Obligatory Post of The Week/Randomness in My Life

Ok so is "I want you to sit on my fa.ce" the new pickup line? I went out last weekend and I was clearly minding my own business in my cute sweater dress and I get that. Can you say keep it moving? Do you even know me like that to say it much less attempt to do it?

I love my friends! I just wanted to let them know.

I am so ok being by myself right now. I would love to date (not pressed about it) but I would first need to leave the house and then meet someone. I got to spend time with the crush on Sunday and that was interesting. He is hilarious and sweet. I love the fact that he makes me laugh. No matter what he will be a great friend. I think I am about to place him in the friend category. I also think I like him more than he likes me.

I need a new car so bad. The other day I was riding around in my mother's old car and it just turned off as I was making a right turn. That was the one time I was happy to live in a small town. Some men were nice enough to help me and I was able to walk to my cousin's job to borrow her car. There aren't as many gentlemen out there as I thought b/c a lot of men just drove around me. Well the car is fixed now.

I am supposed to be going to a Federal Job Fair on Wednesday. Keep me in your prayers!

I just want to give a shout out to my LS LNB! I know she reads this and we don't talk often but I want her to know I love her. I love you too LS AH!

Ink and paper are very expensive!

I miss Part-time but he is an asshole. We haven't had a falling out or anything but I don't have the urge to talk to him. We are just a never ending cycle. This is my opportunity to break the cycle.

There is something I want to tell you guys but I don't know what you will think of me after I tell it. My close friends know. It is not bad but when it happened it felt terrible.

Tell 'Em How You Feel Thursday

It is Thursday again!

Yesterday I talked to the crush. Swoon! Can I say the conversation was hilarious and entertaining. He is a sweetie. I will actually get to see him on Sunday :)

So yesterday I went to a job fair. It was interesting. No legal jobs but I figure it is time for me to branch out. I met some nice people and got to see some old friends. After the job fair I went to see my friend and her children. Her son is a bre.ast man and grabbed one of mine (he will be one next week). That was quite interesting. About 30 minutes after I left her house one of the people who lived in the area killed his brother and 2 sisters. Can you say scary? It doesn't pay to live in the hood.

One of my younger cousins was diagnosed with schizophrenia. I worry about my mental health. I feel bad for him but at least he was diagnosed and if something happens it can be explained.

So I have decided to give up sweets. My face broke out really bad this week and I couldn't figure out why. Then I was reminded that I went on a sweet binge last week. The sad part about this is I know when I eat fruit I don't even want sweets.

So I talked to my friend about the bridesmaids dresses and she listened. What is funny is I was the only one concerned about looking for a dress. The wedding is in October and I understand that that is 9 months away but I am on a budget and I need to know how much money I need to put away.

Irritation

So my friend is getting married and I am a bridesmaid. She wants the bridesmaids to pick out their own dresses but she wants to approve them first. She is doing this so we won't have to spend a large sum of money. I found a beautiful and relatively inexpensive dress at Nord.strom's website. I send her the picture from the website and firmly get shut down. Nice dress but the satin fabric won't look right on everyone. Ok that would have been nice to know while I am searching for the dress considering the fabric swatches she sent us were satin. I honestly feel if you need to approve you need to pick out the dress. You should also pick out the dress b/c all of your bridesmaids live in different areas of the country and pictures are only going to do so much. Is it just me or is this stupid? It would make more sense if the bridesmaid lived in the same area and went shopping together. But since we don't live in the same area she should find dresses that fit everyone or at least fabric that looks good on everyone.

Coco, Esq.

Tell 'Em How You Feel Thursday

I must complain and then I will let it go: The slow people get jobs and I am jobless. Ex. Today I went to pay my granny's life insurance and she gave me more than the actual payment. The woman took the payment and needed to subtract using the calculator (the change was $1.70). She steps to the phone and tries to subtract. Do you know it took her four times trying to subtract to realize that she was using the phone instead of the calculator.

Ok so my mother and I kissed and made up. Everytime we argue it is about her being overbearing. I am sticking to my idea that she is a little mental. I need to find her a man to occupy her time but I don't know if he will be up to the challenge.

I am starting to hate my phone--it mistakenly dials someone once a week. Today it decided to take it up a notch and get on the internet. I think I was on the internet for almost 30 minutes before I noticed.

I need to eat more fruits and vegetables b/c I have sugar issues. I bought almost 5 dollars worth of candy today.

I am reading "Writ.e It Do.wn, Ma.ke It Happ.en". There are some good ideas in the book and I am trying to do some of them.

