Thursday, March 12, 2009

LOL (not really)

Ok so did I ever tell you that my mother is overbearing and almost stalkerish--well she is. I love her but she could drive you to an early grave. I try to tell her only what I want her to know but she tries to get a little special with you and she will figure stuff out on her own. I had to share all of this with you before I told the story.

Ok well you know I have been unemployed for quite some time. I apply for jobs but no response (I finally got some real help and some great career advice). Well when I first graduated from law school I applied for a position with this psycho individual. Said individual is from my hometown and my mother actually contacted said individual before I knew the position was available (it would have been better had I just applied for the position and she looked at my resume). I interviewed and everything. This individual never sent me a rejection letter but reposted the job. I got the message but clearly my mother didn't. My mother said I should reapply since it may be a different time or something like that--once you reject me I keep it moving. Well since the time that I first applied the position has been reposted about 3 or 4 times. That tells me that something is wrong in that office b/c it is about a 2 year position and I applied 2 years ago. That means that said individual has gone through 3 or 4 individuals (one of the reasons I call her psycho).

Well anyway the position was reposted last week. My mom said I should apply and I am looking like that mofo rejected me once and not much has changed since then except my age and bra size so why would the mofo look at my stuff now. Well Momma Coco decided that she would inform individuals that I wanted the job even though I was adamant as they come about not wasting my energy on said individual. Well one of these individuals is an associate of said individual and he called her. Basically said individual made it clear that I would not get the position. But he didn't tell me that. He told me to apply to the position and he cc'd said individual in the email. So of course I felt obligated to apply even though I felt I was wasting resume paper and ink. I refused to waste postage so I made Momma Coco pay.

I shared all of this with Momma Coco to let her know that I knew said individual was psycho and Momma Coco needs to trust my judge of character. I am hoping that she lets go of her stalker tendencies. I am used to the overbearing but the stalker tendencies don't affect me--she doesn't stalk me, she stalks the employers. I go off on her about it but I guess she forgets or something like that. I guess that is what happens when you have an overbearing mommy.

Monday, March 9, 2009

Adults Being Adults

Ok so I have been thinking about this for quite some time and finally realized I needed to discuss it.

What I have seen in the past couple of years is adults depending on others to take care of them. It irks the hell out of me. Especially when the adults are able-bodied. I will give an example:

This guy that I was feeling a couple of years ago got a nice job after graduating from college. He paid his way through college. He eventually got scholarship money but most of his education was paid for with loans in his name. He was younger than me but that isn't the point. His mother is probably in her early to mid 40s. Well he was helping his mom pay the bills. I find no problem with this because I understand if you want to help please help your family. What really bothers me is that he feels compelled to pay her bills. Like he must pay her bills. He also paid his sister's tuition to school. I really have no problem with that b/c she doesn't have to graduate college or whatever kind of school she was in with debt. I am just trying to figure out how was his mom paying bills before he started working and why can't she pay them now. She has the same job and all of that. Why is an adult parent depending on their child (adult or not)? He works in the financial world and he will probably get laid off soon and he was talking about how he can't just randomly not be working b/c he has to pay his mom's bill. What the hell is that? Can someone please tell me why? He is not really concerned about his situation but he is concerned about others. I mean is she creating more bills b/c he has been helping her for the past 2 1/2 years? Something should be paid off or she should be to the point of leaving well below her means since he has been helping her in the past.

Another example is Q on Mak.ing th.e Ba.nd--why the hell did his mom quit her job? Why does he have to pay the family bills? Once again I can understand wanting to help but should this all be placed on the shoulders of someone else. The other issue I have with that situation is where were they throughout the careers of any Ba.dB.oy artist? Did they miss these artists being broke and contract negotiations and what not? You will not quit your job b/c your son signed to anybody's record label especially that one. I need him and his bandmates to be putting money to the side considering who they are working with.

Am I selfish? Should I be happy that these men want to take care of their families? Or should I be more concerned about the fact that they may be struggling to take care of themselves because they are trying to help someone else?

