very depressed and didn't know it. I finally got some help and it was the best thing ever. If you don't feel like leaving your bed or just don't feel like your normal self for a long period of time get some help. I learned that I need regular human contact and lots of sunlight. I was surrounded by people all the time but not like I needed. I needed someone around who actually cared and showed concerned. I admit it, I am needy. My first apartment in law school was awful when it came to sunlight. I desperately needed sunlight and the lack of sunlight added to my depression. The bedroom and the office were the only rooms in the place that had windows. I had a total of 3 windows and my entertaining took place in the room with no windows.
I am so afraid of rejection. Last night I sent a text message to the boo and as soon as I sent it I turned my phone off for fear of him saying no. We are doing really well. The whole keep it moving mode with him is working. I can't explain it but we are both in much happier places.
I visited him this weekend and we had fun. He was a little concerned when I didn't show up when I was supposed to (as he should have been) but I was just hanging at my friend's house catching up--she lives 5 minutes from him. I guess it didn't help that I left my cell phone in the car and missed two phone calls from him. We watched t.v. and got something to eat (that is the only thing I hate about hanging out with him--negro doesn't eat until 10 at night and I like to eat before 7). We then watched Casino (I am so lame b/c everytime I go to his house I get the question--"you haven't seen that movie?"). It was good but long--we watched the movie b/c the last time I was at his house I made him watch the A&E special about the real life people. We eventually went to sleep or at least I went to sleep b/c we clearly keep different hours. I woke up Saturday morning and went to the grocery store to get the gumbo ingredients. I got to work and made the gumbo. I told him to watch the pot but I just couldn't trust him with my gumbo. I eventually got dressed for real around 4:00 and ate the gumbo (even though it wasn't right just yet). I left him and went to my friend's house so we could go to UGA's stepshow. I had to go and support the baby soror! She did well--she started off the stepshow. They won second place--I think their stepshow theme was better but the Deltas were much more precise. I just want to say Hampton stepshows spoiled me. There is nothing like an HBCU stepshow. After the stepshow I stopped by the hospital to see my friend b/c they put her in the hospital b/c she was having contractions and she isn't due for at least another two months. She is hilarious. (She had the baby yesterday afternoon.) I finally made it back to the boo's house around 1:00 a.m. I don't think he was very happy about that but he got over it. I went to sleep while he watched t.v. I woke up before he did and got my life together. I left around 4 and did a little visiting. I eventually made it home to watch "The Wire" b/c you know the Super Bowl wasn't that important to me. I just want to say the Audi Super Bowl commercial was the hotness!
I am just trying to figure out how "The Wire" is going to wrap up b/c there is so much going on. I am happy with all that is going on but still it is alot ( I can never remember if that is one or two words--let me know).
Are the writers really going to end this strike soon. I can't take too much of the mess that is replacing my favorite shows. I am not mad at the writers for striking but I am mad at the producers for letting it go on this long. I guess that I mean nothing to them and neither do you.
Ok so I just want to say that I am so proud of Barack. His campaign is bringing me to tears of joy. I support this man--not because he is black but because he cares about what this country is coming to. I appreciate the fact that he is a black man. There has been a lot of debate about black women not supporting him b/c he is a black man but all I have to say is I can't hold what some men have done in the past against this man. I am smart enough to differentiate b/t him and any other man. I see that family is first for him. I see a black man who loves his wife and his children. I see a black man who is loved by his wife and children. If nothing else Obama gets my vote for that reason--there is a group of women who love him something terrible. But once again I must say that Barack gets my support b/c I have followed his campaign and he has this country's best interest at heart. I have educated myself on what this man has to say as well as what Hillary has to say. My issue with Hillary is that she publicly (did I spell that right--my spell check isn't working) flips flops. I wish Barack hadn't run for President only b/c who ever takes W's place has a lot to clean up and probably will only get 4 years in the White House and I think the change we need will take 8 years if not more. I have faith that he can make some changes!
Ok so I gave up profanity for Lent and yesterday was bad. Today has been good but it is only 10:47 a.m. I have been praying hard about it today though. So keep me in your prayers.