Why is everything black and white for some people? My mom makes everything about black and white. I understand that some issues are black and white but I feel like I need to look at the good of the situation as opposed to the color of the situation. I know there are people out there that don't like my President b/c some of his ancestors are black but that is not going to stop me from supporting him.

I had more but my memory is bad so I will have to get back to you!

Coco, Esq.

January 20, 2009

I had to blog today. My President is Barack H. Obama! He looks like me and he understands some of my struggles that no other President before him has. I shed tears of joy today. The emotions cannot be put into words. I know the only thing that would have made this better was to be there in the midst. Today will forever be in my memory.

That ceremony was truly empowering. I respect all who spoke including Ri.ck War.ren. Josep.h Low.ry did it in his benediction. Forty years ago he wouldn't have been able to do that and he didn't wouldn't have been speaking at an African-American President's Inauguration. That right there made me feel so good. He is a bridge to this country's past and I am thankful for him and all who marched with him.

I am so excited that I got to see the Hampton University Marching Force in the parade. I was so proud of my alma mater! They had the First Lady getting her dance on. I get to call her my First Lady. She looks like me. That is a great feeling that many thought I would never get to feel.

I just thank the Lord that I get to see such things! I am smiling and I will not allow anyone to steal that joy!

I refuse to allow the negativity of others to take this moment of history away from me but I will say that I am a little hot that the local Fox station showed no coverage of this occasion. The only thing that doesn't make truly upset about that is that they rarely show press conferences that W had. I guess they are equal opportunity on ignoring Presidents.

Dear God,

Please take me away. These people are driving me crazy. Someone is lying and won't admit to it. My mother just lost her mind and tried to hit me. I have to get out of here before I lose it. I don't want be here any more. I need to get away. Lord help me! I need you right now. I am constantly applying to jobs. Please help me! I can't go on like this much longer.

Coco

Rambling

I really like him...I think. He is just not feeling me.

So why did another he ask me what my type was? Why didn't I just say you? Now he is talking about hooking me up with his fraternity brothers--no I want him.

It's official I have been sucked in. I gotta get out soon.

2009 will be better for me.

Would you marry someone that your parents didn't like? I don't think I would but I guess I haven't been placed in that situation. I have a friend and her mother-in-law doesn't like her. It's gotten to the point that she won't help with the grandkids. I have another friend who keeps having issues with her future husbands family. It started with the cousin and now it is the sister. The sister is crazy though. The sister went to a "spiritu.al advi.sor" or "psy.chic" and the person told her that her brother was not happy. He was not being satisfied sexu.ally. Then she confronted her brother with what the person told her. I wouldn't have told anyone that I went there. I mean I honestly don't know what goes on in their bedroom and I really don't care. Why does the sister care especially when some random person told her that?

In less than 20 days Barack will be sworn in!

If your ex-boyfriend called you while you were with your current boyfriend would you answer the phone and say, "I am with my boyfriend and don't call me ever again,"?

I think that man finally left me alone!

Positivity is the key!

Tell 'Em How You Feel Thursday

Happy New Year! It is 2009! So I was knocked out when the clock struck 12. I am ok with that b/c I really just wanted to rest. 2009 will be spent on the grind :)

I am happy. Not expecting anything from anyone.

In the past 24 hours I have applied to 4 or 5 jobs. Found some more I need to apply to as well.

I like a boy but I don't know if he likes me.

I want to hang out with SunFresh/K.I.M. She is a cool girl and we probably have a lot in common especially since we were born 4 days apart.

I don't have much for you guys today.

Goodbye 2008

I guess this is the obligatory New Year's Eve post. I can honestly say that 2008 wasn't as bad as I thought when I was going through it. I guess I must admit I am overly dramatic. I am very blessed and I thank God for allowing me to live this life.

Now for the resolutions:

1. Take it one day at a time--stop planning every minute. I like to know exactly what is going to happen so this is my chance to stop being a control freak.

2. Let people go. When people show me who they are let them go. There is already one person on this list.

3. Meet new people on purpose. This means I have to go places and try new things.

4. Continue my quest for health. The fried foods really make me sick. The smell of oil actually makes me sick and my family still eats fried food like we don't have health issues.

5. Follow through with my prayer list. I say I am going to pray for this and that but I don't always follow through with that.

6. Realize that my parents are who they are. They drive me crazy but they have been doing that forever so why would it change.

That is all I have right now but my plan is to continue to progress.

The Quote that Best Describes Me

I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control, and at times hard to handle, but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.

I am ashamed to say I am quoting Marilyn Monroe but I believe it fits me so well. Me to a tee!