I feel like when I am financially able I am going to help my family but I must first be able to take care of myself.

What do you think?

Friday, March 6, 2009

It's Back

My computer is back! I am so excited but now I need to purchase some more memory b/c my computer is moving uber slow. (I like the word uber.)

Anywho it is time for me to be random.

The crush is a sweetie even though we rarely talk. I like him.

He isn't my only crush though. There's this guy that I talk to regularly. He is such a sweetie too. He is also good for a girl's self-esteem.

With that being said I need to find a man in my area code.

I hate the Lil' Kim Dancing with the Stars commercial. It bothers me and she bothers me.

I hate when people pretend like they know somebody when they really don't. When I ask you a basic question about that person you should be able to give me some kind of answer. Oh well!

My feelings were hurt but I will get over it. Hopefully I won't hold a grudge but I can't promise that I won't. We shall see in the coming months and years.

I feel so bad that I won't be able to go to her graduation. I need to tell her. I figure I can send a nice present and not go instead of going and being broke for too damn long.

I can't believe what you told me. That ain't it. Get yourself together. I didn't even know how to ask the question to get more information b/c it was shocking. Normally I am quick on my feet but I was just silent.

You know men are interesting. I can't say I don't understand them b/c sometimes I do but they are so interesting. The stories I hear make me wonder.

Tomorrow I am going to speak to students at Upward Bound. I am so excited. You know I love touching the children. It makes me feel even better b/c these are students who want to succeed and excel.

Speaking of students--why did my cousin who is in the 9th grade call me and ask me how to spell socialism? And then she asked me to give her a sentence. Can I say WTF? What happened to looking isht up for yourself and figuring out your own sentence? I hope her teacher doesn't look up the sentence b/c I clearly got it from Encarta. (I actually hope the teacher does look up the sentence which is why I was evil and didn't make up my own sentence. You already know I am evil.)

I am so mad at myself. Instead of watching my favorite tv show (C.SI) I watched that mess that is Mak.ing the Ban.d. Why are they surprised that they have no money? Where were they when every other Ba.dB.oy artist was broke and complaining about the way they were treated.

One day soon I am going to have an actual post instead of just random information.

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

Hello

Yeah I feel like giving my randoms today especially since I have my mother's computer to play with right now.

Dell finally received my computer! One step closer to getting it back.

So when did it become cool not to let someone know they didn't get the job. I could understand if you didn't interview me but dude you interviewed me. You couldn't send an email saying we went in another direction. Where is the business etiquette?

So you lied to me. I am not surprised but damn every time I think about it, it hurts a little.

Is Tyra sucking me in this year with ANTM? Last cycle I was disappointed.

I am now excited about my birthday! I don't know what brought it on but I am excited.

Steele got punked by the RNC and Rush.

So my uncle's ex-wife has no damn common sense. Ok she may have some but not on a regular basis. She has made some questionable decisions in the past but she is special. Anyway the latest stupid thing I have heard from her was her wanting a Mini Cooper. That would be nice if she didn't have two children. Do you know it didn't don on her until she got in her friend's today that she couldn't fit her two kids and all their stuff in the car. Ok when you see a Mini Cooper do you think of a car for a mom? I mean I personally couldn't drive one b/c I don't travel lightly but a mom even looking at one. I mean you can get one if you plan on driving something else and the economy was better (you know you need some money to be driving around in two cars with just your money). Unfortunately that is not the case. This was to be the main car.

I have been doing well on my quest to give up sweets for Lent!

I am thinking about giving up intimacy as well but I don't see how you can give up something you aren't doing. Oh well!

I believe that is all for the day.

Sunday, March 1, 2009

Interview

Yeah so I was supposed to do this ages ago but we all know my attention span is extremely short and I forgot. So sue me!



1. If the you now could go back in time and give advice to you 10 years ago, what would you say?
I would tell myself to truly enjoy Senior year and actually put some thought into the future. Do you really want a degree in Poli Sci or does your mother want you to have a degree in Poli Sci? Speak up for yourself--you haven't gone wrong yet so why do you think you will now. And leave that college boy alone--he has some psycho tendencies.

