Didn't Happen

Ok so the post about daddy issues didn't happen today. Whenever I plan to write it doesn't go as it should.

Lately I haven't been feeling well. I caught a cold awhile ago and since then I haven't had an appetite and haven't been sleeping well. I might go to sleep at 1:30 a.m. and wake up at 6:30 a.m. I am so drained. I think the sleep part comes from the dependency on Nyquil. Pray for me to get some sleep and eat a real meal soon.

My mother and I had a good conversation today. We discussed so many topics in such a short conversation and she didn't act like she didn't hear me. Whenever I say something she doesn't like to hear she pretends like she doesn't hear me and moves on to the next conversation.

We talked about my dad and how he mooches off his girlfriend and didn't take care of me. We talked about the problems in the black community. My theory is that a lot of the issues come from the fact that some parents just don't care. I pointed out to her that I may be one of the only people in my neighborhood that I grew up who went to college and grad school. I grew up with some smart people but you can't tell by what goes on in my neighborhood. We also talked about how she uses money to show people she cares. I love her to death but she spends money that she doesn't have to make people happy--myself included. We also talked about how I don't truly appreciate the value of a dollar. If you knew me you would know I like to spend money. Saving money is hard for me to do but I am doing much better especially since I have no money. All of this was talked about in about a 15 minute period of time. I love my mommy!