2. On a scale of 1 to 10, how happy are you with your life?
I would say a 6.5.

3. If you are unhappy with your life, are you actively taking steps towards happiness?
I am--looking for a job and becoming more involved in my community if I must be stuck in this particular community.

4. If you were guaranteed lifelong financial stability in your dream career, would you leave your current job? What is your dream career? (I was asked this question too and am always curious to know what people's answer would be)
That is too easy--since I don't have a current job of course I would go into my dream career. My dream career would be educating people on financial freedom. I would have to come up with my own plan on how that should occur b/c all of the people I know who do this rub me the wrong way. I would also love to have a job where I was helping children make better decisions for their future and show them how important an education is. I want to be that person who makes this world better.

5. How long have you been blogging? What prompted you to start in the first place?
I have been blogging regularly since the Spring of 2007 but I would randomly blog on My.space every so often. What prompted me to blog was the need to tell the world about who I am or at least who I think I am. I get to see how I evolve regularly and I hope for growth.

Saturday, February 28, 2009

Feelings

So lately I have been feeling some type of way. Normally I am extremely excited about my birthday but this year not so much. Actually this year I feel like I could go without celebrating (anyone who really knows me who is reading this is probably gasping for air). I had to figure out why I am feeling this way and I finally figured it out. I am not satisfied with my life so I don't feel like celebrating. I am happy for friends and family but I need something more. I need a job and some love in my life.

I compare my life to my mom and right now I am not measuring up in my head. When my mom was my age she had a career and a baby. She also had a man but clearly I won't get into how bad that ended (let's just say she soon became a single mother). I have 2 degrees and nothing else. I hate to say it like that but it is true. And to add insult to injury I have debt b/c of one of those degrees. The job/career was supposed to help me pay off the debt but that isn't happening.

I want to delve deeper but right now I am just not ready. To be continued...

Smooches,
Coco, Esq.

Friday, February 27, 2009

Randomness

I have some tendencies I need to work on.

I gave up sweets for Lent. My sweet tooth is bad and I needed to work on it.

I still haven't sent my computer to De.ll. That is bad considering I could have wireless if I sent it to the repair place.

I don't have much today but I wanted to talk to you guys.

I still know nothing about the job. I am entirely too impatient. I think God is testing my patience and I am failing miserably.

I love my friends! Thanks DollFace for the text messages last week. I really was emotional and you helped me at least talk about it.

Did I tell you guys if I don't find a job I am moving in with my friend and being her nanny? Yeah the more I think about that the more I hate the idea. I don't want to be responsible for a baby especially if it is not mine. I am so my mother's child! She doesn't hold babies until they are at least 6 months. I am sure my infancy was pretty interesting with her.

I want some cookies so bad. I have been talking myself out of this for the past two days. I also want some pecans that are coated in sugar. I need to go pray.

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Tell 'Em How You Feel Thursday

So today was long and boring! I played on the internet all day in between job searching. I am really hoping that I will get a phone call really soon saying I got the job. The main people said I am eligible/qualified for the job. Pray for me!


I can be financial in my sorority again! My grad chapter jacked up my dues and I thought it was taken care of until I tried to pay my dues last year. So now I can be active and financial!

I finally harassed the bride enough to go ahead and pick out the dress. She picked it out today and hopefully the decision will be finalized tomorrow.

I am going to an undergrad party tonight. That should be oh so interesting since I haven't seen undergrad in almost 6 years and my senior year I rarely went to parties. I think I may have been a little lame but I made up for all of that in law school.

So the crush appears to be back in the crush category. The other guy helped me on Tuesday while I was crying my little heart out. He didn't know I was crying but he definitely helped me through it. Afterwards we decided that we were going to get married jokingly. But I did tell him if I am still single at 30 and I am coming for him.

I have nothing else for you guys but I wanted to blog before I sent my computer away. I may blog from my phone but I seriously doubt it.

Smooches,
Coco, Esq.

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Good News

So today I went to a meeting to mobilize the Democratic Party in my home county. I am the Interim Chair of the Democ.ratic Commi.ttee of Pea.ch Cou.nty. I am truly excited about this endeavour and hopefully can accomplish some things. I wasn't the youngest person there but I was the youngest working professional (I use that term loosely since we know my job situation). Everyone was excited and happy that I took on the job. I think they want me to be the permanent chair but hopefully I will be leaving the area soon. But I am still excited about the opportunity! This state needs to do better with the whole political thing b/c there was no reason why Georgia shouldn't have been blue or at least purple.

Monday, February 16, 2009

On My Mind

Yeah so I didn't post anything last week. Sorry about that but last week was extremely stressful. Everyday I had something to do and had to wake up entirely too early when I went to sleep entirely too late. Anywho I will give an update about all of it.

Last week I had 5 closings which is extremely good in this economy--nice check in a few weeks for only about 7 hours of work.

Last Wednesday was the job fair. Yeah I never made it inside. I actually had an interview on Wednesday morning that I think went well. I will find out soon hopefully (but it's not a lawyer job). Anyway, after I left the interview I went to the job fair location. I was talking on the phone to my friend who I was supposed to meet there and she tells me that the line is off the chain. When she got there the line was wrapped around the building 3 times. It was a federal building also. It was crazy. We decided to strategize and drove around to figure out where we could strategize and not pay to park (she took the train there). So we decide to drive by the location so I could see the line. While driving we see a lady who actually made it into the fair. She tells us that there are only about 25-30 recruiters and only 2 were taking resumes. She then says others told her to apply for federal jobs online and none of their agencies are hiring b/c they are waiting on the stimulus package to pass. That was my cue to drive away and find us some food.

Friday I went to a career preview for a financial planning company. I just have to take a personality test. I probably should have taken it this weekend but I was so sleepy that I slept most of the weekend.

He called me on Saturday but all I could say was hello sleepily and he said I could call him later. I did but we didn't talk. So nothing else to say about him.

The crush is on ice. No developments but he did wish me luck on my interview and all that jazz.

My mommy bought me the cutest shoes for Valentine's Day. They will be part of the birthday ensemble.

As you may know I spilled water on my computer about a month ago and it appeared to have killed my wireless card. I got a long warranty and it isn't up yet so De.ll will be getting the computer and fixing it--any issues that I can come up with they will fix.

Sunday I went to the mall and found a dress and a shirt from Ex.press for less than $20. I am bringing sexy back! Pictures eventually.

Oh yeah I hate being the only technical person in my house. That means I have to figure out stuff that other people "can't". My mom's school gave them Ma.cs and she wants to use it at home. Well I only had ethernet. I had to talk to our internet provider and come up with a solution to fix the problem. The guy told me it would be best to just go to the store and get a wireless router. I go get the router and it won't install properly. I figure out how to install it without the installation disk and that is when I notice that my wireless connection doesn't work. I call my dad and ask for his help. He sends me through all this crap and I download driver after driver. Then I figure out that something is wrong with the actual card. I contact De.ll via the net and then phone. Guy tells me it can be shipped and fixed. My mom's computer won't connect to the ethernet and then it won't connect to the wireless network. I really think that is because her school only wants her to be on one network. I can't promise that but I think that is the case. She doesn't understand connecting to the net and no matter how you explain it to her she doesn't get it. I just want to grab and shake her.

I was so unproductive today.

I also need to do my interview from Mimi!

Since I will have to send the computer away I will be out of commission for a couple of days if not weeks.

I need someone to rub on me.

Some people and their emotions drive me crazy.

My friend whose wedding I will be in is going to have a hot mess of a wedding. I still have no dress or dress options. The wedding is in 7 months and there is no reception venue or decision of whether the reception will be formal or informal. She almost decided not to come home to get stuff together for the wedding. All I can say is I am going to be cute regardless. I should probably harass her again about the dresses.